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~Let's start at the very beginning- a very good place to start~

Hi! *waves* :D my name is Dani...on Red's blog also known as Beth/Shika...but no, I'm Dani lol

[19:39] Mark: i already made a post about you :-P
[19:39] Me: uh oh P:
[19:40] Mark: lol
[19:40] Mark: its just a welcome
[19:40] Mark: they're not rabid
[19:40] Mark: just...a little strange

:eyes: something to look forward to ahahaha
I already love you all from Red's blog, and I'm not afraid any of you will eat me :happy:

Anyway, most of what you need to know about me is in my About Me. I like to write (and talk! haha), so you'll see stuff in here a lot. I have another blog, but you can only view it if I love you enough to give you special permission :*

And I'm going to copy Red's idea of doing the code-name thing cuz she's cool like that
:D
People Decoder

Made My Day

"What's scary is that in my heart, I believe that you are going to win, no matter how fucked up and insane you are. Because at the end of the day; A-merry-cans will not let that narrow Negro with the funny name be their leader. So it looks like you are it. But the thought of four more years with a leader who thinks the way you do, is terrifying."
...exactly.

(http://field-negro.blogspot.com/2008/07/i-think-that-weve-proven-that-both.html)

Disturbia

So I guess it's about time for a new post...

So, the past few days I've been spending a lot of time with Sammy and Gustavo (formerly known as Gus haha....much like the "Pat/Patrick" incident of a few years back, we discovered after calling him that for a while that he didn't like the name haha). We went into town a few times- to get my photos developed, to go to Subway, to go grocery shopping at 10 pm, etc.

The days all seem to blur together, which is part of the reason I haven't been writing so much. I can never seem to sit down and say, Okay, so yesterday I did this, today I did this, and last Wednesday I did this.

School work has been going pretty well. We've made friends with this girl named Lissa, who lives on Brown 3rd and is in my psych class, much to our surprise haha. We haven't hung out all that much yet, but we kind of texted for like an hour and a half straight and talked last night, so that's pretty good.

Um...what else. I don't sleep anymore. Like, ever. Seriously, I've been going to bed at an average time of 4 in the morning, getting up at either 8 or 10ish. Although, the other day I took my first nap when I wasn't sick since I was like four! I got up at 8, went to my FYS (poetry), then ate, hung out, and went to sociology and psych. After psych, I went back to meet Sammy and Gustavo in Sammy's room, where they were napping. Sammy offered me some room on her bed, but I mumbled, "The floor's closer.", spread out two of their bean baggy-tuffet things, and was asleep literally within the minute. We slept until...I wanna say 6ish? At which point we simply got up and ate. I was SO CONFUSED when I woke up, but it was glorious :smile: Although we haven't all slept together since then, we are now big fans of the concept of GROUP NAPPING! and I anticipate much of it in my future.

Last night I didn't go to bed until 6 am, and I woke up at 2 when Kaya called me. I was really glad to hear from her, except that waking up brought some bad realizations upon me- namely, I'm either sick or dying of allergies. Emphasis on the dying part P:

But anyway, more interesting stuff. On Tuesday, I took Nick out for dinner, because it was the one year anniversary of the day he came out to me <3. We walked into town, and ate dinner at Romanelli's, which is where we ate the day that we came to visit Drew, and we missed the train because we were eating and then ran up to the wrong side of the tracks, so there were some memories there haha. It was really nice because it was the first time we've had a chance to talk alone since we moved in, and it was fun.

Um, what else....the other day, I decided in my brilliancy that I was going to make myself mac n' cheese, because I had discovered that the lounge in Welch/Holloway has a stove(ours does not). So I get all the stuff together for it, put it in a bag, and suddenly realize I have no butter. Milk, mix, noodles, pan, strainer, but NO EFFIN BUTTER! It was a horrible thing to realize P:

Anyway, in the meantime, I had texted Andrew, Jake, Nick, and Alvyn, to see which of my bois from Welch/Holloway wanted to come keep me company while I cooked and make me not feel awkward for using their stove haha. Nick was the only one who answered in the affirmative, and even after I told him that I couldn't find butter, he told me to come down, anyway. Amy and Brig came with me, but they left when I went back to my room to get a can opener for Nick to eat some spaghettio's, so we had a bit of a talk while he was eating those. So that was interesting.

