Ahoy!

Last night was epic... i havent had so much fun in ages. I met so many new people thanks to Van, she knows practically everyone there, like she says, its her family! I met a Peter, a Mark, a Ryan, a Paul, 2 Gareths, a Graham and countless others whom names i forget. Oh oh and emo guys wearing heavy eyeliner (and the tear drop and everything) were everywhere... I used to think that was hot, make up on guys, but since last night i may have changed my mind! Honey, if you aint a rockstar, dont go there because 9 times out of ten you will end up looking gay. I nearly dug myself into a hole when talking to Peter about this. This convo went something like this:
Wow, this whole make up on guys thing really looks gay, like i never realised that before!
"Uhm..." (awkward silence)
O my word, you wear make up dont you?!
"Yup"
Ah. ok but at least you dont look gay as per say i mean it probably looks better on you obviously...!

But i loved meeting all these characters, i mean we dont have that in our town... it sucks. And nearly everyone i met is studying graphic design or is some sort of designer.
The bands were amazing, but the CokeStrokes and the Tutu's rocked my proverbial socks off... Van pulled me into a mosh pit.. twas quite the experience! Luckily i escaped the evening with only a sore toe. We had to leave early though because our 'lift' wasnt enjoying the whole evening at all and wanted to leave. Fader! Well we only missed the last band so it was okay i guess.

all in all, twas a pretty rad evening

And am i so amped for this weekend i tell ya! Tomorow we are going to Tempo's to the White Horse Sessions Production thingy (i think it is) But anyway, i am extremely excited as the Desmond and the Tutu's are going to be there along with Kid of Doom, Zebra and Giraffe and the Coke Strokes among many others... I'm getting ready to skank the night away wahoo!
I guess its a good thing then, that i dont usually go out to these Joburg events because its really exciting if you go only once in a while. Plus, having super strict parents doesnt really help anyway aswell. It'll be the first night i'm going out to Joburg with my new freinds from varsity and its rad because the one knows alot of the guys in the bands so i'm going to be introduced!
Couldnt believe that Robz was nearly going to cancel (CANCEL?! ON THE TUTU'S??) because she's feeling 'depressed' over K. Arg thats why i am so happy being single for now.. Its the best just going out when you want, you dont have to report to anybody and worry if theyre not happy with you... Its just free and fabulous and fantastic (ah the joys of alliteration). It sounds selfish, but you dont have to be responsible for anybody but yourself... responsible for feelings that is, because i have a habit of hurting guys (not on purpose!! guys like to make wrong assumptions) and then it feels awful when you know you've hurt them. So for now its just me, myself and i. thank you and good night. or good day.

So (wow i start alot of my blogs with 'so' but you probably didnt even realise that so moving on) i've been commenting on Mr Brightsides very good blog about how and why people do the things they do and on self mutilation (well, thats just part of it) but it reminded me of the awesomness of Foamy the Squirrel. If you have never seen him, hit youtube NOW! In his Drugs in Your Head rant, he goes on about how people use a stressful day as an excuse to do pot and crack and the like.. in part, he says:

"Im sick and tired of people saying "It relieves stress".. You people are the worst, One you're weak willed, two you're pathetic. "Oh i had a stressful day so i gotta have some pot!" Gimme a break, you people just cant deal with reality and thats your problem. I dont give two s*@%s about your stressful day, big deal, the rest of the world had a stressful day, alright, its called LIFE. Deal with it!"

I could not have said it better myself. So i guess this blog is about making excuses to do stupid things like cut yourself or do drugs. Actually, my brother told his one friend at school the other day that he's an idiot because he smokes so this well, idiot, says, "Hey, i have issues so i can smoke." WHAAAAT?! That must be in my list of top ten of the most stupid things i have ever heard. So is it like along the same lines of,Oh my mom is a prostitute so that gives me the right and excuse to sell my body.?
Gosh some people.

So i dont know if the rest of the world cares about South African politics and all (but apparently y'all must do because BBC was reporting that we're turning into the next Zim. British bastards!) but we have offcially got no president. Thabo Mbeki was basically kicked out of office yesterday and i dont get it. Apparently he had some underhand dealings with something or other that defeated the ends of justice (i think, selective hearing can be a curse). I find it pretty damn ironic since the current ANC president, Jacob Zuma, who is set to take over the presidency is currently on trial for some other illegal things. And was accused of rape but you know. all in a days work. And his supporters are like super violent individuals so i predict a riot! (or ten). I was happy with Mbeki, i mean he wasnt a dictator like Bob and we didnt have any wars or famines because of his reign.
And our elections are next April... they couldnt wait to kick him out! Sheesh they couldve waited. Now we gotta have early elections. There was even a special announcement that flashed on TV when they announced what was happening. That made me a tad scared!

And this is the very reason i dont vote (amongst others). No matter who you vote for (but especially in the African continent) its always going to be a cock up. Except with Mandela of course, he was like an old school freedom fighter straight edge dude!

sigh.

Reason i'm bringing this up is because of this:
Theres a Zimbabwean brother and sister in our church, they came to SA to look for jobs as there is obviously nothing in Zim. They have to work here, to send money back to their parents who are starving. 80 percent of Zimbabweans live under the poverty line... and i'm telling you the 20% that live above it must have some connections to old Bob himself. But anyway, the sister, Jessica, is turning 21 years old this year, thats only 2 years older than me and she has had SO much more struggling in her life it actually makes me feel sick. Here she is, in a foreign country (who were extremely violent towards aliens recently) without a steady job.. just worrying all the time where the money is going to come from. What have i ever REALLY had to worry about? Oh nooo, what shall i wear to the party on Saturday??
And the thing is, after it all,,, they're still happy. Happy to be alive, happy to be relatively safe. My family helped her brother out with a job and he is soo grateful to us. Thats also another aspect of struggle, it makes you appreciate things a whole lot more. Give that job to some south african, chances are he'd be fired at the end of the month for not coming in or putting effort.

So, where could you end up one day?
Well, wherever it is, i'd always want to remain grateful for the small things.