Matiz

I tried not to cry, I tried my hardest.
The hardest part is letting go.
Letting go of all the nights we shared.
The way I knew it was you calling.
You know that it's haunting
I loved you more than i should , more than was good
It's been three days since i got some sleep
And I'm at that point where I know i should let go
but we both know I'm not that strong...
I just can't get over you, but i'll be alright.
I just don't think it will be tonight.
We found love a place between love and hate
Where nothing feels that good ,and nothing feels that great.
You can tell me there's nobody else, but I feel it.
You can tell me you're home alone ,but I see it.
Just because you said it doesn't mean you meant it.
So let's not pretend that you're alone tonight.
I don't blame you anymore, it's to much pain to store and it left me half dead
All I can do is get me past the ghost of you.
I found myself wondering if you ever did care?
I keep looking out my window and even if wishing was a waste of time...
And I never crossed your mind, I still wish from the bottom of my heart you're there.
It's because when you said Goodbye , I heard Hello...
Where are you gonna go? I'm the only fool you know.
I keep telling myself , I should let the story end.
I know I'll be okay ,once I find the other side of someday.
I looked back at the things we had,and find that the things that made you smile made me sad.
How can I move on when I'm still in love with you?
It's almost as if you had it planned, it's like you smiled and shook my hand, and said " hi. I'm about to screw you over big time." What was I suppose to do?
This was hoe you wanted it to be.You played a joke on me!
Now you're driving away from my car crash of a heart,like you never notice that you're tearing me apart.
I lost my mind, and that saved my life, but I'm not gonna lie...
I thought the sadness would get bored and go away, but it seems it's here to stay.
So I'll be covering my face ,but i don't think I can hide the pain.
Because I was holding your hand, but you were barely holding on.
I wonder if you know that I cry?
Do you know I die, and it's not the good kind.
You took a swing, I took it hard.
You thought I was bullet proof,but now you know that I'm not.
But...
I finally know what to do.


I SHOULD QUIT YOU!

Please comment and tell me what you think...

All the words you said to me,
That seemed to be so true.
Were nothing but thoughtless lies,
That I thought would never come from you.

They seemed so real and seemed so true.
I was begining to think
That I was in love with you.

But I should of known it was all an act,
That I was just another part.
Just another girl to add
To your list of broken hearts.

I wonder why I still think about you,
After all your lies and sweet talking words.
I think its because you made me feel
Like I was your special girl.

I thought I was, I thought you cared, and that I was the only one.
But all you wanted to have was just a little fun.

I could never be with you
After what I found out.
You lied to me...
Thats what this is mostly all about.

I'm not telling you exactly what I know.
You can deny it all you want,
But i'm deciding to let you go.

But I will never forget you not matter how hard I try.
I will always remember you in my years to come
Until my eternal good-bye.

I wish I could find some answers today.
because the questions burn inside me.
I wish I could know the reason then maby I could forget.
How can I go on. How can I move forward if I don't know.
I feel alone here I am in pain here.
this is my darkest hour. Tell me it would be as we read in books.
That everything would work out for the best.
Tell me it's okay.Somebody is there for me.
Oneday I will know the truth but for now I,m in pain....

It's not verry good but i tried.

Wow everything was perfect last night just like in the movies.. He asked me to stay telling me that he will make me his and that he really cares.... BOOM! I wake up and it feels as if i am floating. But i was acctually falling and he wasn't ready to catch....


Now i wish fairytales were true because then he would've saved my haert instead of breaking it in two...

This is my storie why
This is the reasons... This is why i cry.
The story goes like this
This is the way it is.
Thanks for being there...
Thanks for acting like you care...
You hurt me like hell...
Acting like this is all well.....
People doing stuff...
Ohh and they just bluff
Telling me they are friends for life
That's just for the drive...
OOOOOH i still cry
There is so many reasons why....