Purple Realm

I have been quiet. I can't think of words. So here's food I've been making.
Bread and butter pudding, made with Hot Cross Buns instead of bread. Easter treat. Was meh, but looks purdy.

Made date night meal for Mik and I.
Is wholewheat spaghetti, bolognese sauce, mushrooms. On top is pan-seared chicken boob wrapped in bacon. Sprinkled with cheese. Over stirred spaghetti, looks like tinned shizz.
Was nice though, but spaghetti gets cold quick.

Made cookies today. I SUCK at them, they turn out like cake whether I wanna make chewy ones or hard biscuitty things. So I try a peanut cookie recipe, adapt it to what I think it should be. No more following the book.
Is my own cookie peanut-cashew cookie.
Tried also, oatmeal raisin, straight from another recipe.
Is not quite what I want, so next time I will adapt it to what I think, no more obeying. Oatmeal raisin is my favourite, and I like it a CERTAIN way. I'LL do it, FFS.

I chopped an onion for something the other day. It was a freak, look.
Onion inside an onion

Finally, one of our favourite meals. Egg fried rice with bacon, and sticky char siu pork. All homemade


OMNOMNOMITTY.

We happened across a Polish Supermarket the other day. So, liking things that have names I cannot pronounce, we went in at my behest. We looked at a lot of stuff and picked up a couple of things, but what really attracted me that day was the cake display. So we got a slice each of three different ones to try out. We cut each into quarters and had a quarter of a slice of each.

The one at the top is sernik, which is basically Polish cheesecake. I think it's the original; the American ones we all eat over here are really different.
We did not like the cheesecake We're accustomed to the biscuity, crumbly base and creamy thickness of the U.S type, whereas sernik has a cakey base and a heavy, almost chalky, drier cheesecake part.

The one on the left is, I think, a form of szarlotka, which is apple tart or cake. This was quite nice, more apple than anything, with a crumble type topping, although I wasn't much for the cakey base. My second serving a couple of days later was had sans the base and with added custard and cinnamon.

The one on the bottom would be wuzetka. It was a bit similar to black forest gateau; chocolate sponge layers with light cream between and cherries, and the added sweetness of a thin layer of chocolate fondant on the top. I liked it more than black forest gateau because it had significantly less cream. Could have used more cherries though.

The other bakery thing I bought is my new favourite food thing, and that would be a beast of a drozdzowka.

It's not even considered all that big for a drozdzowka, from what I gather

Anyway, these beauties seem to come in many flavours all over the world, but I opted for this one.
The drozdzowki seem to be basically, a sweet bread bun or roll.

This one was huge, like you saw before. I eat half at a time. The small dots you see are poppy seeds and they are throughout the entire thing. Then you have the fruit middle (and I am unsure as to what exact fruit this is made of, but it is some sort of jam, perhaps plum) and a streusel (or crumble) topping, and a drizzle of icing.
It sounds too sweet but I like it.
A lot.
And they only cost 65p! the nutritional content is better than expected, also. But fuck that anyway

I will go back there and try some other things sometime. It is a very good value for money place, and even if we don't like some of the food it is a cost-effective, fun activity of trying new things.

(Edited for spelling, duh. Sorry. It's "drozdzowki")

Hospital yesterday. Wisdom tooth removal, was horizontal and impacted. Surgeon said afterwards he liked the challenge but no complications. Can open mouth half an inch. Liquid diet for now, pain worse today as is swelling. Ain't I beautiful?

Smudge near eye on same side turns out to be bruise. Oops. Tried to get it off.
Entertained self with putting Mum's gift together. She's 82 next week.
Turned out pretty well, got some of her favourite things plus some other stuff.


Mmm, hurty. Badness and meanie nurses only let me have 3 lots of painkillers per day, then just paracetamol which is like putting a band aid on a broken toe.
Byesies for now. ...Sies.

I'm currently:
..Achy from exercising. I won't be able to do my usual routines for a week or two after surgery on Friday, so I'm using this week to get loads in.
..Tired from oversleeping. Depression's hit me like a punch to the head and I often find myself either heading for the scissors or the bed, so I opt for the bed.
..Angry at someone for purposely bullying me because they can. Don't you hate passive-aggressivists? I suppose we're all guilty of it from time to time, but this one particular person just keeps on winding me up and making me feel bad about myself. Most of all, making me feel weak. And I HATE feeling weak, as I feel that way so often without outside influence anyway. Of course, I never stick up for myself.
..Very unsure. But that's pretty much the usual with me.

So, come Papa's birthday, it's off to hospital I go. Mik phoned up to confirm my surgery date and spoke to a helpful nurse who assured him it would be most likely that he'll be able to accompany and wait with me in our own little area that they have a few of for patients who have carers. Hopefully that will be the case. Hearing it's 99% probable has eased quite a bit of my anxiety.
The day before, I'm eating extra I'ma eat really well, exercise really well and take a bedtime sedative with either hot cocoa or warm milk and honey, cause I'm up at 5:30am on surgery day

When I was amid my last breakdown and found that lump in my breast, I had been entirely housebound for a year or so, and I was so very brave to go to two biopsies. As my reward I got to have a good lunch and also a little cat toy that made me smile. This time, there'll be nutritional milkshakes for a couple of days and my reward may just be a pair of these:

Which I found on a MEGA sale recently and would be very fortunate to get before they disappear. It's not often I love a product so much I can't stop returning to its' webpage, so perhaps, along with having been brave, that'll override the guilt of buying them? No, I will still feel bad, I always do but we'll see.

I'm a bit... Odd with people at the minute. I've kinda lost what little touch I had for interaction. My conversation with Papa this evening was more awkward than usual. It's taking me a lot longer to find words to convey what I actually mean and I'm finding it very difficult to sort of... well, talk. Blogs are handy, because you can kinda talk to everyone at once without needing to be appropriate. You know? It's almost like talking to myself, but with the added thing that other people will tell you if you're talking nonsense and perhaps even give some helpful input or even just make you laugh for a moment.

Well, I'm going now, I've gone and given myself a slight panic attack over something inconsequential and I can't concentrate anymore. SOrry if I'm being terse or anything lately btw.