Saturday, July 26, 2008 1:16:12 PM
It is always the same problem: you learn while the sun is shining and after the exams the weather turns foul and you sit at home. NO - not this summer! The weather is awesome and altough my boyfriend left me alone in our city - because he has to do a practical training in a small town in the south of Germany - I am happy and have a lot to do!
I wanted to change some things in my life. The first part to put it into effect was to move into my own flat (but I have to admit that I do not already move into it).
Yes, after all that topic with Pineapple I found a flat near the city. I was so happy! Everything will alter now. I will be totally independent and do not ask permanently when we can move together. Of course I did not ask always to anger or to browbeat him but to start changing my life and I learned that everything needs time and that the change does not start with other people but with yourself.
This lesson was important to take.
And I met lots of new people so that everything in my life is going on.
But there are still worries concerning me and Pineapple - worries that we alienate from each other because of the huge distance.
And of course there are smart and pretty guys between the people I met.
The question is when everyone of each other is changing herself or himself - do we stay the same people with the same dreams, emotions and fantasies?
I do not know.
The only answer for that probematic question is: LOVE.
If he needs and loves me and if I need and love him is it possible then that everyone of us change but concerning love do we stay the same - around this "Love core"?
This is life: a big surprise.
We can only do everything in one's power.
The summer hitlist with really great summer songs:
1.) Air - All I Need
2.) Gabriella Cilmi - Sweet About Me
3.) The Ting Tings - That's Not My Name
4.) Fatboy Slim - Right Here Right Now
5.) Estelle - No Substitute Love
6.) Peter Fox - Alles Neu
7.) Fergie - Labels Or Love
8.) Monrose - Strike The Match
9.) Kid Rock - All Summer Long
10.) Simple Minds - Don't You (Forget You About Me)
11.) The Pussycat Dolls - When I Grow Up
12.) Nancy Sinatra - These Boots Are Made For Walking