I am the Masochist kid!

I am sick, and I am dying,
This life is soon to leave me.
I cannot handle the pain and the lying,
And the painful swords that pierce my heart.
I wonder wether I shall be missed
Because no one seems to care.
The many ways I have been dissed,
I am stuck in an endless torment.
I will soon give in to the black,
For it invites me with the promises of peace.
The last thing you'll see is my back
As I leave this world.
I will soon forget you,
Because the pain you give is unlimited.
The things I would do
Just for us to work.
Your love gives me reason to live,
So I will die without it.
And the love to you I would give
Now rots in the depth of my black heart.
Only to you does my heart truly belong,
my heart burns through other's hands.
Yet I know you cannot be wrong,
You are my love.
Now I must kiss your lips
for the last time.
And I hope you enjoy your future trips,
As much as you have enjoyed my final crimson speech.