Finding My Reality

So I've recently been experiencing a lot of "Ah-Hah" moments pertaining to those deep questions God never answered for me. One of the most recent realizations i've had is that i've wasted my life blaming everone along the way for my shortfalls. Yet they aren't all around anymore destroying my life, so why is it still like this? Well because i let it get to this point, every letdown, every betrayal, every unfair happening and every abusive situation not only cut me but scarred and instead of learning how to cope and move forward, i dwelled and suffered. So because people put obstacles in my path of life i should give up? Absoluetely not! I've faced my fears and have begun working on and ignoring these obstacles so i can get back to enjoying my walk of life. I know it's hard and evryones obstacles are different, but they're just obstacles, life didn't end and I won't either. I will live on even after death through the happiness i'll bring to others.