Pirate2703

Saying things out loud without thinking make me become one of the funniest clowns ever for so many times.
It seems to me that sparing a moment to think thoroughly before the words escape my mouth is one of the most difficult challenges that I never have enough strength to get over. To be honest, I guess Tata Young wrote "My mouth never takes a holiday, I'm always shocked with the things I say" after she had met some kind of girls just like me.

Slips of the tongue really keep me obsessed with regret and I just can never let go. I shout at my Mum when she cares too much; I shout at any others when they unintentionally get into my nerve; and I say stupid things when I feel jealous or underestimated, lettin people see me as a mean girl always in bad mood. When gettin better, havin time to picture wat's happened, I realize no matter how I blame myself for ugly soul, nothin no longer helps!!!!!!!!
Yesterday was the same!!! I feel the terrible stream of remorse running from brain, reaching down to squeeze my heart as soon as I shut my damn pile hole. I keep hatin myself, thinkin if only I cud turn the hands of time,just 5 secs back, things wud be different.
I did try to make a good image as a humor teacher. Finally I turned to be a ridiculous person in front of all students!!!!!!!!!!
SPEECH IS SILVER, SILENT IS GOLDEN. Wen will I learn how to understand that?????????????
Feelin so bad right now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!