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"What I am seeking is not the real and not the unreal but rather the unconscious, the mystery of the instinctive in the human race." – Amadeo Modigliani

Granite Dells, Prescott, Arizona

Am hoping to take a short drive one day this weekend to Granite Dells in Prescott, Arizona. The few photos I'm about to show are from quite a few years ago when I went to an outdoor jazz concert. Can't find my photos of the concert itself but did find the ones I took after we hiked about half a mile from the park to the lake where tall granite rocks jut out of the water. This day, several daredevils were jumping into the water. You can see how low the water level was.

Here, you can see where the level is when we've gotten a good amount of rain and snow runoff. However, since we've been in a drought for 10 or twelve years, the level is probably even lower than in my photos.

Do not try this.






This man was doing alot of thinking first.

Finally, after about fifteen minutes he jumped.


This man that did so much thinking first before he jumped, needed help getting up out of the water. He was able to swim to the beach, but getting up, he could hardly stand. I thought he'd hit rocks but actually, he'd fallen up top on the other side where you can't see. His knee was so swollen and bloody, it looked like he'd broken it. As I helped him to his car, he told me why he took so long before jumping. He'd broken both legs hitting rocks below a few years before at this very same spot. He felt he needed to get over his fears.

This is something I would never do. The water is dark. You cannot see where those rocks are.

San Diego's a No Go

Have been thinking and daydreaming of seeing the ocean or a lake alot lately. I think I do this every summer when it starts to get very hot here. Was planning to go on a road trip with my son and his wife over this long holiday weekend to San Diego. I had reservations about it because I'm supposed to be taking care of someone's pool on a daily basis while they are gone, plus I wasn't sure I'd be able to find someone to come in to check my dogs. Their water bowls inside and out have to be kept full and they have to be fed twice a day. They can get by on once a day feeding if the person who feeds them in the morning just fills up the food bowl with dry food right after they've finished the morning mix of wet and dry. I changed my mind four times which made my son very mad at me. He sent me an email saying he couldn't believe my 'stupid' dogs couldn't get along without me for a frikken weekend. He now doesn't want to talk to me for a long time. Why a 40 yr. old is having a temper tantrum over this, I don't know. I stick by my decision because I know it is the right one.

In any event, here's an old photo of me on the Mission Bay boardwalk in San Diego. The graffiti intrigued me but I have no idea what it means. Hopefully, neither phrase has too bad of a meaning.



The view of the ocean is what I miss the most, and walking in the sand along the shore, wading in the water, daydreaming, looking for pebbles and shells, etc. I never swam in the ocean as the riptides are known to be quite strong and I am not a strong swimmer. We used to go for a week every summer to this exact place. I miss it and yearn to see it again.

Remembering

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Self portrait at 35

What happened in history on June 25th? See here. We can now, unfortunately, add the deaths of Farah Fawcett and Michael Jackson to this list.

Evanescence, one of my favorite bands:




Moody Blues from 1967:


And now, something in Portuguese (DISCLAIMER: It appears the male dancer is nude...he is not):


Fatherless

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After reading Zulia's poem here, I was reminded of a poem I wrote 40 years ago.

Fatherless


Child,
do not hide,
For with me you shall ride
on my knees to the stars

and run like the dickens
for butterflies a flittin'
and endlessly play
with eternal toy cars.

But, alas,
you're still sad
my sweet young lad
for you may have the world
but you haven't a dad.

Email Update from Suzy

Just received this email from her this morning:

Hello! I just wanted to send a quick email and let everyone know that my trip to Mombasa was amazing. I am so glad I was able to extend my trip to see another part of Kenya. I just took a bus there and back which took about 8 hours (ugh!) compared to the 45min flight, but was only about 13USD vs 160USD each way! So, I managed just fine and made it back {****} early this morning. While in Mombasa, I met some great new people and now have friends to visit in Scotland, Canada, and Australia!! I also got to volunteer at a medical camp which was pretty interesting and extremely rewarding... and I have to admit relaxing on the beaches was a perfect ending. I needed it! ...minus the abundance of mosquito's! However I also have to confess that I did witness old white men and women promoting prostitution with the locals out at the bars and clubs. I have never seen anything so disgusting in my life. I had read about it, but it's different when you see it. It is sad how people will take advantage of another culture just because they have money [to do so]. But despite all the negative things I have witnessed or experienced here (or anywhere), the positive experiences always outweigh the bad! And I really have met more amazing people and learned more about different cultures in the last five weeks than I ever could've imagined. It is refreshing to know that there are far more good people in the world than there are bad!!! :smile:

Anywho, in case you didn't know, I am flying home tonight! I depart ******* just after 10pm, have a 5 hour layover in Amsterdam, and then will land in Chicago just before noon on Tuesday! I can't believe my time here is already over. It really has gone by so fast. I feel like I could've stayed even longer! It was especially hard to leave the special needs school in Nyeri. They were all praying for me and telling me not to go. Several of the children were crying and throwing themselves to the ground! A little dramatic, but I was so touched and so sad to see how they all were aware that I was leaving, especially those with very limited cognitive ability and/or verbal capacity. The children and the teachers also had a little ceremony for me. I was shocked when they presented me with gifts considering the little money they have and I was so touched when they gave me the Kikuyu name, Nyakio, which means hardworking or dedicated lady. I can't wait to show everyone the hand made jewerly, purse, shoes, and certificate they made for me!! They are beautiful. :smile: It was also pretty amazing to see the look on their faces when the boxes Kathy sent arrived. As complicated and expensive as it was, there's no price tag large enough to to see the look on their faces. They were so grateful for all of the materials and school supplies. I can't tell you how much it will help. So, thank you Kathy, and a big thank you to everyone who donated supplies and/or money. I will be sending pictures and developing the website soon so you can see where your money went. You definitely won't regret it!!!

Ah, but as much as I could stay here for the rest of the summer, I miss everyone so much and I am running out of money!! Plus, I do miss the luxury of living in America. I think I am most looking forward hot showers with water pressure, high speed internet, my own bed, using a washer and dryer, always having running water, and Chicago style pizza!! I swear I may never be able to eat rice and beans again! Or beef!! Haha! But most importantly, I can't wait to see everyone and be able to communicate on a more regular basis for those of you are further away. I can't thank everyone enough for the phone calls, emails, texts, etc. It really meant a lot to me to hear from you and to have all of your support. I would recommend volunteering through this program to anyone. I have a feeling it will be the most amazing traveling experience of my life.

Love you all so much! Will let you know when I arrive into Chicago safely.

Much love,

Suzy

Suzy and I on the beach in San Diego when she was three. 1985 perhaps.
I know I changed the photo because she and I were almost in silhouette.
Would not be able to duplicate it because I've forgotten how I did it!

I may very well do a painting of this.