quirky

The Roller Coaster

Saturday, November 8, 2008 3:13:35 PM

There will always be a void
An emptiness, a loneliness
A hatred for my existance that used to be my life
What little laughter i have these days
is really just a cover for the sorrow
that lies in minions beneath it
Each laugh is a tear
That is yet to be shed
As nightmares re capture
My son in my head

I don't want to be here anymore.....
Each day gets harder and lonlier than the day before
Sleep becomes less fequent and plagued by nightmares
whilst my days are filled with visions of death.......
I no longer live...........I only exist
How much longer till i finally find peace?

How am I going here? Its scary and heavy, and i worry about spilling my emotions out on you. Please let me know Thank you

Comments

Planet Bendigoplanetbendigo # Sunday, November 9, 2008 12:01:17 PM

Write what you need to.

Claudeholdowicz-claude # Monday, November 17, 2008 12:52:21 PM

Hello dear Quirky

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Peter Willspjpw # Thursday, December 25, 2008 12:15:25 AM

Hi Quirky it's Christmas Day....Please try and have a good one....There are people who care out there.....

Peter Willspjpw # Thursday, December 25, 2008 2:20:52 AM

Today must be an exceptionally hard day for you. I did not mean to sound flippant with my first post as I did not realise the reason for your feelings until after I posted it then read your blog.

As a parent myself, family to me is everything. I have experienced the loss of a loved one in tragic circumstances (my father) however I cannot begin to imagine the feelings and emotions one would experience through the loss of a child in any circumstances let alone yours.

My heartfelt feelings, thoughts and best wishes are with you and I hope you get the opportunity to achieve your wishes to work with our youth.

Dulamandulaman # Wednesday, January 14, 2009 11:38:41 AM

beautiful poetry! Imme sinkke!

MGmg3 # Sunday, April 12, 2009 6:29:08 AM

Quirky nice poem!

quirkyQUIRKY68 # Tuesday, May 12, 2009 3:44:47 PM

i just wish to thank all who have left comments and sympathies for me. i know its been a while since i have checked but life is a roller coaster and sometimes a spider bite manages to make us realise that they have 8 legs for a reson....to bite unsuspecting females and run before they are seen then squashed. with that now out of my system i would really appreciate the comments to keep coming when i add. the order won't be right for a while as poems from my book and my memories and stories are just like me...random. i truly do appreciate your comments... yours truly quirky68