My OperaHISTORY PAST PART 1 .
Sunday, December 30, 2007 11:43:55 PM
hi everyone my name josh. Im doin this blog to get a record off my life, so im not forgotten maybe even better myself out off it. this 1st post is a re run off past events thats brought me here lyin on my bed stoned. im 29 soon to be 30. my drug life started what seems long long time ago. I was nerdy 13yr boy. I live in a small market town 15 miles outside Edinburgh. I have a mother and father,older brother, younger brother and sister. I will go into family stuff later as its prob key area to my life.
I remember the day my life changed. I didnt know it then but lookin back i realise i was wrestling with issues concernin my sexualty and rather than dealin with it in any proper way i blocked it out with drugs. It was a wed nite i was in high street on my own havin just fallen out with my then best mate. i bumped into gang lads from school. we chatted and they left, but then 1 came back said he felt sorry leavin me on my own and would i like to come and get stoned. Naturally i said yes and we went off and smoked bongs. now i wasnt totally ignorant off drugs infact i had taken LSD before but this was new as i was now in a gang. I had my peers. But from that day on i became a liar. I lied daily about being gay. but then i didnt or tried not think to much off it. I Had mates now we went on to be best mates. we done everythin together well apart from talk... The next day i got invited back out with them the rest you can say is history... MY NEXT POST WILL GO INTO MORE DETAIL OF MY PAST.
I remember the day my life changed. I didnt know it then but lookin back i realise i was wrestling with issues concernin my sexualty and rather than dealin with it in any proper way i blocked it out with drugs. It was a wed nite i was in high street on my own havin just fallen out with my then best mate. i bumped into gang lads from school. we chatted and they left, but then 1 came back said he felt sorry leavin me on my own and would i like to come and get stoned. Naturally i said yes and we went off and smoked bongs. now i wasnt totally ignorant off drugs infact i had taken LSD before but this was new as i was now in a gang. I had my peers. But from that day on i became a liar. I lied daily about being gay. but then i didnt or tried not think to much off it. I Had mates now we went on to be best mates. we done everythin together well apart from talk... The next day i got invited back out with them the rest you can say is history... MY NEXT POST WILL GO INTO MORE DETAIL OF MY PAST.
