My OperaWhat happened to me?
Tuesday, February 9, 2010 5:16:22 PM
wanted to share something, even to scream it in a way ...
How is that possible to met 2 guys in a row and with none of them is the right timing... I really need opinions about it in a way to clear my mind and move on ... so that's my story....
The first guy i met a year ago ... I was waiting him until September to decide what he wants finally and to stop full me around but this didn't happen. In October i met the other guy .. things were good until he told me that he had a girlfriend back in his country... left the things this way for while then the first guy came to me started to express his feelings and jealousy about my new boyfriend. So i gave his a chance for a talk so he can state his position in order to show me what he wants and is able to do for me... he lost it .. didn't do anything other than just being nice to me.
Decided to move on with the new guy but couldn't take the idea of having 2 one and the same time. I explained him that i didn't want him to make a decision which he might be sorry for afterwards and blame it on me but of course i will stay with him as long as i am capable and want to, but he settled himself a deadline for a decision that he made in my good: he broke up with her without telling her about me. This is hard time for me right now because i had all of downs recently with my exams and health. And because of all this nerves i am lying in the hospital now writing this blog. The new guys is coming everyday but just for 15 minutes only to check if i am breathing and moving.. and is so cold as hell and the only explanation i received from his friends was that the break up was hard and he needs some space and privacy right now... And my old boyfriend wrote me a couple hours ago just to check me and told me that we can see each other for coffee when i get better...
There are some more details that i guess are not so important for the general situation. People is all that normal, don't i deserve some extra attention or am asking for too much. Since it's a hard time for me and everything just falls down for me, why my so called people are not around me... Why am share this in a blog but not with my "friends"...Why am alone right now when the visits are possible an hour more?
How is that possible to met 2 guys in a row and with none of them is the right timing... I really need opinions about it in a way to clear my mind and move on ... so that's my story....
The first guy i met a year ago ... I was waiting him until September to decide what he wants finally and to stop full me around but this didn't happen. In October i met the other guy .. things were good until he told me that he had a girlfriend back in his country... left the things this way for while then the first guy came to me started to express his feelings and jealousy about my new boyfriend. So i gave his a chance for a talk so he can state his position in order to show me what he wants and is able to do for me... he lost it .. didn't do anything other than just being nice to me.
Decided to move on with the new guy but couldn't take the idea of having 2 one and the same time. I explained him that i didn't want him to make a decision which he might be sorry for afterwards and blame it on me but of course i will stay with him as long as i am capable and want to, but he settled himself a deadline for a decision that he made in my good: he broke up with her without telling her about me. This is hard time for me right now because i had all of downs recently with my exams and health. And because of all this nerves i am lying in the hospital now writing this blog. The new guys is coming everyday but just for 15 minutes only to check if i am breathing and moving.. and is so cold as hell and the only explanation i received from his friends was that the break up was hard and he needs some space and privacy right now... And my old boyfriend wrote me a couple hours ago just to check me and told me that we can see each other for coffee when i get better...
There are some more details that i guess are not so important for the general situation. People is all that normal, don't i deserve some extra attention or am asking for too much. Since it's a hard time for me and everything just falls down for me, why my so called people are not around me... Why am share this in a blog but not with my "friends"...Why am alone right now when the visits are possible an hour more?
