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Yet another blog that I will probably write in for a few months and then abandon.

Friday Night's Comic!

Or is it Saturday very early morning's comic? :wink: Cyanide and Happiness, a daily webcomic
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Silly, Silly Opera

Or maybe silly, silly Christina. P: I wrote a big long lovely post yesterday and apparently previewed it but forgot to post it and then exited out of Opera. Whoops..............

Dave's Birthday was today! He got what he asked for: an iPod Touch, lucky kid that he is. I bought him a couple of covers so the iPod will last longer. :wink: Now, the other computer is being screwy and he can't download any songs onto it. Ooohh... talk about your disappointments. It's cool though. I'd rather have an iPhone.

I don't want to ask for anything for my birthday. Even though an iPhone or an iTouch would be awesome. I mean, I don't need anything. Except... yeah, money for college would be nice. I just don't want to have my parents buy me something wicked expensive especially when we just got the lecture about "tightening our financial belt." I feel bad. I feel a little guilty about David getting his iTouch just because it was expensive and he already got a $400 guitar for Christmas. But, that's not my worry to worry about.

So I won't.

Ooohhh how exhausted I am. Exams are next week. SO EXCITED. (That was sarcastic for those who didn't catch that) And I have ballet tomorrow morning that is going to be so much fun to get up for. :smile:

You know, the more I think about the trivial things I like to complain about, the more ridiculous I find them. I've been through worse before. Pointe at 9 in the morning seems so small and insignificant.

Though my calves are still sore from Pointe at 6.30 on Wednesday. P:

I was doing an awful lot of thinking over these past few days about last year. It's weird because it's so difficult to remember. Some things are so clear, it's insane. Like Mount Day, and Morgan and my 6-month anniversary, and the day of my voice recital, and November 7th. Weird little things like that, but most everything else? It's all a blur.

I know I've been hurt.
I've laughed.
I've cried.
I've made friends.
I've witnessed life.
And death.
I've run.
I've fallen.
I've flown.
I've sung and danced.
I've burned bridges.
I've repaired them.
I've had my heart broken.
I've broken hearts.
I've fallen in love.
I've made a complete fool of myself.
And loved every minute of it. :smile:

And I wish I could say that I've done it all: no regrets, but honestly, I'd be lying a little bit. I've wondered "What if" so many times and still do. But if I didn't, would I honestly be human? I don't think so. I like to cut myself a little slack sometimes.

But all in all, I think it was a good year. I grew. A lot. And changed. Which I consider bad. But it's ok, because now it's better. I'm only a little angry at the fact I am missing something from 2008 that is rightfully mine and have no way of getting it back. But as 2009 goes on and on, all those little doubts about 2008 will sort of just melt away and I'll be left with 2009. New Year. No doubts. And maybe come 2010, no regrets :wink:

And maybe I'll finish this blog post before I actually get too tired to be able to actually comprehend my posting. Joy of joys! :D

And since I haven't done this in forever and it seems like such an empty blog without it, I think I'll pick up the Cyanide and Happiness thing. Enjoy Friday night's comic!

Arr...:raider: ,
Me*

Reality? What is this reality you speak of??

New Post! Ooh, I do love new posts.

There's something about a blog. I don't know. It's kind of funny. People will spill their guts on a blog post but be so quiet and reserved around people in the real world. I mean, I'm not trying to be condemning to anyone who does this; I do it too. I guess, when you think about it it's just a silly thought. Widely accepted and known, but silly. Especially when someone talks about trust. Like you trust your friends enough to be able to talk to them about anything and trust that they will listen, but then go and pour your entire heart and soul into a log post that thousands of other people will see.

But of course, we can't rely on a silly blog for everything. There's always something about human... OH word. What word is that!? ER...... INTERACTION There we go. Human interaction that makes you feel better. Someone real is listening. Or... you hope they're listening. I don't know. This is just something I was thinking today.

Oh dear God. Today is CRAWLING by. It's only 4th period? *sigh*

I can't wait until rehearsal after school. I GET TO DIE. *happy dance* I'm excited. *BEAMS* :D

AH I just spent all period writing this post again. And it ends in like 5 minutes. Wow. I really need to like... focus more. Or something. This is bad...

Be back later probably with probably more interesting things to write. :wink:

Arr... :raider: ,
Me*

Sherbet???

"But seriously, 2007 kinda rocked out. ::YEAH:: I guess I'm also a little partial to 2007 just because of the mere fact that 2008 started out kinda lousy... I mean, I'm not one to get too deep into anything but let's just say, 2008 is going to bring quite the change."

And so it did.

