Purple Realm

Got a text from her about half an hour ago, letting me know she's home.
I hadn't spoken to her verbally since the day she was admitted. Fortunately Mik had enough credit for me to call, and would you know it, she sounds just like herself again. Only a bit tired.
She's so happy to be back at her flat again, and we're all overjoyed that the problem is being sorted with a simple medication.
We chatted for a little while, she told me how Whisk had forgotten her for a little while, but as we were talking he was pushing his head up against her hands . She missed her cats very much.
Then Mik's credit ran out and I had enough to quickly call from my phone, and we said a few more words, and rang off so that my credit wouldn't run out and so she could get to her comfortable home she missed so much.
She thanks you all again for being so kind and sending your love.

My mum is okay.

Well, the response to this competition was higher than any so far.
To all who entered - Darko, Rosie, Clint, Lydell, Tim, Kitty, Moe, Carol, Mart and David, (Hope I've not forgotten anyone) thank you all for taking the time to create something funny. I hope everyone has enjoyed it. I know I did!

It was hard to pick a winner from 18 images.
So I got each image as a saved page in Opera Mini, and decided on my favourite few. That wasn't too hard, it was choosing from the final cut that was difficult.
It took a lot of time, and finally I got down to two.

Thing is, I really just can't choose between them...
So, there are two winners this time!
One's a motivational, one's a LOLcat, and they're both fantastic.
The winning pictures are as follows: David's entry:
and this one of Kitty's:

Congratulations, both of you. Thank you for making me smile. I'm gonna need your details and I'll get your little prizes off to you sometime this year . (Sorry, we've got a bit of a backlog here.)

Again, thank you everyone for entering!

Can't stand not knowing if she's really where they say she is.
Is she just in the ground, or is she safe, warm and His?
Is it your fault, their fault, or something unexplained?
Is well-placed self-guilt the cause of all your pain?

As you wake
From your bed
Tangled up
In your head
Just memories
Of the dead
Let her go..

But it's all
You can do
Guilt spreads fire
Within you
Though you know
It's not true
Let her go...

Life is mourning
Only woe
Once so strong
You don't know
How to just
Let her go
Let her go...

"Such a loss"
"Such a shame"
Where can we
Place the blame?
As you weep
With the rain
Swaddled up
In your pain
Nothing left
Here to gain
Let her go..

Can't feel
Your heart beat
You feel so
Incomplete
The child's gone
Ever sleep
"Such a nice girl"
"So sweet"
"May her soul rest
In peace!"

Some things we'll
Never know
You've got to
Let it go

Let her go...

Copyrighted Kimmie 2009.

Ok, so I've taken a bit of a break, and weighed things in my head.

How long have I been here? It's almost two years, right?

A lot has happened. Friends have been made, some lost, some just... Away. Enemies have also been made and I'm not gonna lie - being here has not been completely beneficial.

I'm sure that, by now, some people are snorting with derision - so do it. Your problem.

The fact of the matter is this - because of my nature I've had to take time to seriously weigh things up. I do this a lot, but recently it's been about my life here.

A lot of the time, this place makes me feel sick. It's the little things that drive straight to the buttons within - and the most important thing is my home life. It's affected ever so easily, because of my nature. Things play on me and they don't leave. I have to do what's best.

To be very honest, I find it difficult to be here frequently. It may sound pathetic, but if you don't know why, then go on with your assumptions. I'm sick of explaining things that are so very embarrassing and shameful to me.

But, I digress...

This is how it is: we've all lost people we love in the past 2 years. Some of them only in our offline world, and many here on Opera.

I have seen (and witnessed first-hand) the hurt that this causes, and, not to sound egotistical, I know one or two people are rather invested in me emotionally. Heaven knows why. And I in them.

Put simply - I can't hurt anyone, and I can't lose anyone else. What I will do is just appear sporadically. Things get to me, so fucking what. Cash in while you're ahead if you can't deal with it. I wouldn't blame you - I know how difficult it is to care about someone so... So... Well, so difficult and emotional.

There isn't a day that passes without my hatred and guilt, that sick feeling in my stomach, knowing I've upset someone by being what I so desperately wish not to. And I'm not making excuses, this is the way it is. Perhaps penance for what I was. Why should other people have to pay too?

I'm sick of what I've become, that's no secret.

This thing has become my fucking personality, and yeah, I'm very annoying and confused. But that's the me you know, right?

Eh. Well, I'm surely going to regret this post later on.

No change there then.

I'd give out hugs if anyone could fit between all the emotional baggage .

Did this post even make any sense?
Do I care?

...only time will tell.

Kimmie.