My OperaGIVE ME LIBERTY OR DEATH!
Sunday, September 27, 2009 7:10:30 PM
I recently took a long drive to Seattle WA, to see an old friend. The drive was an experience I shall never forget.. open, free, full of turns that could take a person any place they could want to go. Opportunities for a new start at every city I encountered. The drive there was long.. while the drive back was fast.. I was driving away from a city I hate, to a new place... and I could not get there fast enough. Coming back, I was driving back to a place I despise, I place I loath, A place that sucks the life from a person and makes them feel like less than they are, and keeps its foot on your throat and holds you down so you can never escape. I hate this place, and it hates me.
I own a game store called TOY SOLDIERS, I am in the process of closing this store. I had 3 customers, that I thought were friends who made a false claim that I stole some items from them that were donated to the store. One of the Items I even paid for. So they sent cops to my house and I was arrested and locked up. I don't know what a rape victim feels like, but If it means feeling like you have no power, feeling like your at the mercy of your captures, if it means feeling like your not even safe in your own home, like they could return at anytime and have their way with you and you have no recourse to defend yourself, then that is what I feel like. In War, you can kill those who wish to harm you, hold you against your will, its simple, kill or be killed, you know who your friends are, and who is not, and for me I would rather be dead than held against my will ever again. I was not heard, just arrested... his word was greater than mine since he was the one making the accusations, and he had 2 people too back him up. I also wonder if it was not a racial thing.. he a Hispanic, and I the Caucasian. I don't know.
I have experienced freedom, and now the opposite. I know I can not stay in this city, I know I have to leave and never come back. I am tired of not being happy, I am tired of sacrificing my self for some inner feeling of obligation to my family here. If they love me they will understand and let me go be free.. and have a chance at growth.
I need to be free.
I own a game store called TOY SOLDIERS, I am in the process of closing this store. I had 3 customers, that I thought were friends who made a false claim that I stole some items from them that were donated to the store. One of the Items I even paid for. So they sent cops to my house and I was arrested and locked up. I don't know what a rape victim feels like, but If it means feeling like you have no power, feeling like your at the mercy of your captures, if it means feeling like your not even safe in your own home, like they could return at anytime and have their way with you and you have no recourse to defend yourself, then that is what I feel like. In War, you can kill those who wish to harm you, hold you against your will, its simple, kill or be killed, you know who your friends are, and who is not, and for me I would rather be dead than held against my will ever again. I was not heard, just arrested... his word was greater than mine since he was the one making the accusations, and he had 2 people too back him up. I also wonder if it was not a racial thing.. he a Hispanic, and I the Caucasian. I don't know.
I have experienced freedom, and now the opposite. I know I can not stay in this city, I know I have to leave and never come back. I am tired of not being happy, I am tired of sacrificing my self for some inner feeling of obligation to my family here. If they love me they will understand and let me go be free.. and have a chance at growth.
I need to be free.