It's unbelievable to actually look back on a year. Especially since the way I look at a calender is left to right. So to go from December 31st to Januray 1st in one full swoop of a split second between 11.59.59 and 12.00.00 is just crazy to me. Especially since it takes a full 365 days to go through one entire year. And all of the things you can fit into it. It's amazing. Time. It's CRAZY.

Anywhos, I know I'm supposed to finish my resolutions. My legit resolutions. Not my half-ass generalized these-are-the-ones-everyone-says-they-are-going-to-do-and-never-actually-"get-around-to-it" resolutions. And I found inspirations for them in all the happenings of 2008. So maybe you guys can figure out which events they go to.

SuperGrape's Continuations of 2009 Resolutions
8. Stop worrying. I know what I'm capable of and I can appreciate what I do. Worrying does not help. It also makes me break out into a nervous sweat which is not attractive even in the least bit.
9. Tell the people I love that I love them. Life is too short. Bad things can happen to really good people who don't deserve it and before you know it, the people you really care about can disappear forever. I witnessed this firsthand while not to myself. It was heart-breaking. It's been a year and I'm sure I'm not the only who still misses her.
10. Try new things. Like really try new things. Not just new foods or clothes or whatever. New experiences. Taking a walk in the woods by myself. Purposely getting lost. Taking up competitive badminton. Whatever it is, I'm going to do it.
11. Say thank you more. People don't get thanked enough. They really don't. It's sad. I'm going to be gratifying! :smile:
12. Think more. Ok, this sounds really general but it's not. I mean think about life. Appreciate things. My car that doesn't run the way I wish it would. My friends who have stood by me no matter what kind of hell I've unintentionally put them through. My dog who can be a real pain in the butt sometimes. My brother who... well... can really be a little brother :wink: Just appreciate things I didn't really take the time to appreciate enough before. Also think more in the sense that maybe if I think enough to pay more attention to surroundings, I'll stop walking into things.

So 12 is good, right? Maybe I should write them all down on my hand in Sharpie or something. Or at least keep them on my person at all times. I will forget sometimes. But no one's perfect. I know I'm certainly not P: And that's a good thing! Do you know how boring it would I be if I were perfect?

*shudder* I won't think about it.

So New Year came and went. *celebration* :hat: Dave came over and rang in 2009 with us and then we had brunch with the family today. It twas very nice.

And... OLIVER IS NEXT WEEKEND. I am so excited. AND NERVOUS. Wait. I'm not allowed to nervous. Ok , not nervous. Anxious. There's a happy medium.

Dog Problems is an awesome song.

Ok I think I'm going to end here, because it's already taken me about 3 hours to write this post and you can thank my severe Attention Deficit Disorder for that :smile:

Arr... :raider:,
Me*

My Tangerine, my Pussy cat, my Trampoline.

Wondering about the title? Search Youtube for The Format: Dog Problems. New Band. Good band. Thanks, Tim Gagnon :up:

Ahhh... So tonight ends 2008. Thank GOD. I suppose in retrospect, it wasn't THAT awful a year. I mean good things happened too. Let's see, acceptance to college, excelsior honor role, first starring role, new love interest, summer job, lots of good things. It just seemed like some of the bad things overpowered the good. SUCKS. Oh well. Tonight will be fun :hat:

Oh I feel sick. That's random

It's SNOWING OUTSIDE :D I'm so excited. Still, I love snowstorms because they look so cool outside my window but the snow's too soft to DO anything with! Like it's teasing me. "Here I am! I'm SNOW. Bask in my white and fluffiness. BUT no snowmen will stand for at least another day." Well, by then I've gone and had my fill of cold mush that makes my socks wet and my hair a mess and I don't WANT to go out and build a snowman anymore. *sigh* Trippy winter.

And OH: driving in it. Such a joy. I do know kids who love driving in the snow though. Dave Knight informed me in English class that he drifted to school that day. As in... yeah. Drifting.

I guess that since the new year is coming I should make a list of resolutions, eh? Well alright...

SUPERGRAPE'S 2009 NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS BY WHICH SHE WILL GET ALL INSPIRED AND THEN FORGET ABOUT
1. Exercise more. OK duh.
2. Eat Better. OK duh.
3. Work harder in school. OK duh.
4. Be friendlier. Ok yeah that's getting really annoying.
5. Answer every IM that I get. Unless I really am away. Then there's just nothing I can do about it.
6. Make more of an effort to DO STUFF WITH PEOPLE. Dude. We're going to COLLEGE next year.
7. Keep grades higher than a B+. That's just so I don't have to take the final exam. Nothing great or inspiring about this one.

Jeez, these all sound so repetitive and general. I need to think harder on this. Tell you what. I will think about it. All day and all night and then come back with a new post and write them all down. Just for you guys who read this. Because you're my favorite :wink:


Arr... It be a Happy New Year for all o' ye! :raider: ,
ME*

So this is Christmas. Sort of.