Umm...what else. Yesterday Gustavo drove Sammy, Brigid, and I into town to go dress shopping for Sammy. He had to leave, so he just dropped us off, and now we're not going to see him until like Sunday, which is sad :frown: (he's a commuter). Anyway, we walked around town looking for a dress for her, but we didn't really find anything. After that, we went and got our nails done (only $10 for a manicure!) before coming back to the school.

We played never ever have I ever and Truth or truth for HOURS last night...it was really fun, and really enlightening. Most of us are pretty innocent, but I definitely found out some stuff I wasn't expecting about a couple people! It's all good, though. I love them for who they are, and because of their secrets, not in spite of them :wink:

I think the reason it's so hard for me to write about my days here is because we don't really DO all that much. And it's not like we're boring. For instance, one night we played True Colors for hours. Another time, Sammy, Gustavo, and I randomly went to Stop&Shop at like 10 o'clock, then came back and went outside to do a b&w photo shoot in the dark. So we do have these random, spontaneous things that we do sometimes, when we're looking for something to do.

The thing is, we're just very good at BEING with each other. We can sit around Sammy and Amy's room and chat, read, sew/crochet/knit (because Sammy and I are old ladies P:), use our computers, do our homework, and basically do NOTHING for literally hours at a time, without getting bored or feeling awkward or out of place. It's bizarre to think that two and a half weeks ago, I had no idea who any of these people were, with the possible exception of facebook. And yet, now we are capable of easily coexisting in such a laid-back manner that I find it hard to believe.

I'm Only Up When You're Not Down

Okay, sorry for the intensely long message then none for a really long time...

btw, http://worththewait808.blogspot.com/ for those of you who ask me...I'll add you to those who can see it :smile:

anyway, things have been good here. Few random stories....such as:

My sociology teacher reminds of me of Nick's mom like whoa! It's really, really odd P:

Last night we played board games (Balderdash and Scattergories!) in the lounge with a bunch of people for a while, and then everyone drifted off to bed except for Brigid and Sammy, who decided to come up to my dingle (double single! w00t!) for a while to hang out. Well, long story short, "a little while" turned into 5:30 in the morning. Honest to God, I went to sleep at 6am P:

Tolley 1st (that's the first floor of Tolley, my dorm, for those of you who don't go here....I live on Tolley 3rd) flooded today with all the rain. Now, I didn't go see it, so all I know is that my RA, Matt, had to go downstairs to tape all the doors shut? 0.0 anyways yeah so he went to do that...

and I went down to the lounge with a bunch of my people. Now, we're sitting in the lounge waiting for Jake and Andrew to show up so we can order our food, when the ceiling in the hallway between Tolley and the lounge starts dripping water. Then pouring water. Then flat-out raining in the hallway....and then, several ceiling tiles suddenly fell in. It was quite interesting....especially since this part of the dorm was completely rebuilt this summer. Very reassuring....NOT. Brigid and I came upstairs to get any serious valuables, in case our ceiling (Tolley 3rd is the top of the building) fell in too P:

I auditioned for AOTA (All Of The Above, the co-ed a capella group) today! I didn't make it, but Nick did, and so did my friend Brigid, so that's cool :smile: And I had a fun day in the UC....we basically had a craft day, and I painted a pot. And adopted a plant! yayyy haha it was exciting. We got DRENCHED when we finally left (we arrived at 1ish for auditions, and just stayed there til around 6 or 7 due to a combination of not wanting to walk in the rain and waiting for Brigid to finish her call back, but it was fun haha

Anyway, time for a quick set of introductions/tour!



Joe and Casey. Joe lives across the hall from me, and he's a really nice guy, but he is probably one of the most awkward people I've ever met. Casey is my RA, and this was taken the very first night, when I was alone in my room and the three of us ended up talking for a while.

Brigid; she's my friend from my sibling group, she lives two doors down from me, and she's one of my best friends here! She also auditioned for AOTA with me and got in :smile:

Sammy! Her roommate, Amy, was in my sibling group, which is how Sammy and all the rest of us really met and became friends and everything, but now we're randomly tight! haha all of us live in her and Amy's room in Brown (the dorm that's attached to mine by the Tolley/Brown lounge). I was actually talking to her up until just a few minutes ago haha

Amy and Kellie! As I said, Amy was in my sibling group, and she pretty much was the connecting factor between most of us. Kellie was also in our sibling group, and she was the first person to talk to me during orientation! She doesn't really hang out with us that much because she got really close to her floor (she lives in Holloway, the dorm connected to Nick's dorm), but we've got sociology together, so I still see her :smile:

Melissa. She's a commuter, and I haven't really had a lot of time to hang out with her yet, but she's so much fun when we do hang out, and I can't wait to get to know her better!

