Tuesday, 15. September 2009, 23:15:26
That's so true. In this little crazy world, life is a game where everybody is programmed to forget how to play it fair! The thing is you have to learn how accept the fact: the more cruel and immoral you tend to be, the easier for you to live (not very happily, but who cares cus' u) still have your pride, otherwise (that when you behave friendly n lovely) people r gonna look down at you on their noses!!! And this crazy things will never disappear, not to mention it's becomin a trend!
All the time I try to suppress the hatred feelings down to the darkest corner of my soul to bring up a smile on this serious-looking face, but it never seem to work at all. Dont wanna be an ugly arrogant girl, however, being nice is not always a solution. Keepin ur head held high n wearing an indifferent mask, for the worse, never let people judge u right. So hard to lead a peaceful life of ur own in everybody's world with all these try-2-b hard-to-plz ladies n gentlements.
I detest the rich who bear in mind the idiom "money talks". I hate the guys who are 24/24 aware of their beauty n consider all the people around the the beasts. I abhor the self-centered who never spare a moment or a small thought for anyone around them. And I disgust breathing the same air with YOU GUYS that ever appear in my life and make it like a big problem in emergency.
Whoever u r, u all more or less have influences on me. Watever u'v said n done may hurt me so bad. But not any1 of u have the power to make me miserable. READ MY LIPS. There will be someday wen u realize that I'm not that stupid.
JUST WAIT AND SEE,U LOSERS !!!!!!!!!!!!!
Saturday, 5. September 2009, 00:03:56
GreatMindsThinkDifferent
Everybody loves saying "I always wanna do some charities, but not any1's never given me no chances!!!" And then when chances come knock on their doors, they sends the chances away with gentle smiles, saying "Dear, it's not time yet!!!" Isn't that funny? Oh, NO. It's not funny at all. It's life!!!
Yesterday, our class had a small discussion on whether we shud live it up just thinkin of ourselves. So IMPRESSIVE that EVERYBODY say NO to that "selfish lifestyle". Maybe God wanna give me this very right time to tell them about some helps and small donation they can do to help the poor children with cleft lip and palate!
When I was tryin to xplain how their very little amount of money can create what we call miracles - new lives for the poor kids - they tried to discourage me by the we-know-all-about-these-stuff-and-stuff-long-before looks, then sighed out loud, fakin dogs' long faces. They wanna blow the unexpected-charity-talkin girl out of the stand! God Damn You, all the well-educated people who like to talk about the beauty of life whenever openin mouths!!!!
I'v found myself selfish all the time. Actually, callin out for people and makin believe r all I've done so far. Thinkin I'm the very one to blame for indifference. But how come all u guys out there behave even worse???
GIVING IS RECIEVING, absolutely Yes!!! Com'on guys, b4 u say that, 'd better know that
ACTION SPEAKS LOUDER THAN WORDS!!!!
Saturday, 22. August 2009, 03:11:28
MaiHeartnSoul
Saying things out loud without thinking make me become one of the funniest clowns ever for so many times.
It seems to me that sparing a moment to think thoroughly before the words escape my mouth is one of the most difficult challenges that I never have enough strength to get over. To be honest, I guess Tata Young wrote "My mouth never takes a holiday, I'm always shocked with the things I say" after she had met some kind of girls just like me.
Slips of the tongue really keep me obsessed with regret and I just can never let go. I shout at my Mum when she cares too much; I shout at any others when they unintentionally get into my nerve; and I say stupid things when I feel jealous or underestimated, lettin people see me as a mean girl always in bad mood. When gettin better, havin time to picture wat's happened, I realize no matter how I blame myself for ugly soul, nothin no longer helps!!!!!!!!
Yesterday was the same!!! I feel the terrible stream of remorse running from brain, reaching down to squeeze my heart as soon as I shut my damn pile hole. I keep hatin myself, thinkin if only I cud turn the hands of time,just 5 secs back, things wud be different.
I did try to make a good image as a humor teacher. Finally I turned to be a ridiculous person in front of all students!!!!!!!!!!
SPEECH IS SILVER, SILENT IS GOLDEN. Wen will I learn how to understand that?????????????
Feelin so bad right now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Sunday, 21. June 2009, 08:27:52
Larger-than-Love
Early mornin'. Wakin up n taken by surprise that today is Father's day. Heart sunk!!!
Wanna give u a ring, Dad. Cuz watever may happen, u cant be any1 else but my blood n flesh. Though ur persistent infidelity did cut our hearts open, the fluid run deep in our veins is still urs. N that's the real tragedy.
U'v been mad at me. Thinkin I'm a totally rubbish kind of child. Shout the most bitter words at me n cursed me to death. But I never buy any of those words despite my feeling little shocked n frightened. I know u just wanted to keep us close to u for bein' so afraid of lonely old age. But I dont think u choose to do it the wise way, Dad. Look wat u'v done. The more u showed u care about us by ur freaky way, the longer distance between Dad n Daughters has seemed to be. Now, I'm even scared of a phone call from or to u, Dad.
Truth to be told, i cant deny how much I want u back again. But callin u wud be like givin Mum a heartbreak. She did always feel 4 u for sure. But now I guess she's bearin a resentment against u. She love us too much. So i dont wanna leave any other scars upon her heart.
Of course I no u cud never read all about this. But still wanna say: Love u Dad, n blame u n some evil out there by ur side.
HAPPY FATHER'S DAY!!!!!
WIDGETIZE