aaaaaaaaggghhh,whatever

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still thinking about this thing a lot
it got me shaken up
please tell me there's a way
and i got my head just spinning round,round,round..
don't want to take a fall
it's best to break it up
it's gonna be better for you, move on...
we break it
or thought we make it
and now we cover it up

if i let you in, you'd just want out
if i tell you the truth, you'd vie for a lie
if i spit my guts, it would make a mess, we can't clean up
if you follow me, you will only get lost
if you try to get closer, we'll only lose touch
but you already know to much
and you're not going anywhere






tell me that you need me cause i love you so much, tell me that you love me cause i need you so much

gone

Where is the true love? Which gives peace of heart How long will i be waiting? You're gone and probably not coming back And I cry and I'm hurt, when ... You're gone .... You're gone away from me, left me alone Skip the night without your love I chain words and tones All I want is love And all is gone .... All because of love I cry All because of love I laugh All because of love, all because of love What you left behind was just wounds And all is gone... do you remember this song,un...?

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Dark Thought

Emptiness is killing me. Hits my face like the moon crashes the sun. I gotta run, pick my gun, and shoot the dune. Kill everyone i know. Ask them to end up this show. Eeny, meeny, miny, moe...
Fuck life! Fuck hope! Fuck love! Fuck liars around me! Fuck friends! Fuck noises!
All i need is some comfort places. And maybe some stairways to heaven. So i could run above and drag him down to earth.
I want him to stab me. I want to feel the pain. I want to see my blood again.
Or should i ask god to kill me now? He'd be glad to

my only one



Broken this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason

I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you so you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one who gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one

Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone

And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one who gets me like you do
You are my only my only one

Here I go, so dishonestly leave a note for you my only one,
and i know you can see right through me
so let me go and you will find someone

Hear i go,scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there`s just no one, no one like you

You are my only, my only one
My only one you are my only one

i don't know what the right title for this post

i just want to say,i really miss him..
we've never chat anymore since last month..
i really don't know what to say..
the only thing that i feel about is
i really really miss him

My Sweetest Valentine's Gift ^_^

Love Love Rain Over Me Love


This valentine, i've got a very special gift. I love it so much smile heart
i've got it since i've joined this community yes
and it is "FRIENDSHIP" between me and my friend on this site up love
it's so special for me and i've promised i'll keep it till the end yes
i'm so glad to know that i have friends to chat with, share and joke with even the sadest and the worst one bigsmile
thanks for you all my friend smile love you all are so meaningful for me yes
once in my life i thought chocolates is the best and the sweetest things in my life rolleyes
but i know now since i've made a bond called "FRIENDSHIP" i found that our friendship is the sweetest and the best things in life, even in a life of choco freaks like me bigsmile yes

that star pic was made by me and my two friends. see! our friendship is like a bright twinkle star up heart it's so beautiful star its light shining our lives like the night sky fulled of twinkle stars smilelove
i hope this friendship will last forever and its light always bright our path and life love yes just like the stars which bright the dark sky heart
one finger of that star symbolize one person,and they are Rebi, Alex, Allisar, Asa, Kyo, Gia, Kyle, Sarah, Weeddy, and Trav heart
i'm sorry i didn't mentione everyone, but i have no enough finger bigsmile lol lol but all of you are still part of this shiny star yes for the others whom i didn't mention,you are the sparkle of this star love
thanks for being my best and sweetest valentine's gift love big hug and love for everyone!!!! heart "chocolates time!!!!" bigsmile

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Doesn't it hurt???

