That boy friend, well, I had broken up with him in a very dramatic way.. To be honest, he was the one who broke up and I didn't want to. I loved him alot, but he was very abusive and he had his own immature way of interacting. I remember him going crazy when I got engaged after we broke up. I truely didn't know what he really wanted!
Anyway, That call came, and I went to meet him downtown on the corner of a garden. When I arrived, he wasn't there yet. As I turned to look for him, I watched him coming with a girl next to him, they were holding hands. It was the first time I see him since we broke up.
I know what you might be thinking, but I can assure to you it was not tha case! lol
For one second I found it hard not to let go of one loud laugh. I know I should never jusge people, I know I'm not a judgmental person. But THAT!! that was a very funny scene, at least to me.
One thing came to my mind, A person who loves me for two years, NEVER thinks of a girl like her! we are very much the opposite.. A man who loves me, has a very different personality and taste than the man who loves a girl like her!!
They approached me and he said Hi, I saluted her and he gave me the money. Said bye and they went away.
I stood up at that corner waiting for the traffic to stop to cross the street, and I just watched them for seconds as they walked away.. I couldn't manage not to squeez a laughter. That laughter was at myself!! was I so blind? or was I so classy for him??.. What was I thinking
I crossed the street, grapped a Snickers bar from my bag, and thought as I was walking. All I could ever think about is HOW BAD I CHOOSE!!
I'm a bad chooser, when it comes to men.. He's not the only man I've chosen who was not suitable for me
Each and every time someone askes me about the criteria I demand for the man to be my type, I answer there is not. Tuat is WRONG! I have to put down a criteria, specify a list of standards that must be found in a man who gets closer to me.
I officially quit choosing. I'm now off choosing. I might be chosen, but I will never choose.