My OperaSo you want to know me...
Saturday, March 14, 2009 4:01:22 PM
Hmmm. how do i start.where do i begin.
i could tell you aboute my life at the tender age of seven or ten year old.
or i could move into this time and who i am now as a man and a father of my own child.
what would be better i dont realy know.
i guess mabey a little of both is needed to give a clear illustration of who i am and what i stand for and against in this Journey called my life.
I have been to many places and seen many things in the 46 years i have lived on this planet.
some good and soom bad just like you i have been through failed marriage and failed relationships just like you. i have seen trajedy and triumph just like you. hey mabey were not so differant after all.
how is it that we are livening the dreams of our hearts and dont understand the design of our life.
its not a standardized work yet. i'm just begining too. understand more and more aboute the whole cosmos thing and how we are related to the world of science and art. i'm still a child in many ways and in that i don't understand the design of my life yet.
does this mean at some point i fell behind in my understanding process.
i don't so i think it just has to to with learning and living.
i hope i'm not loosing you.
this is what i mean if we are as children. do we think as children or act as children or do we just have a better way of understanding as a child see's. i'm not completely sure about this one but i do know this that if we are to understand as a child with wonder and anticipation. then this should be a good thing and should be nurtured in to our adults lives .
iv'e always wanted to find others that understood how i think but have often come up short in my journey i dont know why.
its just the way it is i guess. i have always been concerned about another's comfort before my own i follow the old rule given by my father when i was much younger that .and i quote
"if moma;s happy you will be happy". did you mother tell you that too.
i've often wondered if we were told the same things when we were kids growing up in our parents home.
but ive never asked anyone before isn't that a little odd.
I still believe in love and romance but i have to admit it scares me to follow my heart in such matters .because of the problems that i have had before trying to hold together a meaningful relation -ship. it's damn hard work. and sometimes when you get to a point where you are comfortable you will loose them to death. i'm not done yet.i still want to find love again. yea its rough .
but i believe with the proper setting it can also be worth all the pain that is indured and with time a real and lasting bond can be achieved.
your probably thinking i'm a pessimist, maby. but no not really just careful. if i have something that is desirable to another than thats good. i would hope that thats true in some sense.
i mean please donot take my pessimism wrong it can be a very good indicator of a life that is moving to a place of peace and understanding.
you must be careful with the things you consider important and precious.
More latter... SelfStyldMusic
i could tell you aboute my life at the tender age of seven or ten year old.
or i could move into this time and who i am now as a man and a father of my own child.
what would be better i dont realy know.
i guess mabey a little of both is needed to give a clear illustration of who i am and what i stand for and against in this Journey called my life.
I have been to many places and seen many things in the 46 years i have lived on this planet.
some good and soom bad just like you i have been through failed marriage and failed relationships just like you. i have seen trajedy and triumph just like you. hey mabey were not so differant after all.
how is it that we are livening the dreams of our hearts and dont understand the design of our life.
its not a standardized work yet. i'm just begining too. understand more and more aboute the whole cosmos thing and how we are related to the world of science and art. i'm still a child in many ways and in that i don't understand the design of my life yet.
does this mean at some point i fell behind in my understanding process.
i don't so i think it just has to to with learning and living.
i hope i'm not loosing you.
this is what i mean if we are as children. do we think as children or act as children or do we just have a better way of understanding as a child see's. i'm not completely sure about this one but i do know this that if we are to understand as a child with wonder and anticipation. then this should be a good thing and should be nurtured in to our adults lives .
iv'e always wanted to find others that understood how i think but have often come up short in my journey i dont know why.
its just the way it is i guess. i have always been concerned about another's comfort before my own i follow the old rule given by my father when i was much younger that .and i quote
"if moma;s happy you will be happy". did you mother tell you that too.
i've often wondered if we were told the same things when we were kids growing up in our parents home.
but ive never asked anyone before isn't that a little odd.
I still believe in love and romance but i have to admit it scares me to follow my heart in such matters .because of the problems that i have had before trying to hold together a meaningful relation -ship. it's damn hard work. and sometimes when you get to a point where you are comfortable you will loose them to death. i'm not done yet.i still want to find love again. yea its rough .
but i believe with the proper setting it can also be worth all the pain that is indured and with time a real and lasting bond can be achieved.
your probably thinking i'm a pessimist, maby. but no not really just careful. if i have something that is desirable to another than thats good. i would hope that thats true in some sense.
i mean please donot take my pessimism wrong it can be a very good indicator of a life that is moving to a place of peace and understanding.
you must be careful with the things you consider important and precious.
More latter... SelfStyldMusic
JenJavaen # Saturday, March 14, 2009 9:09:16 PM
If it makes you feel any better, I've actually written a post about how in my heart (and mind so many times). I'm seven years old. That sense of wonder should be appreciated on some level, but as I also wrote, it can be frustrating, annoying, and downright disheartening. But I've grown to accept those things, because in so many ways, she's the best part of me!
I've heard the quote, "if momma aint happy, aint nobody happy". I don't know how much I believe all that.
I believe that having a strong sense of self, honesty while dating, and confidence to draw lines in the sand and stick to them, will allow the "bad matches" in dating to fall away quickly. Nobody should be solely responsible for another persons happiness. (Well, having a child is different). Being responsible for your own happiness works best, because then two people can enjoy each other without that pressure!!!
My mom told me this. "Two half people don't make a whole person, they make a quarter person, because their faults and problems multiply.... But two whole people can make one life very nicely indeed. ".
I never forgot that!
JenJavaen # Saturday, March 14, 2009 10:32:26 PM