Sarah Jane

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Sunday, 30. March 2008, 17:56:29

bless those teary eyes for they've cried
bless those tormented souls for they've loved

struck by the curse of emotions, she lays still
brown eyes fixed on the light amidst her starry night
wandering about the fate of her life,
which detour life'll take her..

to her ears, she whispers many things
of casted spells and eternal missbliss

but no, she's still hanging on
oh yes, she's proving herself strong
thanks to that thread of hope
lying there in the back of her head
before the devil comes claiming her dead

yea, that she is I
yea, i burnt the tag hanging from my toe
managed to lift myself up before i fall
never needed you there when i asked you to
up until now, i was such a damn fool

reliving those days like they were yesterday
i puff out a cloud to erase it away
but i'm so over you..
why is it then i'm writing this about you?
aha..now i remembered...it's all coming back
it's to recite my fairytale on this very track

you called me princess..thought i was 'her' for you
God knows how many more you've got them fooled

i deserve better than you & deep down you know it
you wanted to change but was to scared to admit it...

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it's over and done...

Sunday, 30. March 2008, 17:20:12

emotions

note to self:

it's been over a month now..
since i left you there..standing...
but this way is better for me...
again, i feel like i can breathe...
live my life the way it should've been...
gliding free over God's endless sea...

sometimes i wonder what you're doing this very hour...
pointless, no?

i better go now..there's something else i wanna post..

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"im gonna lose you"

Tuesday, 1. January 2008, 17:35:17

emotions, rants, lyrics

maybe you will..maybe you are..maybe you just did!

that wasn't the first time you said that to me..i've heard it before..you actually made me believe you want me there, for you, with you...but now i have come to think otherwise..you don't need me..you only want me there to make you feel good..to tell you what others don't..to make you smile when you're feeling down..to make yo laugh when you've dropped your crown..to make you feel special when no one cares..to make you feel you when no one dares!

i think i'm done with that now..

you need me when no one needs you...what about what i need? what i want? what i feel? what i think?
correct me if i'm wrong but does that not make you feel selfish? i have been selfish...to myself..putting others before myself..for allowing you to take me for granted!

i said i'll always be there for you...and i will...just not like before...cos i don't think i can handle the state of confusion i'm in!

NOT ANYMORE!

wishing you all the best..with the one your spending your time with...you know what i mean...what i wrote, i'll doubt you'll read...nevertheless, you were a phase..a chapter of my life..i thought i could make you change..but change only happens when you want it..if you want it...

it's funny, yet sad, how one cares about another when they haven't even seen each other! i am a fool...a damn right fool, i am!

i'm going to stop running now...i'm going to look at the mirror...and learn from my mistakes...
just to let you know, you were NOT the mistake..the only mistake i think i've done was put my heart out for you to take when all you did was through it away, allowing it to break!

Thank you for Goodbye

what's in my heart is on my tongue...and i write what i want to say...

now that i've said it...i shall not regret it...
nor shall i think about it ever again...

what's done is gone...and its a new year now...

they say good things happen for those who wait...let's see how long that takes...been waiting all this time...not gonna stop at 2008!!

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just one of those moments...

Sunday, 23. December 2007, 16:58:14

randomness, music

Ok...so there are moments when you try your best in getting a song out of your head! I'm trying but it's of no use! Thanks K...really! lol

but I LOVE IT!

Carnival Of Rust

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what doesn't justify!

Saturday, 22. December 2007, 16:57:03

And another...
This one I wrote on the way to London...over the summer...

sipping on my cup of coffee
amidst the clouds up here
playing 'me and you' in my head
pouring tears

how did we get to this?
no more walks on the lane of bliss
it's such a shame,
now that we've gone our separate ways
many days have passed
wondering how long of this will last
I can't take it anymore
it's hard, but i'm trying

a caramel macchiato with a frown to go
blank faces passing me by
wish I could spread my wings and fly
to a place undiscovered,
a place called 'peace of mind'
curled up in myself
pondering upon your regrets to the assets you've lost
if any at all!

leaves crumbling in fall
wind whistling all along
and I realise
that I no longer wonder
no longer pray for thunder
to strike you down
because looking through the mirror, I'm a different person now
now that you're gone

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a phase

Saturday, 22. December 2007, 16:50:59

thoughts

something i wrote a while ago i thought was worth posting:

I wish you were gone
I wish you were dead
I wish you would drown
a single word unsaid

not a breath of mine will remain unheard
not a blink of my eyes will remain unseen
you've become the shadow in every step I take
becoming the death in my awake

the hate I felt for you
the things you made me do
no daughter would trust in you
because of the things you put me through
oh no..no no

bruises walking all over
tears screaming down my face
scars burning down to the bone
my tortured soul...gone to waste

I see me walking down the street
I hear the small steps of those tiny feet
for those smiling faces that lurk upon
are unaware of what lies within

the hate I felt for you
the things you made me do
no daughter would trust in you
because of the things you put me through

your lullaby is for you to keep
because I never again want to cry myself to sleep
it made me suicidal back then
I don't want to deja vu it all over again

I close my eyes
everything's so bright
you're no longer by my side
because you've been washed away...by Hades' tides
so get lost...be gone...
now and forever
because I don't want this thing...called 'together'

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out and breathing

Saturday, 24. November 2007, 12:54:19

Don't you sometimes have those days when you hate everything...all that surrounds you...everyone around you?
Well, I guess that explains how i feel these days...and this is my way of venting it out...

I'm a perfect waste of soul
I'm a perfect waste of space
a perfect waste of life
which i didn't get to taste

sometimes i wonder why i'm existing
why i'm never considered the perfect fitting

whoever said family lifts you when falling
it's a lie
they're the ones making the falling
but i thank them in a way
and you wonder why
for my eternal sleep i'm anticipating
gone is the soul that once wondered
about life it once pondered
and happy it will be
wherever that may be...

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just a thought

Friday, 2. November 2007, 20:12:18

thoughts

If I were to worry about what people think of me, I would never get the chance to figure out who I am, where I came from and what I'm destined to do...
what's said today by others is forgotten tomorrow by others...but engraved in me till God knows when...
but i choose to live life as it comes, accept it for what it is and react to it in response...
It is not I that builds the future...I only refine it accordingly with whatever God has blessed me with...

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Sea becomes her

Friday, 2. November 2007, 09:50:38

thoughts

The madness of the sea bashing onto my sunken feet in the cold quicksand...a feeling of belonging to something so powerful i can't seem to overcome...
soft breezes of crisp salted air caressing my cheeks under the semi-lunar moon...

i look upon you and you try to tell me something...your voice muffled by the crashing of the tides...

clinging on to those last thoughts...i whisper farewell...our reminiscing must end here as the voice of reality bwildering me from behind..calling my name once again...sarah...sarah...sarah...

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