HA I knew I would abandon this blog after awhile. Go me! Hm... What's happened... Well Christmas came and went. I got stuff. I saw people. It was nice. :smile: I got clothes. Always good. And jewelry. No stage make-up though. That was sad :frown: I sort of needed that too. Oh well. Um. School's good. I got all A's and one B+ for the first quarter and if I can keep this up, I won't have to take a final exam! Oh the joys of being a senior :wink:

I got accepted to my now first choice college. Also accepted to my second choice but not to the program I wanted to be in. Oh well. I know why. I'm fully capable of being in that school but try-outs can be so nerve-wracking.

I won't let it get me down TOO much. :wink:

Mum still wants me to apply to more colleges though I don't really see the point. I know the college I want to go to. As long as I can pay for it, I'm good. Though I suppose it's a good idea to broaden my option pool. Just in case. Ahh well. I'll do that. Sometime.

What else.... OH! So remember Dave from a few posts ago? Well... We're together now. :smile: He's fantastic. I'm very happy. January 7th will mark two months. Excited. And I really need to keep myself from going on and on and on because I will and I'm sure that is exactly what you all want to hear :wink: But, yes. Me and him. Together. It's delightful. flirt

We saw Twilight last night! I liked it, though it was a tad disappointing. The books are so much better. I'm glad I read them before I saw the movie too because if I hadn't, I'm sure I wouldn't take the time just because of my short attention span. P: Still, I can't wait to see what they make of New Moon (Movie out November 29th, 2009). Though it will be a little disappointing to not see Edward Cullen in most of the movie. But eh. He's not THAT gorgeous. p:

I've been having strange dreams. Dreams that should have ended a long time ago. I don't really know why I'm having them but I wake up wishing they were real, though in the back of my mind, I know there's no way they can be. I wish they would stop. They are much too confusing for my taste. And I'm finished with their subject matter. Can't my mind just leave me alone? I've been doing fine. Fantastic even. It's not like I think about what these dreams are about before I fall asleep. In fact, I always think about something completely different. Is my mind playing tricks on me? I had a discussion with Dave last night about how each mind works a little differently than another and it got me to thinking about how exactly our mind functions. Is there such a thing as the back of our minds? Where thoughts float aimlessly without any real recognition just waiting for a chance to spring back to be our main focus? That would certainly explain my current predicament. I don't know. What triggers thoughts anyway? What are thoughts? Are they real? Or are they just a certain pattern of electrons and protons thrown together by experience and reaction? How does this work? They certainly seem real. Like they are physically in my head. Like Albus Dumbledore and his memories in the Pensieve. I want to know how we have thought. How we have dreams. How I am able to sit here and ponder my mind like this. This seems like such a strange and fascinating concept to me now.









I think I'll Google it.

You Spin Me Right Round....

Seriously. I've had that 80's song stuck in head for the past two days. This is bad. :left: :right:

So Walk-a-thon was yesterday. I started off with Markus, Jandrew, Clambake, Bandrew and Emlynn. We were one of the last groups to leave because we decided to wait for Suzu, Rose, Chocolate, and Shigen to get some stuff from Suzu's vehicle and they took their sweet time P:

It's funny how many groups you actually end up walking with during Walk-a-thon. I started out with them. Then the girls left to go find Teddy as he walking by himself. Then they came back. Then they left again and Emlynn followed. So I walked with just the four guys for a bit. We had fun talking about reckless driving. :wink: Then I left to go find the people who had left before and found Lani and her boy and stopped for a bit. Then I "jogged" ahead (really far ahead) and spotted Suzu, Rose, Chocolate and Shigen. I walked with them and then saw Emlynn and Teddy right in front of us so I went to go give them friendly greetings. Teddy left and then it was just me and Emlynn. Then I realized Dave was there and he sort of morphed into our little group thing. I can't really remember what happened after we reached the halfway mark and turned around. I think we all found each other again and it became Shigen, Rose, Suzu, Chocolate, Emlynn, Teddy, Dave and me. Then we sort of branched out into our own little groups. Teddy left. I felt bad because I never did make it back to my original group of the me and the four guys. Eventually, Dave and I became sort of separated from the group for awhile. Immersed in our sharing an iPod and throwing stones into the clearly unsanitary Blackstone River P: Then at the very end, Emlynn ended up back with Dave and Me again and that's how it ended.