Jake the pimp! When we first met him, he was sitting with us (a bunch of girls) and no guys, which earned him the nickname Jake the pimp. I actually call him Jake or Jacob interchangeable...anyway, I actually have no idea how he fell in with us...I suspect it had something to do with Sammy lmao

GUS! OMG! hahaha Gus is pretty much amazing....as promised, this is his "Who the fuck are you ?" face lmao. He hangs out with us a bunch, but he's a commuter too, so I haven't gotten to spend as much time with him as I'd like to. I have a feeling that's going to change sometime soon, though :smile:

Andrew, the guy who lives across the hall from Jacob, so I'm guessing Jake brought him into our group haha....which would again make him Sammy's fault, I suppose lmao. He reminds me of Sean to an insane degree....yeah Andrew's pretty chill haha (AHH chill! EVERYONE says that here!!)



So that's the basic cast of characters....there are definitely some others, especially Gibby, our friend who lives across the hall from Sammy and Amy. We also hang out with a girl named Melanie sometimes, someone Jacob and Andrew know, and this kid Sean sometimes, and Jake's roommate Chris joins us not infrequently, too. Caroline, Brigid's roommate, joins us sometimes, and there's always Darcey, Lindsay, and Jam for a really out-there group (they're really hardcore into anime, larping, stuff like that, but they're awesome. And Lindsay has an AMAZING voice. Of course, I also hang out with Nick and Alvyn at times, and I love their friend Amy that I met the other day haha.

Now for a few quick places!



Our dining hall, aka the commons. It's pretty big, it's pretty nice, and this is where we eat P: My friends and I have the tendency to sit behind these huge divider things they have and eat there, while staring out the huge windows at the people traveling from Welch/Holloway, and staying there for ridiculous amounts of time, even when everyone is done eating.

Baldwin Gym....pretty self-explanatory, this is the gym. It's where we had a lot of orientation stuff, it's where the pool is and where I went for soccer stuff, and it's right across from the commons.

Welch/Holloway, for those of you wondering where Nick was living...

The UC....aka University Center; this is where I spent most of my day today. It has the bookstore, the mail room, some foosball/pool(Nick owned me today)/air hockey/ping pong tables, a bunch of couches and chairs, a big tv, and some other stuff.

The lounge! Like I said before, they re-did everything this year, and it's both huge and absolutely gorgeous compared to what this stuff looked like even last year when I came to visit. It's unbelievable how much things changed over the summer. Upperclassmen keep coming in and exclaiming over it hahaha

And finally, my room! I really, really like the way my room looks, but I'm almost never in here. I don't like to go sit in here by myself or anything, and all of us usually gather in Brown 205 (Sammy and Amy's room).... by usually I mean constantly haha. But yeah, that's my tour!!!



Just now, I was sitting at my desk with my door open, when my across-the-hall neighbor leads a guy up to her door, unlocks it, and exclaims, "SHIT! My roommate's in there with someone!"

Now, I know her roommate (she's someone who hangs out with Nick), so that statement in and of itself was pretty awkward. So I'm now sitting here like 0.0 OMFG, and she goes, "Okay, I'll just go get *mumbles something Beth can't hear*". So I'm sitting there going omg....omg....omg....do they know my door's open....omg and he turns around and sees me somewhere between deer-in-the-headlights and about to crack up and STARTS TALKING TO ME. Yeah, that's right, he strikes up a casual conversation with me about how I like Drew so far. Um. AWKWARD

so she comes back out and as she leads the guy away says, "Wow, I didn't know my dormmate was so chill. Guess she's okay."

0.0
oh
my
god

Close Encounters Of The Upperclassman Kind

Oh, and I forgot the incident at dinner today with the random girl.

