What if?

Lately I have been really questioning my friendships. It sounds awful to say but I mean sometimes I feel like I have not been putting much effort into my friendships. I feel like I have been losing my friendships. I know it may seem silly but I really feel that way. As I write this I can think of a couple of people. Every time we are together by ourselves I cannot talk to them. I really mean that I cannot come up with a conversation. We have been friends for a while and i do not regret being this person's friend. but I do regret not spending more time with them. Sharing more stories and times together. I want to be able to leave this school year and this school without having regrets of not caring about my friends. I feel like I have depended on them so much and have not given them anything in return. I keep asking myself are they truly my friends and I do not want to think or ask myself this but it has been haunting me for a while now and I have to get it out. I do not feel comfortable confronting anyone in person. That would be a nice way to start a conversation "Are you really my friend?' I mean i cannot do that after being friends a while. I just wish I would be closer to them and I don't know how to any more. i would not call it a friendship that is going to end after Mount nor a friendship that need sot be saved. I really like them as my friends. it just does not feel like were friends anymore. i do not know if this person feels the same way or knows how I feel, but they don't show it the slightest bit.
Bell is going to ring
adios!