So it turned out to be a great Walk-a-thon. The route was different this year. We didn't walk along the city streets so I wasn't able to wave sketchily at people staring at us through their car windows. However, I did manage to jump into a few random pictures taken by people I didn't know. That was entertaining. All in all, it was a stupendous day :wink:

Spirit Week has been fun. Monday was Mount spirit day so nearly all the seniors wore their t-shirts and everyone else wore red, white, and blue. Tuesday was Dress-like-your-favorite teacher day. I wanted to be Doc or Mr. Moose but there was no cross-dressing allowed and I don't have a favorite female teacher so I jut wore my uniform. But, I did donate blood. It was terrifying but I had much moral support and I did it :yes: I also stayed in the Chapel Hall for nearly three hours. But, I plan to do it again in the Spring. There is no excuse to not save a life!!!! :wink: Wednesday was supposed to be Walk-a-thon but it was an absolutely dreadful day so it was postponed til Thursday. Which meant that TC Theme day was Wednesday. Our TC was incredibly creative and did jeans and a white t-shirt. Since there is absolutely no way to spruce up a white t-shirt, so I just wrote WHITE T-SHIRT on my white t-shirt and went as that. Thursday, of course, was Walk-a-thon. And today is Dress Down for Charity. For $2 we get to not wear uniforms.

AND TONIGHT IS THE 80'S DANCE. Lani was so kind as to actually give me a pair of obnoxious bright coral shorts for me to wear tonight and then keep. I am so getting wear out of those.

What else can I possibly say..... I might join Bells if I can talk to Mr. B. Apparently they are getting rid of a person so there might be an opening :smile:

I've been really really happy these past few weeks. I can't really place a finger on one specific reason. There are a few prominent ones of course :wink: I guess it's just everything is dying down. All the stuff that's been happening has happened and it's done. I'm nearly over it all. I'm moving on to someone else entirely. And I mean that in the least sketchy way possible. P: I just don't care anymore. The quarter ends today and I have all my work done. By next weekend, I'll have most of my college stuff done just in time for me to enjoy Halloween! this weekend I've got to attend a Halloween party my cousin is hosting and I'm getting paid for being there. I'm applying to be hired at Kohls (my favorite departmentish store) and My mother just got a job there as well. Things are finally falling into place.

Yes, life is just good. I don't know what it is, but I like it :smile:

"QUCK"

Hmm... Bout time to repost.

It's been a good week. I've had fun. Mostly... P: There have been very few not-so-great moments but all in all, I can't really complain all that much :wink:

So today was pretty much awesome. We had a pep rally in the afternoon for Friday Night Lights this evening. I sat with my peoples and we had fun. Apparently, I'm a bad poster holder for I forgot to hold my sign up during Quack so we ended up broadcasting "Quck" instead. Go me. That was good.

After school was shopping with Markus. We bought nothing. It was productive. I loved the $98 costume I tried on but alas, "my daddy doesn't pay for everything" so I wasn't able to get it. We had fun anyways. :wink:

Leaving the mall, we realized that we were running late and sped back to my house. Mark was freaked. I real quickly changed and threw on some face paint and we were on our way.

We got there right after the second game had started, so a whole mess of people were already present. Nearly every one of my friends were there. I hung out with Lani, Markus, Dave, and Brandon (too tired to think of code names right now) mostly, but Emlynn, Shigen, Suzu, Teddy, Rose, and Dana were there too so I also chilled with them. *SUPERFLYINGTACKLELEAP* :wink:

Lani and I had fun taking creeper pictures and videos and dancing. Brandon chatted about Bagel (surprise surprise). Suzu ate some grass. Shigen enjoyed waving my pom pom around like a madwoman. Emlynn took a mess of pictures (WHICH ARE NOT POSTED YET ARRRGGG P:). Teddy did his absolute best to ignore me (He's actually improving. He had his finger in his ear and his hand blocking his vision line so he'd neither see nor hear me). Whatever. It's his problem now, not mine. Dana bled AIDS. Tim creeped and ran off with my pom pom. And we all just had tons of fun :smile: The boys lost by one goal but we still enjoyed ourselves. When you're surrounded by friends, there's not much that can really bother you :wink:

And now I am back home. It's very late and I'm very tired but I am very very happy :smile: I had just a blast today. Sure I was a litle bothered by some things, but that's just a very small tiny little bit of my night. The entire evening was just amazing. I'm glad I decided to go and not blow it off. It was well worth it. I am in my bliss :smile:


QUACK,
ME* :raider:

PostSecret

So we've got our own little postsecret thing going on here. Here's a blog that allows people to post their own secrets anonymously. Just like Post Secret :smile: Just log out of Myopera, go to the website, and post your secret as a comment. You will remain anonymous and it won't show up that you saw the page on the sidebar either! So go ahead. Set your secrets free.

"Free your secrets and become who you are." ~Frank Warren, creator of PostSecret. :smile:

http://my.opera.com/PostSecret2/blog/

Grrr.....

You made me smile today. Haha go figure.
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