What if?

When I was doing my homework one night after work, everyone else was in bed except for my brother Christian. We just had a fight and I was crying (trust me this is part of the blog and it makes sense just bear with me). I went to get my mom and I thought she was going to come down and stop the fight. She said "Solve it yourself, I am tired." At that point I felt like no one was on my side. I felt like everything was going wrong. I got my SAT scores and also my report card a couple of weeks ago and I did awful compared to everyone else. I really felt stupid.(I promise this is part of the blog and I am not just saying random stuff.) I could not stop crying everything was too much. My grades were not as good as I wanted them to be. I also was overwhelmed with work and everything I was involved in and what I had to do. I just crashed. I was burnt out. I felt like no one appreciated me. I heard footsteps come down the stairs and I felt hands wrap around me. It was my mom. She talked to me and I told her everything. How I felt, just everything. I went to bed feeling like a ton of bricks were lifted off my shoulders. I went to school the next day with happiness and a lot less baggage to carry. I just felt great. I went through the whole day so happy. The last period of the day made me feel even happier. It was a meeting with my guidance counselor about college. It was my first college meeting and so she asked me about myself. I talked about myself and she told me that I was a great kid and that she would of liked to have known me earlier but she said that I was not going to have any trouble getting into the colleges I wanted. She said that every Catholic College would want me. I felt like the greatest person on earth. I went to work after school and I felt great. Work went by really quickly and I just was about to leave when one of the teachers told me that I was very thoughful and caring, which was a boost to my self- esteem and my happiness. I finally feel happy with myself. I can finally express it too.

I know this sound emo but its what i was feeling from the beginning of the school year.
I sing for joy!