Chaos Butterfly

As I have mentioned previously, my hubby and I have had amazing luck with weather when we travel. We have started refering to it as weather Karma. A sort of homage to our friend SmoothP, who has amazing parking Karma. It seems no matter where he goes, he always finds a good place to park that also happens to be free.

I noticed the weather Karma the first time my hubby and I travelled together back in 1994. We went to London to as a sort of "I graduated from College" celebration, and the weather was amazing. It was sunny and pleasant and it only rained at night when we were sleeping. Then we went to San Francisco in 2000 and it was sunshine and pleasantly warm. The second city we went to that was famous for its fog, and again no fog. Just warm happy sunshine and pleasant breezes. When we went to New Orleans in July that year, the heat wave broke the day we arrived and resumed the day we left. We went to visit my Dad in Florida for Christmas. It was supposed to be rainy and mid forties. Again, it was a pleasant 70's with light breezes. Even our wedding three weeks ago had good weather karma. It was the first day that week it did not rain, and we were supposed to have thunderstorms. When we went on our Honeymoon in San Francisco (My favorite city in the world) it stopped raining when our plane landed. San Francisco had a brutal April and May had not started out well. It had rained every day for more then 40 days, not a drop while we were in town. We decided to go on a hot air balloon ride as part of our honeymoon extravaganza. I called the night before (Wednesday) to arrange it. The lady warned us that they had had to cancel several flights that week owing to weather problems and that we should be prepared to reschedule. We got a call at 4:45 AM from the pilot telling us the weather had changed, the reports sounded great and we should be at the meeting spot at 6 AM for our flight. When we got home to Cleveland on Memorial Day it was unpleasantly hot and humid. That night the temperatures dropped and it got nicer.

I'm thinking of renting us out to people who need good weather. Maybe we should plan our next vacation to some disaster area. Some place that has had a dibilitating drought or torential rains, because I swear that when I travel with my cutie, we get the weather we wish for.

One of our friends is getting married in a garden in July. I'm hoping our weather karma helps him have a good wedding.

This morning I was very aware of the fact that we are hurtling through space at some astronomically insane speed. We circle the sun which circles the galaxy which circles the universe. In a couple of billion years we're going to collide with the Andromeda Galaxy. Everything is just going so fast!

I'm getting married in 18 days. My sweetie hates the countdown, but I can't help it. We went to the courthouse this morning to pick up our marriage license. Then I had to get to the airport to fly to California for work. Realistically speaking, everything is going fine with the planning, but I can't stop obsessing about the details. Plus I recently got a promotion (hence the trip to CA) and I have all that crap to deal with. I feel overwhelmed with obligations. I'm exhausted all the time and I can't sleep. I stare at the ceiling having imaginary conversations with people or going over the list of things I have to do.

I just can't quiet the voices in my head.

It doesn't help that when your awake at 3 AM mulling over the fate of the universe, the thoughts are always bleak. Its extra bad tonight because my sweetie's home in Cleveland. He has the most wonderful, soothing voice, but there's a three hour time difference so I can't call him. I know that obsessing about this stuff isn't accomplishing anything other then fueling my feelings of being overwrought.

I wish I had learned how to meditate.