Purple Realm

I've decided that Facebook will be a friends and aquaintances thing for me. I don't put anything too personal there, so if people wanna "know" me that badly, they may do so there .

On that note, I'll be trimming my friend list here again. Nothing personal - I like to have regular contact with my friends here, and trust. If I don't talk to someone, the friendship and trust fade.

I'm pretty much done with the recent type of friends only stuff for a while.

Grum's recovered well from what I hear, she's eating normally and venturing out again.

I'm easily... Irritated at the moment, so if I'm not around much, that's why. I'm busy elsewhere in life also.

I've come to notice something here that's been going on for a while. Whether they know it or not, someone's being unduly nasty and rude to someone else here. I'm running out of patience and understanding.

A few of my friends are absent a lot lately. Mart, Fan and Moe, I miss you.

We're still a bit flued up, but it's getting better.

I won't be running another competition for a little while. Funds are directed elsewhere for now.

I'm still keeping up with the monthly posts, so don't worry about that.

I know a lot of us are busy lately - just know that when you're not around, chances are, you're missed.

The stuff I'm working on is coming more naturally to me now.

We had another grocery delivery today, and I ordered a single sheet instead of a double so we've got a new duvet cover, four new pillowcases, and an old sheet .

We've had a major leak from the flat upstairs, it seems to be fixed for now though! That leak's what wrecked our last clean bedsheet .

I like banana yoghurt

Right, just a little post to letcha know I'll be posting less often from now on. Dunno how long it'll take but my posts will be fewer and far between as time goes on, until I've eradicated this blog completely.

I've finally found a blogging site that I like, so I'll be slowly going through the transition from here to there. Yay!

Opera has been a good "starter" place for me - but now it's time to move on to something better. I don't like the update to the way my.opera works, for one thing, and this new site offers everything that this place lacks, and more.

I've met some really interesting people here, and will stay in touch with the people I love via email and stuff... And perhaps I'll still use this account for commenting on their blogs, who knows.

Anyway, it'll be a few months before the transition is complete, so... Don't rejoice yet!

Kimmie

I'm aware that my posting has been rather lazy since I came back, and this is for three reasons:
My network is being a total arse
I don't know where to go from here
I can't think whether to post stuff I've put on the web somewhere else before

Once I get my computer online next year, things will probably settle and I'll post daily. You'll see more pictures as the transferral ritual from camera to pc to phone to web is too fucking annoying for me, so once the phone is taken out of the equation it'll be easy, and quick too. You'll probably see more poetry, too, and the weekly posts will probably actually be weekly .

I'm getting really sick of phone blogging. It's especially hard when the network is being a bitch and my typing appears on my screen three seconds late because my phone's too slow to keep up with my thumb.

For now, I may just post stuff you may have seen elsewhere. I dunno. What I do know is that I've gotta get going to the supermarket soon, so... Bye.

Kimmie

As most of you know, since May this year my life has been engulfed with change. Some of it wonderful, some of it just devastating, some a little of both. Some shared, some kept away. And all very unexpected.

Anyway, it's late, and I'm pondering upon everything and nothing, as is sometimes customary for me.

Sometimes I'm threatened and sent off by change, sometimes I welcome it with open arms, but like it or not, change is inevitable, and ultimately... Good. Whether or not the situation is a positive one when it is first at hand is irrelevant - we always draw something helpful from any change, eventually.

Then I started thinking about my family. We're a rather lucky sort - we've not had a great deal of fatal illness at all (and trust me, we've traced back our genealogy hundreds and hundreds of years, one family member's occupation was marked as, "imbecile" though) so far as we know none of us has been murdered or anything, we've never really had that sort of stuff. Just minor illness and a couple of freak accidents. (Perhaps I'll enlighten you all one day.) This led me to thinking about recent events and then onto my view of people.

Know it or not, I despise the majority of people. I don't know why, I just do. I hate most on instinct. I'm not elitist, I'm not someone with an ego to rival the size of the world, I'm just not a people person. Yet, I have a lot of empathy for people, whether I know them or not. You see? I'm eternally ambivalent.

Anyway, I realised that I love quite a few people IRL, despite the things I hate or dislike about them. But on top of the love is something else, something special in people I can't identify, something unique to that particular person, too, that sets a few out from the rest in the small space in my heart. These people are so special not out of sentiment, but qualities within each personality that I just find so... Special, I guess.

IRL, five people have an extra-special place in my heart. I'd trust two of them with my life.

Then I thought about here, and my friends here. I love most of the people on my list. (Some are on trial-basis, I do not want friends who aren't actually friends on there.) And, yep, there are those that stand out for that unexplainable reason again. The ones that mean just that little bit more to me. There are also five here. Funny, huh?

The thing is this - I trust nobody enough to feel I can tell them nearly anything. (I'll never trust anyone ever enough for everything.)

But I have found a person here on Opera that seems to know me. To know when to shut up, when to tell me off, how to say things. This is... New for me. So I don't really talk much to them. I'm kinda scared. Every time I trust someone enough for me to tell them something in confidence, it gets broken. This is just the way of my life, and I don't wanna worsen my view of people by letting it happen again, even though I'm pretty sure this one wouldn't do that... I never trust more than 90%.

Anyway, to this person I just wanna apologise for being so on-again off-again with talking... But hey, I bet you understand, even before I finish this sentence, right? .

Just... Don't break me. I'm outta glue right now.

I want to thank people for just being who they are, too. I'm not gonna do it individually, as I've bared more than I should already, but you know who you are, you know who you aren't. And if you don't, then I can't tell you .

Now, BUGGER OFF!

Kimmie

OH! PS - I'm gonna have a few recipes up before the year is out .