When You Think There is Strength
Monday, 20. August 2007, 14:50:48
I was looking through some past personal writings and came across this written almost 2 years ago. It was a particularly difficult time (not unlike now..LOL..), but God needs to get our attention toward Him and the availability of redemption - big or small - by the suffering of Jesus Christ.
God is not mean or stingy toward His children (see Luke 15:31-32 and Luke 18:1-8).
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When you think there is strength;
when you believe you can hold it together,
You get in your room where it’s all alone.
Just you and the Father.
You close the door and get on your knees.
You look back at your life and recount what seems like a never-ending stream of failures
- but there have been shining moments where the Father has come through.
You add it all up.
And begin to cry,
and cry,
and cry.
“I’m sorry, so sorry for trying to do Your will my way.
At least, what I believed to be Your will.”
And cry,
and cry,
and cry.
“I’m so sorry....(sob).”
But it needs to come out. It needs to be said.
The pain needs to be freed from the bondage of my holding it together.
Hurled at the Man who took our infirmities and carried our sorrows.
Carried our sorrows....
Carries....
And strength returns...the load is lighter.
He carries what we cannot. Willingly.
Because He can take it.
Though Mara considered herself afflicted, Naomi’s life was renewed.
God is not mean or stingy toward His children (see Luke 15:31-32 and Luke 18:1-8).
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When you think there is strength;
when you believe you can hold it together,
You get in your room where it’s all alone.
Just you and the Father.
You close the door and get on your knees.
You look back at your life and recount what seems like a never-ending stream of failures
- but there have been shining moments where the Father has come through.
You add it all up.
And begin to cry,
and cry,
and cry.
“I’m sorry, so sorry for trying to do Your will my way.
At least, what I believed to be Your will.”
And cry,
and cry,
and cry.
“I’m so sorry....(sob).”
But it needs to come out. It needs to be said.
The pain needs to be freed from the bondage of my holding it together.
Hurled at the Man who took our infirmities and carried our sorrows.
Carried our sorrows....
Carries....
And strength returns...the load is lighter.
He carries what we cannot. Willingly.
Because He can take it.
Though Mara considered herself afflicted, Naomi’s life was renewed.
WIDGETIZE
Cheryl # 20. August 2007, 16:36
I wrote one a while ago...
At that time..I was going through some stuff..reminiscing about my failures...(probably not the best thing to do...)
Anyhow..I know it was Spirit Led when these words flowed from my pen..
In Spirit and Truth
In Spirit and Truth
I come to You
There's no Place I'd rather be
In Spirit and Truth
I come to You
of myself, I am empty
In that secret, sheltered Place
Under Your wings,
I find rest
Assured of Your great love
for me
Your will for my life, the very best
In Spirit and Truth
I shed my tears
Unveiled before Your throne
Fully exposed yet unashamed
You show me The Way
to replace my own
In Your embrace
I find myself
Simply to discover, I am safely home.
Cheryl Baxter
Sept. 23. 2006
Pinewood Campground
Cobden, Ontario
Reza.com # 21. August 2007, 03:48
congrats ...
Henry # 22. August 2007, 06:40
Being emotionally and spiritually crushed is painful. As people, and particularly as Christians, God has a training process for us to grow up that has to wipe out self-reliance. The end result is not resignation or fatalism, but the discovery and pursuit of God's purpose for us which is better than whatever we could plan.
It may take some of us quite some time see the purpose all come together...
Cheryl # 22. August 2007, 12:58
Thank God we are pressed but not crushed, struck down but not destroyed..persecuted yet not abandoned!
I hear you though...it is painful..and it is in the Valleys where we grow..unfortunately it seems.
Anyhow one thing I am learning is...God does not raise up wimps! We are in a battle..and He needs us strong. ..of course, we are in His strength.
You are so talented to be able to put your thoughts into words so eloquently... Take care..
Lovinmalamutes # 10. February 2009, 05:30
JESUS SAVES, even those of us who think we aren't savable!!!
I felt your words!!!
SummerAngel # 10. February 2009, 15:31
Ecclesiastes 3:1 (KJV)
To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven
Henry # 11. February 2009, 02:44
No I don't mind you followed the link (that's how I've found a number of good Opera friends). Once a post or comment is done, it (generally) becomes public information for all to know. The writings are testimonies of a faithful Father, who we can know intimately by His Son.
I'm sure we'll talk more as time goes by....
Henry (a.k.a.: SpicyFlier - Lindsay (Hermitess) knows that very little on my blog is without some deeper significance - and that "I'm too interesting to be ignored"
Lovinmalamutes # 11. February 2009, 18:49
Hermitess # 12. February 2009, 12:53
Wow, and you are a poet too. Henry you are a man of many talents!
Awesome poem!
I wish I could express myself so well
I wrote several poems when I was in pain but I've never ever shared them with anyone.
Henry # 13. February 2009, 02:19
The fact that you have let us, your friends, know that you have even written your thoughts means that, eventually - to someone - these thoughts will be known. Few people I know where I live have read this blog - though I have alluded to it in conversation. Few people here know my "handle" or would know where to find these thoughts I've made public over the internet.
There is a good acquaintance here who has allowed me to be a part of their life - to share hurts, blessings, and the trials of going to school (I'm coming to the tail end of a Mechanical Engineering Technologist's diploma that I've been working on for 8 years; this other person is finishing an intensive university degree). My most recent correspondence to this person was a link to my blog post about our church's Youth Pastor getting married. On top of our writings back and forth, this person now has the opportunity to see what I've written about all kinds of things over the last two years. It took me over 5 minutes to hit the 'Send' button.
I trust this person to (potentially) read a lot more about me and my feelings than most will ever know. I have taken the risk of being accepted or rejected by a person I admire very much. I took that risk years ago with a fellow from my church with whom we are now good friends. I pray this will be the same - and I pray the same for you too at some time with your writings.
P.S.: I would never have thought this post, written over 1.5 years ago, would still impact people today. If I have any talents, they are given in Christ through the crucible of this jar of clay.