Thursday, May 3, 2007 5:49:24 PM
it's time for a change in my life. i have come to terms with more of reality. love is not what it really is in this day and age it seems. i put my hopes and my faith in it to find out that it is a deception deathtrap. ive never felt more confused or hurt
, but i am recovering and over time i still hope to unravel the questions i seek and to perhaps learn more about what i must do to be cautious next time around.
summer vacation is almost here, 3 more mondays to go. i will pursue a job like ive never done before and i plan on to rebuild up my muscles and eradicate most of my paleness.
i have sinned, i have done good, i think karma is dead. i truly believe that there are people in this life who are untouchable. accidents happen, but maybe karma isn't merciful. i have this fear that in this day and age if you cant find someone near your 20s or 30s, you might as well call it quits. my father is 58 and found the perfect woman for him; he went through 3 divorces. ill never be able to withstand that, ever. what do i have to do to find that someone? have i not repented enough? i want/seek redemption.
i am still lost at sea so to speak. hopefully i will run ashore soon.
Sunday, February 11, 2007 5:10:52 AM
well things are picking up. over the winter break i found someone very dear to me and i love her, her name's charity, i just wish she didnt live an hour away, and toll booths suck dick
ive matured more i think, realizing some people arent worth my time and are pathetic and being nice doesnt always cut it
ive been more into doom metal now, Swallow the Sun is a very good band
trying to start a doom metal band actually, but the scene down here is utter shit
thats about all i can remember now, hopefully the rest of the school year will fly by, and maybe ill find a job.......
-Craig
Wednesday, November 15, 2006 1:37:46 AM
well things have happened obviously. good things and bad things
first to get it out of the way: me and paris broke up for good i believe. her parents were being douchebags and we both accepted the fact that we couldnt do shit. it also had to do with the fact that i cussed out her mom and then she flipped out on her for getting bad grades on her report card. but anyway we ended on a good note
my dads poor again and hes a realtor. hes trying to get his broker license but....its costing us
school bores the shit outta me. SSDD
job hunt is going bad still. i applied at circuit city today but unfortunately i must hold my marijuana/alcohol or any other drug urge back for they drug test
now some good shit
me and this chick named leah have been friends for months. we like each other (hopefully haha) so ill see what i can make out of the situation with her
my FCAT retake scores came in and i passed them both. so no more retard classes for me next semester
i joined Eric and Nathan's band Cryptic Throne on keys. i practiced with them for the first time on sunday. we also have a vocalist named Craig; hes pretty damn good. it was good jamming with the buds again
i have Dragonland's new album "Astronomy" (more like downloaded because it saves me 30 bucks on pre-order for america). it has a mix of melodic death metal and still has a progressive and power metal element. it fuckin rocks hard
school is good. i got pretty damn good grades so far
thanksgiving break is almost here...i need a break
Praise Allah
-Craig
Wednesday, October 4, 2006 9:35:26 PM
i bought corpsepaint and decided to put some on
anyways for an update
for those who didnt see the blog before this i was depressed. 3rd speeding ticket but i lucked out and i can still keep my license...but the insurance cost sucks now. retook the FCAT and ill find out if i passed it in december so hopefully i did. me and paris got back together and we went through more shit and got back together again. could we go through anything else? haha
well thats it
Saturday, August 19, 2006 4:33:47 PM
More blog time
School started for me last wednesday. it's complete shit. this test we have to take called the FCAT completely fucked up my schedule. they took away my german 2 and auto tech class because i failed it and put me into retard math and reading. i usually get 3's or 4's on the reading...i got a fucking 1. the only good thing about school is i get to see my girlfriend who goes there now.
Vae Victis is in dormancy. my drummer tries to control the band, i got in his face, and he and the guitarist quit. he claims im too controlling, he tried to control what was mine. i think anyone who's been in this situation before knows what im talking about. but apparently i offended him badly enough to where we aren't friends anymore. owell
my dad's car battery died...it sucks ass. riding the bus to school pretty much fuckin sucks.
September 15 im going to see power metal band Kamelot with my friend. should be a very good show
...ive been getting into power metal alot lately...Dragonland is the best power metal band in my opinion hands down...amazing stuff
anyway musically i want to be in a band again...sorta. im putting alot of effort to pass the FCAT retake in October. so for now im booked i guess
Wednesday, July 5, 2006 7:02:11 PM
Well 4th of July was alright i guess. me my friend geoff and mike blew shit up all over his neighborhood.
bottle rockets r gay. i used 2 gloves and held them to shoot them at houses but it scortched the living shit outta my finger. its all black, green, and white lookin....its pretty bad
well my girlfriend broke her arm cuz of some horse accident and....my brothers in New York and we haven't heard from him yet...so idk whats goin on with that
my sickness is over thank god...never again do i want it...never...ever...EVER
hmm...idk what else has been exciting. my neighbors wanted me to mow their lawn while they're in France but...no
Lost my Dark Funeral CD and im pissed...umm...need a new cd case...a job would be nice or a shitload of money
July 19...Sounds of the Underground
Piano lessons tomorrow i like to procrastinate at shit...well...thats it
Thursday, June 22, 2006 2:10:05 AM
so i moved into my new house....however there have been problems
before i moved after thursday....i dont remember if it was thursday but i got sick for three days after it
it sucked as most sicknesses r sore throat, fever, aching....fuckin flu in JUNE...unheard of but after those three days i recovered and moved
moved on the 15th...2 days later BAM sick again. this time it was much worse
i threw up 8 times whatever i ate or drank...sometimes i didnt even have too i threw up fuckin bile...then that stopped but my throat was so fucked up from throwing up so much i could barely swallow or talk. i must have ate or drank everything cold in my house to cool it off but it didnt fuckin work at all
i have these strips and cough drops for the sore throat...barely working...but I FUCKING INTEND TO GET BETTER....
sigh...
on a happier note...my bands gonna re-record the demo becuz Drew is a fag and doesn't understand Black Metal. a true metalhead from a local death metal band will
and tomorrow's my girlfriend's birthday
I love you Paris
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Thursday, June 8, 2006 1:57:09 AM
6/6/06 came and went and nothin happened...dumb Christians
Only thing that happened to me was I got my band's demo done and saw The Omen.
I told my parents fuck summer school and they said OK so im happy
Basically check out my band's demo for all you Black Metal fans
myspace.com/vaevictisband
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