Saturday, 21. November 2009, 10:55:12
WHO COULD THINK...?so amazing man adores me .....mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
Friday, 13. November 2009, 22:08:46
"Girl?Why do you look so sad?"
I asked to myself...when listened the song wich had these words...
Dont know why...
Everything around is not so perfect .....a lot of problems.will not discuss everything..few short words...darkness in my mind... But among all these I have the only one huge positive moment in my life... I`ve found...noooooooo...I would say He`ve found me....It is a first time in my life when i`ve met so brave man,who came to me...who would like to dance with me... He is really brave because no one man did the same... I must be very happy...and I`m.. when he communicate with me...But when i stay alone ... i come back in my darkness again... What are hella is going on with me? I cant control my feelings...I`m mad.
It is not enough english words (in my mind) to say all that i feel...And nobody cares about it...so maybe i dont need to speak about it...I just wanted to say that I`m really madwoman...
Cant understand why i cant see more positive things then negative...
Sinse my childhood it is so...
dont know for what i live...i cant make happy anybody...if i think so.. Maybe it is just the rain..the cold...My brave man is so far away from me...He makes me smiling all the time when i see him...It is really rare thing that I can smile by my eyes...Everything was mixing inside me...Good and bad.My purpouse now is to be very strong and not to give my madness to eat me...And I thank u my brave man...he is holding my hand...I wish only he was closer to me...and not to give me think bad...
Tuesday, 13. October 2009, 22:57:36
It is his painful duty
To tell you what was wrong
Your charm and perfect beauty
He wants all these prolong
But once he was distracted
Between his love and fears
An so of course he acted
As it was right and clear
He made his own decision
To kill his love to you
And brought in to derision
Your analitical review
But you`r the iron lady
You used to be alone
And must be always ready
To be forever strong
When pain so hard and heavy
When feelings break your heart
Your hair still brown and wayy
And he became your part
All that were so attractive
His pure blue eyes and beard
All that were almoust native
Became so far and weird
The night became so empty
The day so dark and long
So you came back home,welcome
And maybe it was wrong.... Written by Ev
Sunday, 11. October 2009, 14:12:54
I am drinking hot green tea with mint
My life is like a labyrinth...
And where is an exit I'm just looking for
I think i see the one next door...
Wednesday, 7. October 2009, 16:32:13
This season makes me feel depression....Everything around is sleeping...Nature die...to born again in Spring time....Even if it is sunny...even if it is everything good in life... But Autumn is pressing on my mind...
Thursday, 25. June 2009, 18:06:16
Today I took my driver`s licence ))) Hope to stay alive after that ))coz my heart need for speed!!!
Sunday, 12. April 2009, 18:29:58
Sunday, 18. January 2009, 14:23:56
Who knows how to change something to feel good...
I try to see good moments of life but my destiny gives me bad... It is enough for one just to be healthy to see the sun under the head... But for me not enough...
I`m not satisfied...and I know why....because i dont know what I want...I know just what i dont want....ohhh....my brain will kill me....
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