"To get the full value of 'JOY'

U must have someone to divide it with."

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if you gonna love me. . .

If you are going to fall in love with me, it’s only fair if you know what you are falling in love with. You are falling in love with my insecurities, and my obsession with trying to figure out what everyone thinks of me. You are falling in love with my immaturity and my constant need to feel loved and appreciated, and my overactive tear ducts. You are falling in love with my troubled past, my hopes and dreams, and how I’m a hopeless romantic at heart. If you fall in love with me, you fall in love with all my flaws and imperfections. But if you fall in love with me, you’ll also fall in love with the way my eyes smile when I’m with you and the way my head fits so perfectly into the groove on your shoulder. You’ll fall in love with the occasionally humorous and thought-provoking things that I say, and the way I blush when people ask me about you. You’ll also fall in love with how I give the best of myself to you without any reservations. I love you. . .ya, i really do!!♥

It's okay. life is still good!!

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As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let us down, probably will. You'll have your heart broken and you'll break others' hearts. You'll fight with your best friend or maybe even fall in love with them, and you'll cry because time is flying by. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, forgive freely, and love like you've never been hurt. Life comes with no ...guarantees, no time outs, no second chances. you just have to live life to the fullest, tell someone what they mean to you and tell someone off, speak out, dance in the pouring rain, hold someone's hand, comfort a friend, fall asleep watching the sun come up, stay up late, be a flirt, and smile until your face hurts. Don't be afraid to take chances or fall in love and most of all, live in the moment because every second you spend angry or upset is a second of happiness you can never get back !!!!!!!

a poem for my dad. . .

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Dear daddy,

four years back,
when mummy died. .
You were left alone to raise
a fourteen years old girl,
and suddenly,
you had to be mom and dad,both!

and since then,
you've been through my illness,arguements,
teenage problems, and all. . . .

you used to wake me up every morning for school,
and waited eagerly for me to return home safely. .

wheneven i got ill and informed you,
you came home running,just like a 'Mother',
and you always made some time to visit the
doctors for me,from your busy schedule. .

the days when you were away,you wrote letters to me,
so that the apple of your eyes stay close to you. . .

and you gave me money that I hadn't ask for,
as if you knew somehow, i needed it. .

you ate little,and even stayed hunger many nights,
so i don't need to cook again late at night. . .

you used to travel by public transport,
wore simple clothes and never wasted money. .
But for me,
there've always been plenty. . .

Dear Daddy,

I love it when you still give me instructions
while crossing the road,
and when you stop me from eating too much or too less
coz it's going to harm my health. .
I love it when you tell me something new about cooking,
and still teach me about how to eat 'fish' ,

I loved it when i brought our pets without your permission,
and still you accepted them calmly,no complain. .
I loved it when you came into my room,
sometime during my sleep and left chocolates
and my wrist watch by my pillow side. . .

it always touches me. .
i know i'm grown up, but you're the one who
Understands that i'm a child by heart, and i can make mistakes. .
and i'm still your 'little girl'. . .

Dear Daddy,

you raised me through thick and thin,
and i want you to know everything before angels could take you away from me. . .

my hopes and dreams has been built on your shoulders,
you've given me wings, you've given me chance to fly. .

what would be my world be like,
without you in it??
I would be lying if i say, I don't miss having you
around me all the time. . You're most influential person in my life. .

Dear Daddy,

you may not have done all the 'Mother' kind of things for me,
but you've done something more. .

you've made me 'ME',
you gave me faith,and most of all,
your unshakable belief in me. .
Your unconditional acceptance,
even when i didn't deserve it,
and Dad,i will never abuse your trust. . .

I feel proud to have such a dad,
you'll always be my support system,
I can truly say that
I'm the luckest daughter in the whole world. . .
And you're the best father. . .

"I LOVE YOU DAD"
-your loving daughter,
Rose Nanda.

For My Dearest MOM...On Her 4th Death Anniversary. . .



Today is 4th death anniversary of mom. . And as usual,i'm missing her. .
But i know,she's still with me,seeing my every single act,laughing with me,
walking with me, she kisses my forehead when i sleep,and wakes me up in the morning,
she's my darling,my angel,my Godmother! And i'm still living under her wings. .
Cheers to you mom,i'm proud that i'm your daughter. . .
you were a great woman in all the fields of life! I love you so much!smilesmile

i am happiest person on this earth:)smilesmile

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o yeah! i mean it!! i am happiest person on this earth and i believe that million of people will happily give
their everything to live such life:) it's amazing!! EACH MORNING i wake up and thank God for giving me such wonderful life,
i thank God for giving me world's best father and world's best sister, for giving me shelter and all comforts,
for giving me two pets who loves me more than anything! i'm blessed!
i feel luckyest for i am blessed with sweetheart caring friends, and i'm glad that i'm living in this world that is
full of sweet people. . .full of love,full of happiess!!
in fact i feel as if i am a pot of love and happiness and i'm spreading it everywhere. . .i love my life,and most of all,
i love MYSELF,i love every bit of "ME". and i love it when people loves me too! i love it when people says that they are
so lucky that they got a chance to meet me,thats awesome experience!
and honestly,i don't hate anyone in this world,i just love everyone and everything,everyone around me and around the
world. . .i feel like this world is my own part,like my soul is connected with each person on this planet,and so,i love
everyone! i mean,how could i hate myself!!smile
and yeah,i'm living perfect life,yeah yeah,PERFECT!!! i feel like i have got some magic in my hand,i get whatever i want,
whatever i desire,my prayers are being answered each time,and i pray for everyone,even those people whom i don't know. .
life is amazing,awesome,beautiful!! what i say more!!

THANK YOU GOD, ZINDA HOON MAIN,
ZINDAGI KA SHUKRIYA!!!

a walk to remember. . .

