Be The Best You Can Be

In my previous post I mentioned the things I'd like to do before the mower comes for me .
Charming, eh?

So, right now, I feel inspired to start doing something to get where I want. There is a L I T T L E problem with that... I don't really know where to start.

But hey, nothing's lost!!

At the moment, I'm really happy. I have no idea why, I just am... School starts tomorrow... certainly that's not it. I'm usually unhappy when it starts. Like this: But not this time.

I woke up in the morning thinking... there's been 3 months, I haven't studied a bit, I'm graduating in June and here I am: with nothing. I don't know if the maths teacher will be upset or not, or the others too, maybe we'll get a going-over , but it really doesn't matter... I'll be speechless, thinking that they're right and I should've done something, anything... The last time I've been thinking like this, I got upset at myself... But right now, I'm happy. Maybe there's something wrong with me...

And I'm still happy. Nothing could make me moody today! When I looked out of the window in the morning, everything was so quiet, maybe that made me so happy. I just look at everything and smile...

I remember watching American Beauty a few months ago and it had some amazing lines... Here they are: ... but it's hard to stay mad, when there's so much beauty in the world. Sometimes I feel like I'm seeing it all at once, and it's too much, my heart fills up like a balloon that's about to burst... and then I remember to relax, and stop trying to hold on to it, and then it flows through me like rain and I can't feel anything but gratitude for every single moment of my stupid little life...