Beth: *waves at girl sitting alone in lunchroom*
Girl: *pulls of headphones* What?
Beth: Nothing....I just waved
Girl: Oh....I don't remember your name.
Beth: I don't actually know if we've met before...I was just saying hi.
Girl: Oh. *puts headphones back on*

.....see, my behavior in this case would've been perfectly socially acceptable with the freshman. But evidently....she was an upperclassman P:

The Ballad of Tom

So…I’m starting a new blog, in honor of college! This will be my day-to-day blog….again, the serious ones are always in my other....I guess I should start with move-in. We had stayed overnight in a town near Madison, because we had to be here at 7:30 in the morning. So when we got here, I had to get out of the car to get my photo taken for my student ID. The girl who took my photo reminded me of Dee SO MUCH! (Nick agrees haha…) Anyway, then we went back up to my dorm, where my suspicions were confirmed- I have WAY TOO MUCH FUCKIN STUFF! It took forever to get all my stuff in the room….and everyone was giving me weird looks. I wouldn’t have brought so much if I had a roommate, so shut up people lol

Anyway, we did lunch with our parents, then went over to an opening ceremony-type thingy….some people talked, and we had the WORST fire safety video ever. Basically, your dorm room will be unlivable in two and a half minutes if you throw a match in your trash can and then run away. Smooth move, ex lax.

We got to meet our sibling groups then, and Kellie became the first person to talk to me! I actually became really close with my group- my big brother, Arnold, is awesome, though he’ll be away in some random country for the first semester, which sucks. Anyway, I also ended up hanging out with Kellie, Brigid, and Amy from my sibling group ALL the time! More on that later.

So we played some ice breakers to get to know each other (train wreck without chairs….that was interesting P:). While we were standing around waiting to go to the next event, I ended up standing around with some people, including Amy, this guy Gus who may become my new favorite gay guy (:wink:), and this girl Heidi who lives next to me.

Eventually we went back in for the “official” ceremony where we all had to sign the book or something….idk it was kind of weird and I think I missed the point lol. My parents and I went back to my room to get some stuff straightened out and figure out what stuff I was sending home with them (hahaha….Matt and Elizabeth, you guys know P:), and then we went to this like farewell thing where we got some food and my parents….well….said goodbye P:

Our first dinner was spent with our sibling groups (though Amy didn’t show up….*glare* hahaha), just chatting and everything. I’ve been talking to EVERYONE! I never really realized before how often I look down, especially when I’m walking. And when I make eye contact with someone, I always look away quickly, sometimes after smiling, because I’m afraid that they either won’t want to talk to me, or they’ll come over and talk to me and then I’ll have to make conversation. It’s literally a habit….so I’m trying really hard to break it.

Anyway, I went back to my room afterwards to try and unpack. I headed over to this thing called Hooray! around 9. It was really interesting….we did some more ice breakers, getting to know each other- but it was the last thing we did that was really intense. We all stood in a circle, and the leader would make statements. If the statement applied to you, you should step into the middle- but of course, you didn’t have to step in if you weren’t comfortable. He started out with easy ones- Step into the circle if you are a female, a male, an older brother, have a younger sister, etc. But later, they became much more serious- if you are a survivor of sexual abuse, if you have attempted suicide, if you know anyone who had tested HIV positive. And finally, if you need a hug right now. I was just really affected by it, even though I wasn’t always completely honest.

One of my RAs, Casey, who lived on Tolley 1st last year when I did my overnight with Grace, ended up stopping by to check on me around midnight (she was making her rounds), and we wound up talking for over an hour. At one point, this guy Joe from across the hall randomly stepped out into the hall.

Joe: *sounding dazed and sleepy* I’m really hungry, I think I’m just going to get some food because I can’t sleep when I’m this hungry…I just think I should go downstairs and get some food, I don’t want to wake [his roommate], etc etc
Me: Umm…okay. Are you okay? You sound tired.
Joe: I just…..do I know you? *introduced self*
Casey: So….maybe you should go get some food and remedy the situation.
Joe: Okay *wanders away*

He actually ended up coming back after getting some food, and sat in my room talking for about 45 minutes. He’s one of those kids who’s EXTREMELY awkward to talk to and gets flustered easily while trying to articulate, but he seems like a nice enough kid.

After Joe went to bed, I unpacked a little more, then turned in for the night. It felt really strange at first- I didn’t recognize where I was. But when I turned off the lights, the first thing I saw was the ceiling- which was full of glow-in-the-dark stars left over from the student who lived there last year. It was strangely comforting, and I quickly fell asleep.




Friday morning, I got up around seven to shower, despite the fact that I had gone to bed around 2:30 the night before. My first experience in a Drew shower- it was interesting. Much better than most, I’m sure, because Tolley-Brown (my dorm) has- get this- PRIVATE BATHROOMS! That’s right, our dorm got remodeled over the summer, and instead of a traditional dorm-style bathroom with a set of stalls and a set of shower stalls, we have two regular toilets and six toilet-shower combos in a small room, which is AMAZING.