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my sweetest friend,this is only for you. . i know i have hurt you enough and you have full right to stay angry and punish me.
and i will happily accept punishment,coz i deserve it!
and maybe you don't even talk to me but i am here to say sorry. . .
you know me more than any other friend,you have seen my crazyness and you can understand everything!
so please,forgive me:)

but 1st let me tell you how special you are to me. .i remember everything that you have done for me,
you have done more than expectations,you are the one who shared me his shoulders to lean on,who wiped my tears many times,
who filled all the communication gaps by funny jokes if i'm silent or upset,who stayed awake just to chill my mood,
who gave so much love without expecting for return,who never complained for anything,who never got angry with me,
even when i forgot to wish you on your birthday!
you are an awesome person! and i miss you,and i always missed you in heart!

you are the one who taught me alot things,like a guardian,who advised me the best(that i ignored),who. . .who. . .who. .
who is my best friend! you will always some a special place in my heart and
your memories still rocks my life!!
may God bless you my dear friend,ummaahhhh!!!

i was trying to fly,
but couldn't find wings,
you came alog
and changed everything,
you lift my feet off the ground
you spin me around,
you make me crazier,crazier,
crazier!!!

You I choose, of all the world, alone…

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for my love,my dark angel . .
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You I choose, of all the world, alone;
Will you suffer me to sit in grief?
My heart is as a pen in your hand,
You are the cause if I am glad or melancholy.
Save what you will, what will have I?
Save what you show, what do I see?
You make grow out of me now a thorn and now a rose;
Now I smell roses and now pull thorns.
If you keep me that, that I am;
If you would have me this, I am this.
In the vessel where you give color to the soul
Who am I, what is my love and hate?
You were first, and last you shall be;
Make my last better than my first.
When you are hidden, I am of the infidels;
When you are manifest, I am of the faithful.
I have nothing, except you have bestowed it;
What do you seek from my bosom and sleeve?

For my dearest MOM...on her 3rd death anniversary...



The hardest part is
Knowing you're
Gone..
I'll never see you
Again..
You mean the world to me,
I loved seeing your face
Lighting up when i entered
The room..
Like i was the only one
There.
I could hear your voice
Lift,
And i know you wanted me
There..
But now you can't even
Open your eyes.
I need you,but you're
Gone..
You were the only one
Who truly understood
That i need to make
My own mistakes..
And that i really am a
Good girl..i'm just figuring out
Who i am.
You were always proud
Of me,
Even when i didn't deserve
It.
I'm sorry i was such a terror.
I would do anything to have
Another chance
To have you back.
Even if just to say

"GOODBYE"


Dear mom,it's really hellish to live this life without you,
I miss you more than i could say..
I Love you MIMMI!

tere rashte alag hain,mere rashte alag hain...

mere humsafar,tujhe kya khabar
ye jo waqt hai kisi dhoop chaaon ke khel sa
isey dekhte,isey jhelte
meri aankh gard se bhar gai
mere haath barf se ho gayen
mere bekhabar tere naam par
wo jo deep jalte they baam par
wo nahi rahen
wo nahi rahen ki jo ek rabt tha darmiyan wo bikhar gaya
wo hawa chali
wo kisi shaam aise hawa chali
k jo barg they sar-e-shakhe jaan.wo gira diye
wo jo harf darz thy rait par wo ura diye
wo jo rashton ke yaqeen thy
wo jo manzilon k ameen they
wo nishan-e-pa bhi mita diye!

mere humsafar,hai wahi safar
magar ek mod ke farq se
tere haath se mere haath tak
wo jo haath bhar ka tha faasla
kai mousamon mein badal gaya
usey naapte,usey kaat'te
mera sara waqt nikal gaya
tu mere safar ka shareek hai
main tere safar ki shareek hoon
par jo darmiyan se nikal gaya
usi fasle ki shumar mein
usi be-yaqeen se gubar mein
usi rehguzar ke hasaar mein
tera rashta koi aur hai,
mera rashta koi aur hai...!!!

teekha eahsaas....

kitni hin awazen aai,
meri tamannaon ko unhone jhakjhor ke jagaya
kaanton ki tarah chubhi
pankhurion ki tarah sahlaya
nas-nas mein samo ke mere khwabon ko jagaya
unhe haqiqat ka jama pehnaya
aur maine apna sara wajood unhi ke hawale kar diya
magar haasil kya hua?
awazen hawaon pe sawar ho kar aai thi,aur hawaon
par hin sawar o kar phir chal di...
bikhar gai zarra-zarra ho ke,
aur tuk-tuk kar diya mere wajood ko!
main phir chun'ne lagti hoon apne
wajood ke bikhre tukde ko.
phir ikkatha karti hoon apne aadhe adhure
dam todte khwabon ko,pighalte huwe pareshan jazbat ko
dil ki gehrai mein chatpatati anbujh,
jhulasti pyaas ko,
subakti,sisakti hui tanhai ko,
aur phir paalne lagti hoon hamesha ke saathi
APNE DARD KO,
kabhi aansuon ki dhaar se,kabhi pure pyar aur dular se..
main saja leti hoon apni saanson ki bagiya ko
syaah farishte ke intezar se..aur..
,,aur lagti hoon bun'ne khwab,ki abki jo saamne aayega
jarur wahi hoga meri zindagi ka sahenshah
meri kayanat ka khuda..
woh meri rooh ki betabion ko jaan lega
meri ghutan aur dard mein apne naksh ko pehchan lega
phir koi bhi doori,doori nai rah jayegi
na main,main rah jaungi
na wo,wo rah jayega..
ek jism-ek jaan ho jayenge hum dono
bujh jayegi janmon ki meri pyaar ki pyaas
meet jayega dard ka teekha eahsaas....