Wednesday, March 2, 2011 6:11:23 PM
MY COUSIN
PART I: WHO IS HE?
My grandfather told us on the first day of Lunar New Year that Jimmy will come to Vietnam on 16/2, anyone who is free at that day go to the airport meeting him and he does not understand Vietnamese. My Mum and my aunt were excited and said that: don’t worry uncle, Thu can speak English (ak ak food is choked over in my throat, I hate this kind of case). Aunt Bich continued: yah, Thu, you take some times to take him go around, I afraid he will feel boring. My aunt followed: don’t mention it, she is unemployed now, let she goes with Jimmy. Thy smiled on me: you are specialize in going out, dear…I sit there can not say a word even “no” and actually no reason to say “no” so that I only could odd my head docilely and “yes”…
For 30 years, I only know I have 2 sisters and 3 cousins, I have not never thought that I still have one more cousin (that why my friends put a big question to me where this cousin come and why I always say busy for last 10 days. Snoopy asked: I knew your family very well, I have not never heard from you that you still have a cousin….Hang asked that you never mentioned about him, you lied, he is your new boyfriend, right? Linh; he is really your cousin, you praise him to the sky, I doubt you…..Yah, my dear friends, He is my cousin and this is the first time in my life, I go to meeting someone who I did not even know his face before. I looked on the gate where a lot of people run very quickly and guess who my cousin is (God help me, I hope he not very odd so that I can go out with him). Time coming, he appeared with glasses and the head look like a ball, his eyes is looking around and his bag swings on his big back.
He is white, 178 cm high, 85kg weight, strong point is his smile and weak point is his big eyes which really not match on his big face. But one thing for sure he is handsome. A handsome man 33 years old goes with a beautiful girl 30 years old is really perfect.
PART II: OH RELATIVE
Because of him, I have 1 more relative, his mom, I call aunt. Because our relative is not closely so that some of his relative I did not know and of course they did not know me either and that why they used to asked me: you are Jimmy’s girlfriend? The return of a son who was born in US makes he become an unavoidable superstar because everyone wants to know how Jimmy look like?
Ah, I have to tell your guys about our relative: his grandfather is older brother of my grandmother
PART III: HOW LUDICROUS I AM!
From the information which I got, he did not understand Vietnamese so that I do my new duty translation very ardent but when I heard he answered in…. Vietnamese, I felt how ludicrous I am suddenly.
I decided to speak in Vietnamese in the day after. But OMG, the same question but sometime the answer is yes, sometime is no…I dazed and looked at him…in case he continued to speak in Vietnamese I could not speak in English, look very ludicrous….one more day has gone. The third day, only I went out with him and I found that: he understood Vietnamese really good but sometime if he did not understand he just smile or said no and the best communication of us is: both of languages. It means he - American will speak Vietnamese and I – Vietnamese speak in English.
PART IV: FINAL
He came to Vietnam this time to visit his grandparents. His grandfather did not meet him for last more than 30 years…this is consequence of war.
His mother stayed in US for long time, fed him and taught him alone…she taught him Vietnamese, kept Vietnamese spirit for him….I respect her a lot. Some Vietnamese who even stays in Vietnam cannot teaches their children speak Vietnamese properly; of course it is not children fault.
Seeing him off, I said: if I come to know you look down on Vietnam, I will not talk with you anymore. He said: I never do it. He promised he try to come back Vietnam next year and he will ask me take him to Hoi An, Hue and other place
Friday, February 25, 2011 6:11:46 PM
When the light turns off...when i close my eyes...all things will disappear but i ensure one thing you will appear...I try to run away from our place, i can force myself not open old messages which had been sent by you long time ago, i can force myself do not call you but i can not stop think about you....
Man, i really miss you...only 1 person come into my dream for last many days after the day you left me...it is you even i told myself, what gone by let it gone by and i really know i must bury our memories but memories still green....
You told me that you hate people who hurt me, till the time you beside me, you will protect me but you never mentioned if he was you, what i should do, if you has gone, what i should i do..