Anyway, I did that, then breakfast with some random people, I can’t even remember who anymore lol. I went down to the academic fair, which was essentially a chance for all of us to get to meet the heads of various departments, with Cat. We stayed there for a while, then I ran back to the dorm to get my camera before the tour of Madison. We were with our big sibling groups for that tour, so it was really fun- I really get along with so many of these people.

We ended up hanging out for a while- I honestly can’t remember where or what we did- before going to our common reading discussions. I was actually late for mine, but nobody yelled at me, which was good P:. It was sufficiently boring, however….oh well, what else is new. I met a kid named Jake (the pimp)….haha he’s actually in the room I’m in right now P: I didn’t officially meet him until sometime later….I really don’t know when, maybe dinner of that day? Probably. Anyway, we ate dinner after that, and it feels like I’ve been here forever, so I really don’t know anymore who I ate with at any given meal. But yeah, I had dinner lol.

After dinner, we went back to the Tolley-Brown lounge (which is GORGEOUS, btw) to get to know all the RAs there. We got to ask each of them a bunch of question, and then they read slips of paper with questions such as “Who is obsessed with Starbucks?” My floor lost, seeing as Brown 3rd got FIFTEEN FRICKIN POINTS…..anywya. Then we went over to the “lack of talent show”, which was put on by the orientation committee. It was okay….some of it was really funny, some of it was okay, but none of it sucked…which is a plus.

Anyway, INTERESTING STORY TIME!!! This is the ballad of Tom.

Brigid, Sam (Amy’s roommate), Amy, Andrew, Jake, Sean, this girl Meredith, and I were all sitting in the lounge for a while just talking and hanging out. Around midnight, a guy swings in, all loose, and sits down next to Sean. For a split second, I thought they knew each other, and this kid was just one of those awkwardly creepy friends (like Matt :wink:) that you don’t really want to acknowledge in front of people. However, he quickly wrapped his arm around Sean’s head and said, “Are you Nick?”

I froze. NICK?? WTF??? I started laughing, but that stopped pretty quickly as his behavior got stranger and stranger. After a few minutes of rambling (though he was speaking fairly clearly), Sam and I began to whisper to each other, “Is he drunk?” “I’m not sure. Maybe.”

Well, “maybe” became “SMASHED” when he got up, stumbled between the chair he had been in into a spot between Andrew and Meredith on the couch, and wrapped his arms around Meredith. She fairly withered into her chair, since she was already quite a shy, quiet girl, who was barely talking to us as it was. By this point Sam and I were asking a different question- what do I do? Should I go get an RA?

Finally, I decided enough was enough, and slipped off to go upstairs and get Casey or Matt (our other RA). However, Casey and her boyfriend (a huge, football-player of a guy) happened to be coming downstairs just as I went up to get them. I quickly grabbed her- “Casey, can I talk to you for a second?” And, when we got away from his view, “That guy is trashed ."

Unfortunately, she told me that there was nothing she could do about it unless she saw him actually drinking the drink. She started to tell me what to do if we felt extremely uncomfortable or unsafe, but she was interrupted by her boyfriend, who announced, “Casey, he’s really all over that girl, and she does NOT look happy about it.”

After peeking around the corner, Casey marched over, sat on the table in front of him, and began to talk quietly, explaining that we felt uncomfortable and he was going to have to go back to his room. Suddenly, he began to ramble about how he had gone out to Summit with some friends, and he just couldn’t say no when they started drinking. Even after she had a full confession, though, there was nothing she could do about it except take her boyfriend and walk the kid (Tom, in case you haven’t figured that out) back to his room.

As soon as he left, we all turned immediately to Meredith and said, “OH MY GOD, ARE YOU OKAY?!?!” She was EXTREMELY shaken up, so Amy and Sam took her over to get a drink, and she came back and sat with us for a while. Some other stuff probably happened later that night, but all else pales in comparison to Tom. I went to bed around 3.




That morning, I got up around 7:45 and headed over to breakfast around 8:30 (it ended at 9:00). On my way out of breakfast, Nick walked by me, carrying his computer, as I was trying to figure out where in hell Sitterly House was. He kicked me and then invited me back to his dorm room to see what it looked like, since I hadn’t visited him yet (it was sadly barren). I then had to nearly run to Sitterly, which was apparently on the other side of campus, and I had no idea where it was. Fortunately, my advisor was amazing, and didn’t even appear to notice that I was a few minutes late. Then again, she was an English professor- she was a bit scattered and hectic, but seems to be really fun.

