To a good year

Change is supposed to good is it? Why am i always in a state when im driven to make a change! At times i find myself at such an unhappy place because of not being happy at a place, that i don't do it to the best of my abilities. Im not one to give 2nd best, and when im not being challenged in certain areas id rather give up. And it always is the case. I choose to think of it like Samuel from the bible (or is that David) said 'I will not give anything that cost me nothing! And yet the inevitable reoccurs i take the crap that i allow- faced now with retrenchment for the umptiath time am i still question myself. 'How long before i grow up'. How many times do i want to be taught the same lesson, and how many chances do i have to repeat the same mistake? I wonder do we all know where we belong in our hearts+ if we do why do we so often do nothing about it!