Oh... Goth!!!
i hate this thursday! mad
every thursday,started from home to campus,i always riding on my bike for about 30 minutes *phew* it's always exhausting knockout
at campus,from 8am-9.45am attending class with this unexciting tutor irked sitting on a chair with boring lecture,makes my ass hurts cry
10am-11am,attending a proposal seminar,usually i don't really feel bore and hurt at my ass cause it just takes an hour,but..... today it took 2 hours eek it added my ass pain cry cry
while the seminar being delayed,i turned my ass position for about a hundred times in order to get the comfort position bigsmile
my friend who was sitting beside me asked me 'does your ass hurt? coz mine hurts so bad.' lol lol one fact revealed : i wasn't the only one who had ass pain lol
then i said 'i don't know how to describe it,but it feels so discomfort and it's kinda paralysed' lol lol lol
i came out of the seminar room at 12pm <-- lunch break kyaaaaaaa! yikes doesn't it mean i have to sit once more while having my lunch?? faint i don't want get my lunch by standing left
i have an hour for having lunch,i just took a half hour to eat,and another half i used with STANDING AND WALKING around the park bigsmile
my ass really hurt,i didn't want to spend a half hour that i got with just sitting. BIG NO!!
1.30pm-4.30pm,i was attending my concentrating class..
God! it was so torturing me cry cry cry
while the class was on,i was like someone who has carbuncles on her ass o
i felt so discomfort knockout
and the suffering didn't stop here,yet cry
i had to ride my bike again to going home,it means i had another 30 minutes of ass pain.. faint
all my way home i promised myself not to sit for awhile,i need to relive my ass,take it off and store it in refri to make it fresh again lol lol lol
no,i didn't do that no
after i calculated, i got the result was almost 8 hours i got my ass stuck on the bench!!! yikes faint rip

ps: while i was typing this,i didn't sit at all lol lol

Missing

Ooooowwwaaaaaahhh cry cry cry
i miss you guyz! awww
i miss you all so much sad

To : rebi,alex,allisar,asa,kyo,gia,weeddy,kyle,borri,trav,kai and all my friends on opera heart

crazy!!!

she asked me, i answered
i answered, she didn't agree
she didn't agree, i kept silent
i kept silent, she got mad
she got mad, i got confused
i got confusde, she refused to explain
she refused to explain, i got mad
i got mad, she didn't like it
arrrrrrrrrggggggggghhh!!! i don't know!! whatever!! rolleyes

Randomness Again...

First thing to say is I'M SO TIIIIIIIRED knockout
this week is so exhausting faint
let's see the reasons:
1. on monday morning i dropped my bag which my laptop was inside it awww i didn't do it on purpose no
i was riding to campus that morning,i wasn't in high speed. it was only 80km/hr. there is a circle way that i always pass by. i rode to the left side but suddenly there was a stupid another biker came approached me and then 'BRAAAAAAAAAAKKKK!!!!' yikes the crash happened faint
my bike stuck in that place,but me was thrown 5 meters away from my bike yikes knockout
i was flying away lol lol knockout and landed so hard faint rip but thanks God i'm still alive and have no injure at all yes bigsmile
my bag was dropped yikes and my phone was broken too cause i put it inside my pocket,and i fell down lay forward.. it meant i fell on it cry cry cry
all my gadget were broken and still are sad . My laptop can't be used at all cry it doesn't want on,and when i checked the bike bigeyes some of it's parts were broken and the worst is THAT'S NOT MY BIKE!! yikes it's my bro's bike yikes he would kill me knockout cry
the bike has been fixed since that crash,so i walked home knockout
2. Tommy is a good boy up he didn't do anything at home but just messed it up mad he didn't want to help me to clean the house.. Yeah,i mean the entire of the house doh
he let me clean out the house alone cry
thanx tommy i love you bigsmile NOT mad
3. i hate last night. aaaaarrrggh irked the race was canceled due to raining. GAH!! i really need that money cry i need it to buy medicines for my mom awww
it's okay mom smile i'll find another job for you soon wink i'll try so hard^^
4. i can't stop singing Laruku's song "My heart draws a dream" bigsmile
i don't know why,maybe it help me a little bit to be more optimis. should say thanks to Laruku yes
sing yume wo egaiteku yo doko made mo takaku jiyuu ni mau no sa my heart draws a dream sing
yeah,i have a dream to be real yes
5. recently i always listen to Linkin Park's song "With you" and "no more sorrow". again and again i don't know the reason why but one thing i know is i don't need sorrow anymore yes it's enough for me being emo bigsmile
sing it's true the way i feel was promised by your face
the sound of your voice
painted on my memories even if you're not with me
I'M WITH YOU sing headbang
i feel like missing someone,but i don't know who it is doh
6. no i have no idea. so that's it for today,see you next on another post and byebye^^
now i want to sing "this is the best feeling" sing lol lol
tired zzz