After my meeting, I hung out for a while, then went to pick up my computer at the commons. I went back to my room to start setting it up, then Brigid stopped by to walk over to lunch with me (keep in mind, I spent a lot more time at meals and in between stuff with people, but I don’t remember most of the specific anymore lmao). Anyway, we walked over to the area where we were supposed to pick up our “brown bag” lunches, and then met our first year seminar group somewhere to eat (our leader didn’t show up until it was almost over- further proof that she is a bit scatter-brained haha).

My computer hated me, apparently….because it wouldn’t let me log in for a long time. I took it over to the computer helping station, where I ran into Alvyn, who wanted to be one of them, apparently. After insulting me for “already breaking my computer” (which I DIDN’T! P:), he left pretty quickly, and I was there for almost an hour waiting for my computer to stop being such an asswipe. I missed the (semi-) mandatory survey while sitting in the basement of the archives.

Around 3, we had to go to a talk about, essentially, recycling and sustainability. Considering last year’s “AP Liberal” course, I felt I was perfectly qualified to zone out during this hour-long talk. During that time, I decided that I wanted to become a techie.

That was followed right away by a SEX TALK! Which was actually really interesting- it was done by this guy who thinks that most of the problems in sex come from the fact that people DON’T talk about it (I tend to agree with him, actually). There’s so much miscommunication, and so many false perceptions when it comes to sex, it’s absolutely ridiculous. I think everyone needs to be so much more open about stuff like this, because making it taboo to say the word “penis” just makes everything stupid. And basically, he told us how to have better sex. It was awesome lmao.

So yeah, I enjoyed that. I went back to the dorm to grab something before the barbeque and soccer game I was intending on attending, but instead I ran into Brigid, Miranda, and Lindsey, who were going into town to eat. We ended up waiting in the lounge for a really long time for Darcey, Jam, and Alex (who reminds me of Alex’s biffle Anthony like WHOA). Eventually, they showed up, and we walked to this restaurant in town called Atlanta Bread. While we were there, Darcey spent AGES explaining this random kind of LARPing to us, but it was really interesting (if not confusing). Anyway, after a while I started to not feel well, so I announced that I was going back to the school, and Brigid decided to come with me.

We walked back, and met up with Amy and Sam at the soccer game. We watched the end of it (we CRUSHED the other team 5-0, btw :D), and then headed over to the UC for a photography scavenger hunt. It was really fun….we thought we were doing awesome at first, because we were most of the way done with the list after about twenty minutes. Then I turned the page over, for some odd reason, and we realized there was an ENTIRE list of things we had to take photos of. So that was interesting lmao anyway check out the photos on facebook :D

One of the last items on the scavenger hunt was to take a picture of a rainbow ribbon at the Alliance table, which was conveniently not anywhere very visible. However, what with my typical eye for bright colors, we were running down the path when I went RAINBOW!, vaulted a stone wall, and threw myself at the Alliance table. So after we counted the points for the scavenger hunt (we got 116, coming in second place to a team that got 139ish), we headed back to the table and wound up chatting with the two co-chairs of the club who were there- Tom, a senior who reminded me insanely of Steve Marois, and Jen, a junior girl who ended up talking to us for over an hour, just chatting- talking about the club, me essentially coming out to my new friends by casually telling the story of why I don’t have a roommate, talking about partying and clubbing and where it’s really not safe for us as girls to go party. It was really fun, and it was definitely interesting to get the opinion of a nice upperclassman.

Then I went back to Amy and Sam’s room with Brigid, and we hung out there, talking and laughing, until around 2 in the morning, when an RA walked by and told us it was after quiet hours, and we were going to have to shut the door and keep a little quieter. Instead, Brigid and I headed back over to Tolley (they live in Brown), and I’m assuming she went to sleep. Personally, I sat down at my computer to check my facebook, and….well, that was that P: I ended up going back to sleep around 4….I know, I know, it was bad P:




So I woke up at 8:15 and took a shower before skipping breakfast. That morning, Brigid showed up at my room around 8:55 (she lives two doors down from me, and I’m on her way to the stairs haha) and went down to the gym with me for our “Breaking The Cycle” session. It was a very interesting conference-type thing on diversity, and I really enjoyed it, even though I really don’t think it really changed my outlook very much- I tend to think I’m pretty all set in terms of accepting diversity. But one part was really powerful for me- the five people each sat down and told their stories, and when the first guy was telling his story, he got to a party where he said, “And they called me names like…” At that point, the other four people jumped in with a series of hurtful names geared towards people who were overweight, which is what his topic was. He then said, “To this day, whenever I hear one of those words, I feel the urge to run.” And without warning, tears came to my eyes.