Man, i never blamed you anything about our relation. I knew and we knew. It's just a game and now game over, we have to go back on the way which we has chosen.Whose fault, do not matter...
I not hurt but i feel deep grief. Actually, sometime we know the result but we can not imagine how much interminable moments of missing someone cost.
When i saw my feet, i remmember the day you took me to the hospital and 10 days after that, you carried me on your back and took me to the company.
When i saw my computer, i remmeber the day you went to my house after work, it was late but you still came to fix my PC. I knew you were very tired.
When i was driving on the street, i remmeber the day you got angry yourself because your motocycle hurt me cause of your mistake....
Sometime, i dont want to go home, your image is full of it.
You was right, till the time you beside me, you made me happy. Nobody had taken care me as you before.
Man....I miss you more than i can say.....
Man, I am sorry because i can not live the life as i promise, i can not live the life as you expect....
Sunday, February 13, 2011 3:00:30 PM
This is the difficult in my life for last many years:unemployed and lost you....
For last many day i did not cry...I am fine...
Yah...sure...anyway tommorrow is another day..
Sunday, November 22, 2009 1:28:43 PM
It's very comfortable feeling...I hope you will success...Thank for all thing you have done for my birthday. Yesterday is your 30th birthday. It's mean a lot but take it easy...I don't promise i will beside you all of my life but I ensure I try to do that till the time I can...
Love
Sunday, October 11, 2009 4:49:01 PM
This entry for you, my close friend.
My dear, did we make you hurt? You understand, don't you? I sure you do. It's your 9 years love. Of course, it's not the short time so that it will take a lot of time for you to forget but believe me that you will be fine. He is a thief. He has stolen 9 most beautiful years of your life. Try to forget him. Try to change your habit about him, think about him...Nothing is easy, i know, i see because i am trying to do the same thing like you now...
Don't be weak! Only you make yourself hurt if you continue with him...we try to help you but only you make it succeed...
God bless you....
Sunday, October 11, 2009 4:39:39 PM
My birthday will come in next 18 days. I confuse...For last 5 years, you have always stayed with me in my every birthday.
The first birthday,you gave me a necklace and a dictionary. We sit in a cafeteria beside the river. I liked it very much. But, one day, when you made me jealous because of phone call from somebody, i have given it back to you and said: when you go to VT,pls through it into the sea...I just said when i was angry but you did...You can not imagine how sad i am.
The second birthday.....can not remember....
But the third birthday with you really romantic...We celebrated on a boat. I still remember its number 168 boat. You gave me gift, cake, firework....all things....You beside me still 12pm...On the way you took me home, we burned firework...we laughed..we joked...we were happy together....
Birthday last year, we just stayed for 2 hours. But it still make me happy...and the next day we traveled to KG...and I had 1 week with you....
How about this year dear....?
I think something must be changed...
Wednesday, August 26, 2009 3:15:05 AM
You have broken my heart, dear. I have thought that i would be fine when we talked about this topic but i am wrong, still hurt too much. You told me: leave me, don't wait anymore, useless...to be honest, getting married is good for you life. I just said: who marry me?
Love is game. Somebody loves me, I love you, and you love whom...? nobody, you love yourself...I did not imagine my feeling like now...hurt too much...
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Really want to ask: you don't love me anymore or you don't want me to wait you at this time...........
I want to cry....
Sunday, August 23, 2009 3:35:18 PM
(This entry for you)
I am sorry. I don't love you. I know I broke your heart but I didn't mean I break you heart. Your message made me feel compassion. You blamed me leave without explanation. Really that? You made all things becomes too fast for me to agree...Forgive me...It's my fault when I have known us really different but I tried to fix it. How can i let you know the real reason? How can I tell you my worry?
The new semester will start the end of this month. It's difficult for me to meet you in class but anyway...
Believe me...it's good for you when I broke down this relation.
Wednesday, April 15, 2009 3:58:04 PM
MISC
I got my house in 360 Yahoo but it will be closed next some months. I am sad. I really don't want to move but anyway, let it be like it is. So choice new house...make new friends...just do it...1 2 3............congratulation.............Hey, my name is ScarlettN81............welcome............