ALL IS WELL THAT ENDS WELL

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As usual went to my station to get to work.And day was full of interesting personalities...
As usual had to fight to enter the train because thousands people wanted to get to work in the same time like me... To feel myself like a canned food is usual thing.So with smile on my face with headphones in my ears i stayed in the train and very tolerable waited when i can get out on my station. I changed the line of metro and in the next train there were not so many people like in my first train...But still it was a reason to remember that 10 minute trip.Well...I was staying and holding a handrail for not to fall down when train was moving.... It was enough space in front of me for two more people.... and a very interesting person got in to the doors...I wouldn't pay attention to that person if he (yes it was a man) wouldn't attract that attention. He was not handsome...tall or looked nice...he just was weird...He carried in his hands briefcase and in that briefcase was one more shirt - maybe new. He was dressed in trousers, stripy shirt...nothing special..but he looked so proud of himself like a super star...."i am awesome" "women look at me - i am what you need"....but i was pity to him...in his eyes i met a little bit of craziness...He is not healthy for sure...Then i wouldn't even look at him because in my mind were lots of thoughts what i need to do at work...what are the planes for the day....But he just started to move...opened his briefcase and pulled out cheep bottle of perfume...it was blue color big bottle made of glass...and started to spray it on himself....UFFFFFFFFFFFFF it was smelling so naaaaasssssty.....But by this action he maybe showed everybody how he was cool....
Well....it just was funny and pity in the same tpime... And maybe such situation when women don't pay attention to a not very perfect man generates maniacs...Or just psychological problems...

Finally I am going to the UK, dont know how but I got my visa...Oh...if only you could see my invitation...I think after reading it and watching photos nobody could say NO to me...)
It starts to be very cold in Moscow...Minus 12 was today...But no snow...Hope it will be much snow soon and winter will be more soft and pleasant...
Winter came and in the UK...
An interesting thing we have notice with my boyfriend...As he meet me - Russian girl...as winter in the UK started to be colder than usual... We were laughing about it... But its funny thing - there in Russia its cold outside but very warm inside of the houses and flats because everybody has heating and because Russia has enough gas people can heat their flats and its not so expensive...But in the UK its warmer outside rather than in Russia but colder in the houses because people try to save money...they have to live and usually dont have too much money to pay for very expensive heating...
I m going to write some stories about everything I ll see and feel when I go to my love...He is my heating and love of my life so I am not afraid of cold. But its just interesting...

Waiting for my dear....
Time is so fast...
One more day of waiting and...........ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.....yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!
I am so exciting....
I saw the dream like i cut a beautiful big rose from bushes...ful of blossomong flowers...
I read in the book...what doest it mean to see roses in dreams...And it said...to see roses means for young lady that happiness and good time is close...soon she will be in love...And I will not tell what else was reading....let it be the small secret......After the date with my b/f. maybe then i will tell... just want to check is this true or not...OH..oh oh....love is in the air....

Feeling awfully sad...Like its the end of life...or something like that....Dont want to upset my close people wich are trying to do something for me...Smiling...Boss likes idiots )) so I am smiling....but feeling like ate something very very very bitter!!!!
Weather is amazing!!! Gray smoky sky....Fires all around...Everybody are complaining about such bad condishions...and make this more hard to tolerate and not to think about it!!!
Didnt do anything...No unusuful...no usuful....Just nothing...
Waiting when it will come another day....better than this...
28 years old...No brain...no beauty...no knowleges to do something....no skills...only stupid fear....Very very very good man next to me...with amazing blue eyes...loving and taking care of me....Dear mum that wants to do something for me...But I want to disappear..
Remember father that has gone last year...He usually brought me flowers...every birthday....Only he maybe knew how i loved them...Loved flovers but hated my birthday...Dont try to find out a reason why i hate this day....I can tell i didnt want to live...and were ready to give my life to somebody who want and need it..
And I am talking to myself...trying to save tears inside...And I can to do this.
Its my life.AND I LIKE IT!