I’m not sure why that hit me so hard, but I came close to crying. I guess it’s because I know so much how he feels- I still can’t hear the innocent words “Megawheels” or even “BMW” without flinching and feeling the urge to flee. So when he said that, it just hit home.

When Breaking the Cycle was over, Brigid, Sam, and I headed over to Brother’s College for something called Breaking Out, where we all had small, random group discussions about what we had recently gone over. That was actually really interesting and enjoyable, but it was way too short- before I knew it, I was headed off to lunch.

I ate lunch with Tom (the gay one, not the drunk one P:….I feel so bad for him having that stigma now lmao), one of his friends, Brigid, Sam, Cathleen, and Melissa. We ate, then Sam, Melissa, and I went back to Sam’s room and sat there talking for a while. Melissa eventually went to visit some people, and Sam and I ended up having an in-depth conversation about friends, family, being bi, etc, etc, etc. I love bonding!

So yeah, then we headed out to Paving Your Way, which was essentially our talk about not drinking. Except, it wasn’t a “don’t drink” talk. In fact, nobody has told us not to drink. Instead, they all tell us that we need to drink responsibly, and give us tips on how to do it without getting completely smashed and dying of alcohol poisoning. It was interesting. But yeah, so that was like an hour and a half long.

Afterwards, we went back to Sam and Amy’s room to get Amy and Gus and go into town so I could go to the Verizon store and *hopefully* get my phone fixed (The screen is broken….so don’t text me, please call and leave a voicemail if I don’t answer P:)! But we ended up hanging out at their room for a while, waiting for Gus to come back, and after a while we completely forgot that we were waiting for him, so we just left. When we were most of the way out the gate, we realized that we left Gus behind, and had to call him and play musical phone trying to get him to wherever we were. When he finally caught up with us, we walked into town, only to discover that *surprise, surprise* everything was closed, because IT IS SUNDAY! So we turned around and walked back (with Gus complaining the whole time….Gloomy Gus lmao) pretty much immediately haha.

Gus is a commuter, so he didn’t have a meal plan except for lunch, and we couldn’t get him up into the cafeteria. He was going to sit down and wait for us, but apparently he got bored (again, not surprising) and decided he was going to leave us. So we ate….afterwards, I decided to head over to Welch to say hi to Nick, but it was not the best time, so I ended up coming back to the cafeteria to sit with them for a while. When we were finally finished at the cafeteria, we walked down to see if the bookstore was open, but it wasn’t, so we went back to Sam and Amy’s room, and I’ve pretty much been here since then.

Amy, Brigid, Sam, and I have been here the whole time. Caroline, Brigid’s roommate, was here for a while, left, and then came back, and Andrew, Jake, and Jake’s roommate Chris showed up around ten, and have been hanging out since then. We’ve had some interesting moments here- for instance, there was a mysterious banging on the wall next to Amy’s bed, while a guy and girl were confirmed in the room next door, alone. So God only knows what that was….okay, well, I guess we all know, actually P:

Anyway, we’re having a really good time- at least, I know I am. Nearly all of us girls have been sitting here talking and on our computers for quite a while, and it feels like we’ve known each other for a million years- at least, absolutely more than four days. I was so scared that I was going to find friends here, but not anything that was going to be a real connection, and I’ve already started finding that niche. I’m so happy.

beautiful oblivion

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1) My camera goes with me everywhere I go. And by that, I mean EVERYWHERE- like, the grocery store. Wright's Dairy Farm. Up trees and in bushes P:
2) I have recently developed an odd habbit of naming my electronic devices. My iPod is named Brandi. My camera is named Freckles, and she is a girl (although for a while, it was up in the air whether she was a girl or a gay guy :D)
3) I have a thing with numbers and dates- they get stuck in my head, like music. I remember a phone number someone told me to remember in the middle-ish ending of June. And I've never once had to even call it. It just stays there. My best friend thinks it's fascinating and will give me lists of numbers and quiz me on them later :lol:
4) I always have a song stuck in my head. I know most people say that and they are just exagerating, but I am serious. I cannot honestly remember the last time I was awake and did not have a song stuck in my head....
5) I know every word to the song American Pie. and the song The Devil Went Down to Georgia. and can sing it at full speed :yes:
6) Whenever I see a set of numbers, like on a license plate or something, I automatically start playing games with them- trying to see how I can get them to add up to each other or ten by addition or subtraction or multiplication. I have recently learned that exclaiming, "Hey! 4187...four is half of eight! and 1+7 is 8 too!" gets me really weird looks from my friends and I should probably abstain from doing it :left: :right:

Do you honestly expect me to believe

Hmmm
my life lately has been....interesting

Last Friday, I had a panic attack. Which was especially fun, seeing as I've never had one before, and I really had no idea what was going on. Thank God for Zak, is all I can say, really...

