Spaggyj

Cynthia

Monday, April 6, 2009 4:38:05 PM

Can't stand not knowing if she's really where they say she is.
Is she just in the ground, or is she safe, warm and His?
Is it your fault, their fault, or something unexplained?
Is well-placed self-guilt the cause of all your pain?

As you wake
From your bed
Tangled up
In your head
Just memories
Of the dead
Let her go..

But it's all
You can do
Guilt spreads fire
Within you
Though you know
It's not true
Let her go...

Life is mourning
Only woe
Once so strong
You don't know
How to just
Let her go
Let her go...

"Such a loss"
"Such a shame"
Where can we
Place the blame?
As you weep
With the rain
Swaddled up
In your pain
Nothing left
Here to gain
Let her go..

Can't feel
Your heart beat
You feel so
Incomplete
The child's gone
Ever sleep
"Such a nice girl"
"So sweet"
"May her soul rest
In peace!"

Some things we'll
Never know
You've got to
Let it go

Let her go...

Copyrighted Kimmie 2009.

Memories...Small Update

Comments

Spaggyj # Monday, April 6, 2009 4:38:44 PM

Wrote this for a family member who can't deal with what happened to D.

JenJavaen # Monday, April 6, 2009 4:53:58 PM

You are a lovely poet Kimmie. Course, I already knew that.

Such a hard thing to do, to help someone with this type of pain and loss. The words said to comfort, intoned with so much feeling, always sound so... Inadequate when you are in so much anguish. Love that you put them in quotes.

"You can't feel your heartbeat, you feel so incomplete". Lovely. Achingly lovely.

KittyliciousZaphira # Monday, April 6, 2009 4:55:42 PM

I'm not very good at poems, I usually don't understand them right. This is an exception. I like that you are able to help your family by writing their way out of their mourning. Very good indeed.

Spaggyj # Monday, April 6, 2009 5:14:03 PM

Didn't realise you'd read my other stuff, Jen. Thanks for the compliment.

Kitty, you usually understand stuff I write, don't you?

I don't think I recall you having many difficulties with much of my stuff... You're a lot better with English than you give yourself credit for.

KittyliciousZaphira # Monday, April 6, 2009 5:15:48 PM

Ah well... you know, it's so easy to feel inadequate when you aren't communicating in your "own language".
But yes, I understand what you write - it's poems that sometimes causes me problems.

Spaggyj # Monday, April 6, 2009 5:21:07 PM

I meant the poems, actually.. You usually get it right away! Or maybe I am remembering wrong

. And stop feeling inadequate. If you made an error, I would tell you or explain it to you

KittyliciousZaphira # Monday, April 6, 2009 5:23:17 PM

I recall one poem that I was unsure of, but when you asked me to explain it, I got it right.

And thanks. I really appreciate it.

Spaggyj # Monday, April 6, 2009 5:28:09 PM

There ya go then. You worry over nothing. Silly

KittyliciousZaphira # Monday, April 6, 2009 5:30:04 PM

Yeah, I know I am.

Dacotah # Monday, April 6, 2009 5:33:29 PM

Kimmie, thank you for posting this, it is a really good poem.
Welcome back, missed you.

JenJavaen # Monday, April 6, 2009 5:37:15 PM

I've read a couple. I don't have much time to go back most of the time as it's a struggle to stay current.

Btw Kimmie, I got my old position back so working full time...

Spaggyj # Monday, April 6, 2009 5:54:03 PM

Kitty -

.

Carol - thanks. And thanks!

Jen - I hear ya. I marked a shitload of stuff as read today, I had way too many. Didn't comment on many of the ones I did read, either. I know, congratulations on that - I bet it's a relief.