Hello!

I returned from the sea. Very beautiful, in good form. I know that all relationships on the sea they stoped when somebody went home. But I think it's hard for me to understand. He is so like me. His character it's something amazing. I can't understand what is going on. I can't forget him. I can't see another man beside him. I close my eyes and I see him. I open my eyes and I see him. I can't forget his hands, lips, eyes. I can't forget night where we were together. Black sea, moon. Now without him I fell like somebody take knife and try to hurt me. And it's so pain. I can't forget words that he say to me. "We will be together". It's so painfull understand that we live in different towns. When we say each other good bye. I want to say him that I love him. But I didn't do that. My heart beat stronger when I hear his name. In all boys I see his face. It's like disturbia. I want to write hi a letter, but I scare that hi doesn't answer. I have his number, but I don't know. I confused. It's so hard.
Oh, God what I am suppose to do?