Saturday and Sunday were Cabaret, as Shigen mentioned. Yes, I sang Be Prepared from the Lion King. I was reallyyyy scared the first night but not so much the second. My favorite part of Cabaret was probably the waltz (the theme was Disney, so all the senior girls were Disney princesses, and we danced with senior guys, and then whoever was left over. I danced with my friend Evan, a junior. The first night was a disaster, but the second was great). Now, the thing about Cabaret is that it is the seniors' last chance to sing with the choir- their last real show at school- so it's always really sad and everything. And at one point, they have the seniors come up and get pinned by their parents or whoever. So Saturday night was sad, and my parents came up, and whatever. But Sunday, that was the really really bad one. My mom came up, but so did Jules and Roxy. Jules put the pin on me, and she started crying when she did. I was about to start, too. I'm just going to miss everyone sooo much....

I can't really remember much about this week. A lot of it has been a blur. I know I went to the doctor's yesterday- that was fun. They gave me a shot. And told me I had to make an appointment to get checked for asthma :ko: So that should be fun.

Today I took an AP English exam

all
frickin
day

And tomorrow is my play, which I am realllllllly nervous about! Ahhhh I hope it all pulls together...my teacher hates me :frown:

I'll be the embrace that keeps you warm

I haven't written in a long time

sorry

Mostly life has just been the usual collection of calamities. I had a day when the universe hated me, followed by a day when everything just worked out perfectly. For the most part, I've been low. Over vacation, I got really really happy for a couple days. All that sunshine and such. And a new crush. And the possibility of them returning it, however vaguely impossible.

I'm kind of crashing again though. I am physically incapable of being happy when I'm around others who aren't, or even if I just know they're not, and lately everyone has been miserable. The ones with annoying little problems want me to comfort them, and the ones I really worry about are openly, noticeably miserable, then refuse to say anything. People are just pissing me off. Even the ones who are not in bad moods are just so STUPID and annoying. I can't deal with anybody

What would I give

Okay...so I just edited my play post, so check it out if you get a chance/are interested haha. Jules, I still want you for Dani's part! Yeah, I know it's my name, but still. I'm Emlynn. How confusing is that lmfao

Anyway, today was...fairly uneventful. Although, it felt REALLY long.
Chorus: We sang Disney songs. Zak hit me when Muzak Teacher asked what seniors want to perform solos at Cabaret. I do want to, I just have to find one first. Then I'll ask. Maybe I'll talk to him first if he says time's up, I guess.
French: Performed our play! It was a lot of fun, and we didn't suck too badly. I memorized most of my lines :smile:
History: Lawson mysteriously vanished between French and History, which was odd. I meant to check and see if he was in afternoon TC, but I forgot. My bad :left: Anyway, history was pretty boring today. We took notes, and then had free time (during which I wrote my English essay haha)
English: Xavier and I finished our presentation....I found it boring, and it was MY presentation! That's always a bad sign :rolleyes: Others told us they enjoyed it, though. I guess there's something wrong with them P:
Lunch: I ate with Xavier and a bunch of other people from our gym class. Jules joined us for a while, too. She had her hair all done up in pigtail braids because her French play was after lunch, and she was playing a four/five-year-old. Since I had free that period, I decided that going to watch her play was obviously a much better use of my time than taking one of the four quizzes I need to make up, typing my English essay, or finishing my religion take-home test that was due yesterday. So I did that instead :smile:
Envi Sci: Sat and wrote for a bit outside the room and in class at the beginning, while we were waiting for class to start. Zak asked what I was writing, so I put it away. I'll talk to him about it, eventually. He certainly doesn't need to find anything out that way, though. We watched the two last kids give their project, and moved on to some note-taking...which was okay. Nothing exciting. Zak was given a gift by Chelly, which made me laugh. And Domo and I both have things to give him lmao.

Anyways....that's about it for now. I'm still at school, and should probably do some of that aforementioned work. Slash get started on tonight's ten pounds of hw P:
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