Something is just not right about that Boy

Lidia G.
Feb. 14, 1962 -- Nov. 16, 2003
I couldn't let another year go by without expressing things I hold deep inside.

It’s been five long years since you were both taken from me, and it’s been my work and loyal friendships that have gotten me to the place now that allows me to write these words without pain. So many times have I started, but decided to wait. And knowing your Loving soul, I know you would not object to me doing so publicly.

You were truly a unique woman, never afraid to set yourself aside for the greater good. You gave Love as easily as you were to Love.

I miss you so.

You knew the world in which I chose to make my living and the lifestyle that surrounded it, yet you trusted me implicitly. You gave me courage when I felt like not going on. And even though both our careers took us far away from each other at times, often to the opposite ends of the earth, you always managed to get away when you could, there when I needed you the most.
Like your father, you were always an encourager to me. I felt his death as much as my own fathers. He raised you well.

Your late morning phone calls from some far away corner of the world, just to see how that night’s sessions went helped me to get through the rough times without you. Just hearing your voice.

And yes, I do know something of the nights you cried yourself to sleep at the thought of the human misery and depravity you sometime witnessed as you traveled in your work, the feeling of helplessness to do anything about it. I could sometime hear it in your voice as you would say “I'm OK, stay focused, I just miss you.”

And how my heart danced the times I looked up after a long and difficult night in the studio to find you that you had flown in, and see you standing behind the engineer listening to the playback and moving in your own way to the beat, wearing your grin of approval. The guys always said you seemed to know when it was right.

I can still see the look of pride on your face, the kind of pride that resides only in true Love , the night the call came of news that Wild-Eyed had broke the top 20 album chart. That look made me realize the long hours and the grueling 14 months on the road was all worth it to you. Your eyes said it all, and you never looked more beautiful to me.
It was that night that I realized I could not, nor would have been who I was at the moment if it had not been for you.

And I still remember the taste from your cheek the tears of joy the night Julia was born. How you took my hand and said you would give up everything you had worked toward to be a mother to her like your own. And you were. You taught her your gentle Loving ways, and I could see in her all that I Loved in you. She would have grown to be the woman you were.

When in Europe I still sometime go to our special meeting places, and after all the one-nighters we spent in Paris, choosing to wait till we could enjoy it, I finally did see the city by day. I wish now we had not waited. I made a special trip to Chartres alone, because I knew I’d feel close to you there.

And I finally finished the house last year, just as you laid it out with only the necessary changes, and now regularly filled with our friends. The walls are lined with your best work, loving framed by Dee Dee. Your Geographic Covers hang proudly on each side of the fireplace. She cried the entire day she worked to hang them for me.
A Sister's Love is very deep.
And I plan to duplicate the garden from the old house best I can, where Julia played and you loved to spent summer afternoons .

Some people go through life accepting love as it comes, never knowing what it really is.
You taught me what love is by your words and actions. It’s not to be learn from a book.
You taught me to treasure the people and things that come to me, for they may be gone tomorrow.

I cannot put into words the joy and happiness you brought to my life.
With your Love, admiration and encouragement you helped make me the man I am now;I only hope you would still be proud.

Your strength, your courage to do the right thing, your patients and understanding allowed no doubt in me of your Love.

I adored you for all you gave me and admire you for being the woman you grew to be.

The days are now much longer without you both.
And there are no words to describe how much my heart misses you now.


G.