Almost Christmas, Still No Phone Call From Son, and Still VERY Much Alone
Monday, 18. December 2006, 21:40:18
Well, here we go with another Christmas without hearing from my son. It shouldn't surprise me, though, cuz I have spent the last 15 yrs alone on christmas. But, I still have a lot of problems that arise this time of year, so if I get "fussy" or "moody" u all know why.
There are a lot of things that have happened this time of year, and it all started in 1969 with the loss of my mother on January 7th. Next came my step-mother's fk up of doing what she wanted done with the child I had on December 24, 1979. I have no idea if the child was born dead or alive, or if the child was a boy or girl. I never signed a birth certificate for the child, or a death certificate for the child. I have also never seen the child. Next is the fact that both my mother & grandmothers are December 13th & 15th (respectively). My grandmother died in 2003, right after I moved into my apartment (the same MONTH I moved in).
So, with my son pulling his BS over the last 15 yrs., I have a lot of problems that I have to deal with every year at this time. I get VERY moody, and sometimes say things that are uncalled for, so if I happen to do this in forums, plz ignore me, cuz I really don't mean what I say sometimes.
This is one of the poems I wrote regarding not only my son, but a dear friend of mine as well. Its called Being Apart.
This is another poem that I wrote, also pertaining to a friend, but this friend, I met on the internet, and bcuz I moved, shortly after meeting him, I lost contact with him, and was never able to find him again. Its called A Letter To A Friend.
I hope you enjoy reading them.
There are a lot of things that have happened this time of year, and it all started in 1969 with the loss of my mother on January 7th. Next came my step-mother's fk up of doing what she wanted done with the child I had on December 24, 1979. I have no idea if the child was born dead or alive, or if the child was a boy or girl. I never signed a birth certificate for the child, or a death certificate for the child. I have also never seen the child. Next is the fact that both my mother & grandmothers are December 13th & 15th (respectively). My grandmother died in 2003, right after I moved into my apartment (the same MONTH I moved in).
So, with my son pulling his BS over the last 15 yrs., I have a lot of problems that I have to deal with every year at this time. I get VERY moody, and sometimes say things that are uncalled for, so if I happen to do this in forums, plz ignore me, cuz I really don't mean what I say sometimes.
This is one of the poems I wrote regarding not only my son, but a dear friend of mine as well. Its called Being Apart.
This is another poem that I wrote, also pertaining to a friend, but this friend, I met on the internet, and bcuz I moved, shortly after meeting him, I lost contact with him, and was never able to find him again. Its called A Letter To A Friend.
I hope you enjoy reading them.
WIDGETIZE
Wakajawaka # 10. January 2007, 12:50
Kimberly # 10. January 2007, 15:17
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ღೋCupcake Blogೋღ # 15. June 2007, 01:09
Yes, this story is sad. It seems that you are strong.
Kimberly # 15. June 2007, 02:55