Tuesday, June 14, 2011 4:56:38 PM
Today, is the roughest day I have had in awhile. My heart feels torn out and hope seems to be failing. My emotions are all all the place. I feel mentally and physically exhausted. I am concerned about whether or not i am going to find useful employment. Maybe I'm worrying too much or maybe not enough. I can't tell. I feel like the weight of the world is planted on my shoulders and I can't carry it. That is Atlas' job. Anyway I'll do what I always do- trudge along and see if it gets better. At the end of the day I'll see where I stand.
Thursday, June 9, 2011 2:02:33 AM
I was talking to a very dear friend earlier and it came to my attention that sometimes we take for granted the people we love most, our significant others. It is sad that this happens. I have been guilty of this myself on several occasions and would ask for forgiveness from those that i have done this to.
In a relationship it takes two, both parties should endeavor to keep this from happening. When we are in a relationship we should strive to keep romance and courtship alive and flourishing. The reason we are in that relationship is because of mutual attraction, affection, and a desire to be with that person by choice. We chose to be in that relationship and are obligated to keep romance alive.
I always try to remember important dates, events, special songs, and special places where it seems the world revolves around the two of us and we are in the perfect place at the perfect time.
For me that place is Riggs Flat Lake on top of Mt. Graham, about an hour's drive from where I am staying. It has always been a part of my life and some of my most cherished memories were made there. We all have a place like that wherever we may live.
This shouldn't stop after we have children. Couples should still be in courtship and romance should be strong and vital. Mom and dad should always set aside time to go on a date with each other at least once a week to keep courtship and romance burning.
I think if more couples did this the divorce rate would drop and people would generally be much happier.
Tuesday, June 7, 2011 11:13:54 PM
Today was the graveside service of my great aunt Leota Hazeltine Foster-Dowdle. I got to see people that I hadn't seen in several years and got to meet some cousins I haven't met before. It was also good for my daughter because she got tmeet relatives she has never met before. All in all it was good service and the food after was great too. We caught up on a few years of absence and got to know the ones he hadn't met yet. Anyway we walked around the graveyard looking at the tombstones of several generations of my kinsmen. It made me realize how long my family has been in southeastern Arizona. Some of them were original settlers of the Gila River Valley.
Monday, June 6, 2011 8:18:26 PM
For the last five days i have gone to bed at various times just to see what time I would Naturally awake. It seems that I could not sleep past 0545. It would seem my natural clock is set to morning. Now I know.
Friday, June 3, 2011 6:44:23 PM
Today is a new day with its own set of challenges and triumphs. This morning I awoke at 0630 and knew what I would be doing at least for this morning. My uncle has some land with horses on it and he's 70 years old. I spent the morning mixing cement for a project he is doing. He's building a tack shop for his saddles, bridles, and bits. I'm 50 years old myself and love to work hard and then step back and say, that is a job well done and I am proud to have been apart of it. I approach everything I do in that manner. That I guess makes me an enigma in the world of today, a man who likes to work and do the best job I can. That is a challenge I will face everyday and rise to. How many people feel that way?
Wednesday, June 1, 2011 4:13:04 PM
I am living with my parents again. The current economy has brought me to this point. In Arizona jobs are are hard to come by probably for for many reasons, among which are competition, lack of resources, and just not that abundant.
This poses a question for me: is President Obama telling the truth when he claims that that unemployment is down?
I think that the data is skewed because those numbers are for people actually looking for for work. It doesn't take into consideration those people who have been unemployed and looking for work so long without success they have given up.
I have been unemployed for over a year and looking without success of getting hired. I have had 4 face-to-face interviews and 7 phone interviews in that time and have been faithfully looking daily for work any work even temporary services are having a hard time getting people assignments.
I lost my a job I had held for 5 years due to a chain of events I set in motion by doing the right thing. The right thing unfortunately got my supervisor in trouble with his boss then the harassment started for three months i had to listen to my supervisor tell me what a back-stabbing snake I was and when i finally reported it even the documentation I had didn't help. They just waited for me to make a mistake and I did. In a right to work state like Arizona the employer doesn't need a good reason to fire you, an employee can be terminated simply because the company says we don't need your services anymore.
If anyone actually reads this please post a comment that may help to better understand what employers want. I have always been taught that the only currency anyone really has is their integrity. That is the only thing that has lasting value. If I am wrong then post also and help me to learn. If you think me naive then enlighten me.
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