My OperaWorries
Monday, July 14, 2008 4:04:55 PM
So i guess i just wanted to update everyone on what exactly is going on with my back. Everyone saw that i have to go see a spinal specialist. I went to Dr. Michael Vickers on Monday, July 7th after I was in the Emergency Room the previous week for severe back pain and shortness of breath. Well I went to see him at like 11am on Monday. It was just an initial consultation. He told me that he didnt think that I needed surgery (which is a good thing) but i do need to have an MRI done to show what he is really dealing with. So how does he really know that i dont need surgery? I have to now wait for the approval with my insurance company to authorize the MRI. But the doctor did give me some really good drugs for the pain, but i really dont like them because they make me feel every muscle in my body and make me narcoleptic of sorts. If that makes any sense.
I know what i have done to my back is mostly my fault and that i should have taken better care of myself and did the excersizes that my chiropracter from like 10 years ago. I know that i need to lose the weight and maybe i will not have so many health problems. I try but i cant seem to sick with it- I was doing really good the first of the year but as soon as i got sick in February then it all went down hill from there and what i lost i put double that back on. I know it is all my fault. I am the heaviest i have been in the last 7 years. I'm flucutating(sp) between 205-211. I know that i dont really look it cause i have such a large chest but i see it and i look at how disgusting I have become. It makes me nauseous and i totally have low self esteem.
Well there are a couple of other developments that are going on right now...the last time i had my cycle was 5/14. SO that makes me almost a month late. I have spent like $60.00 in home tests with a negative each time. I have a heightened sense of smell and i'm starting to tire easier and am having sever mood swings. I have a appointment on 7/16 with my gyno to do a blood test. I dont think that i am but you never know. This really isnt the best time for us to be having another baby since we are still at my moms and Josh still hasnt found work yet. But well have to see on that.
Shae has his doctors appointment on 7/15 for his two year old physical and shots. They had to wait for his records to be transferred from his doctors over in WPB. They finally got them 2 months later. I cant believe it took so long. But we have it scheduled so he can get up to date on his shots.
As for my relationship with Josh- we are taking it one day at a time. I think that we are doing well- now the only thing we fight about is what everone fights about $$$$$$ and the lack there of. We just celebrated our 2 year anniversary and hope to celebrate many more.
I want to start baking cakes on the weekends but i need to take some classes on how to do fondant- that seems to be the big thing right now. Or just keep it traditional and old-fashioned with regular frosting. Maybe bring in some extra money. I dont know...seems like a pipedream to me. Most of you know how bad i wanted to be a pastry chef and bake and design wedding cakes. Maybe its not so far fetched after all. I would really like to do that- maybe start something with my mom- she used to do that long time ago. We have all the tools necessary to do them. I would really like some imput from an outside source.
There are a few decisions the i need to make here in the upcoming future. But in order to make those decisions i need some results first. Also i need to know that i have support as well. My mind right now is going in fifty directions now. i guess a few things we're in my previous blog but several new things have transpired the last few days. I want my husband to stop being the way he's being and pay attention to me and what i say and support me. I want to know that i'm wanted because i know that i'm needed. I want to take a vacation to rekindle what we once had. i need him to forgive me and move on. i want to make beautiful cakes. i really do want another child... but is now the right time... will it ever be the right time or will we just have to adjust? i just don't know. hit me up if you have any ideas.
Let me know- if you have any ideas on what to do.
Thanks
Marlain
I know what i have done to my back is mostly my fault and that i should have taken better care of myself and did the excersizes that my chiropracter from like 10 years ago. I know that i need to lose the weight and maybe i will not have so many health problems. I try but i cant seem to sick with it- I was doing really good the first of the year but as soon as i got sick in February then it all went down hill from there and what i lost i put double that back on. I know it is all my fault. I am the heaviest i have been in the last 7 years. I'm flucutating(sp) between 205-211. I know that i dont really look it cause i have such a large chest but i see it and i look at how disgusting I have become. It makes me nauseous and i totally have low self esteem.
Well there are a couple of other developments that are going on right now...the last time i had my cycle was 5/14. SO that makes me almost a month late. I have spent like $60.00 in home tests with a negative each time. I have a heightened sense of smell and i'm starting to tire easier and am having sever mood swings. I have a appointment on 7/16 with my gyno to do a blood test. I dont think that i am but you never know. This really isnt the best time for us to be having another baby since we are still at my moms and Josh still hasnt found work yet. But well have to see on that.
Shae has his doctors appointment on 7/15 for his two year old physical and shots. They had to wait for his records to be transferred from his doctors over in WPB. They finally got them 2 months later. I cant believe it took so long. But we have it scheduled so he can get up to date on his shots.
As for my relationship with Josh- we are taking it one day at a time. I think that we are doing well- now the only thing we fight about is what everone fights about $$$$$$ and the lack there of. We just celebrated our 2 year anniversary and hope to celebrate many more.
I want to start baking cakes on the weekends but i need to take some classes on how to do fondant- that seems to be the big thing right now. Or just keep it traditional and old-fashioned with regular frosting. Maybe bring in some extra money. I dont know...seems like a pipedream to me. Most of you know how bad i wanted to be a pastry chef and bake and design wedding cakes. Maybe its not so far fetched after all. I would really like to do that- maybe start something with my mom- she used to do that long time ago. We have all the tools necessary to do them. I would really like some imput from an outside source.
There are a few decisions the i need to make here in the upcoming future. But in order to make those decisions i need some results first. Also i need to know that i have support as well. My mind right now is going in fifty directions now. i guess a few things we're in my previous blog but several new things have transpired the last few days. I want my husband to stop being the way he's being and pay attention to me and what i say and support me. I want to know that i'm wanted because i know that i'm needed. I want to take a vacation to rekindle what we once had. i need him to forgive me and move on. i want to make beautiful cakes. i really do want another child... but is now the right time... will it ever be the right time or will we just have to adjust? i just don't know. hit me up if you have any ideas.
Let me know- if you have any ideas on what to do.
Thanks
Marlain
