Down at the botten

just as a flower.
grow up to something beautifull or ugly.
u never know what.
maybe u get to be a flower that everyone hate, or u can be a flower that is loved over the world.
maybe u are a flower full of poison.

i am a flower with poison, maybe with good poison. who knows?

my skin falls of my body
the red meat shows what people really are
the blood go slowly down and stays in the floor around me
my head explods
brain on the walls
just a skelet left, all alone.
sitting in my chair and twisting
a demon is in my brain and destroy me from the inside.
wants to get it out
its nailed on my eyes, thats giving me pain.
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try to understand, try to dream.
the moment fly away like a light feather in the wind.
easy without nobody notice or feel
a feathers soft touch
that feeling that tickles under the skin
the chance to something new
the black clowd over my head is pushing
its pushing down at me.
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lost in my own dark
dont notice it when its bites me in the back
callous
listen to me
its not bad
the pain
no clue how i have it
disappear from my life
dont understand
dont leave me alone
give me all you got
give me nothing
a life grows in the stomach
makes me feeling sick
hurt us
destroy all exist
why
breath deep
the pulse stop beating
help me
go to blazes.
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spectrum of life
is you there for me
the flaming heat crawls in the body
the trees and the wind
a little girls lively laughter cuts through me
happy strong colours fills my eyes
feels sad
bears dogs cats rabbits
all form and shape
reflections everywhere
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change
looking for things
cut of my long hair
its falls to the floor
around me lots of dark curls
monster with white teath
red clownnose
greenblue eyes looking at me
pandoras beautifull locked box
open it with courage
open it with fear.
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running through the thick forest
the limbs hit me in the face
leave wound full of blood
the pulse get high
stumble over old roots
is hunted
behind me its comes
that everyone hide from
eating me alive
scream but nobody hear me
the song has some echo through the tree trunk
cant it stop
chase a superior being
through the city full of noise
asphalt is wet and slippery
puts my arms ahead
grabs the thing in front of me
pulls it to the ground
hit and kick
bites and hates.
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the new tomorrow
the fog in the dawn
the grass bends for the windpower
the deaths strange effect on mankind
life in new eyes
tight dress on my body
possibilitys
barefoot on the concretefloor
look at you
alone and invisible
making me nice for you
dont see me
the tears comes slowly
turn around and out the door with heavy feet
my feet bleeds
steped in broken glass
hear fast step behind me
a hand on my back
there you are
not forgotten
blue eyes with some green
you is me
i am you.
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