Wake Up Lying in a Patch of Four Leaf Clover...
Thursday, 28. August 2008, 21:37:55
I can't imagine all the people that you know
And the places that you go
When the lights are turned down low
And I don't understand
All the things you've seen
But I'm slipping in between
You and your big... dreams
It's always you and my big dreams
And you tell me
That it's over
Wake up lying in a patch of four leaf clover
And your restless
And I'm naked
You've got to get out
You can't stand to see me shaking
No, could you let me go
I didn't think so
And you don't want to be here in the future
So you say
The present's just a pleasant
Interruption to the past
And you don't want to look much closer
'Cause you're afraid to find out all the hope
That you had sent into the sky by now had... crashed
And it did because of me
And then you bring me home
Afraid to find out that you're alone, no
And I'm sleeping in your living room
But we don't have much room
To live
And I had dreams that I would learn to play guitar
Maybe cross the country
Become a rockstar
And there was hope in me
That I could take you there
But dammit you're so young
But I don't think I care
And if I hurt you then I'm sorry
Please don't think that this was easy
And then you bring me home
'Cause we both know what its like to be alone, no
And I'm dreaming in your living room
But we don't have much room
To live
Konstantine came walking down the stairs
Doesn't she look good
Standing in her underwear?
And I've been thinking, and I've thinking, no
But she's been drinking
And it doesn't get me anywhere
My Konstantine came walking down the stairs
And all that I could do
Was touch her long blond hair
And I was thinking, what I was thinking ya know
We've been drinking and it doesn't get me anywhere
This is because I can spell confusion with a K
and I like it
It's to dying in another's arms
And why I had to try it
It's to jimmy eat world
And those nights in my car
But this time I'm alone, and I don't see those stars
I'm not your star?
Isn't that what you said
What you thought this song meant
You thought this song meant
And if this is what it takes
Just to lie in my mistakes
And live with what I did to you
And all the hell I put you through
I always catch the clock it's 11:11
And now you want to talk
It's not hard to dream
You'll always be my Konstantine
They'll never hurt you like I do
No, They'll never hurt you like I do
No, No, No, No, No, No, No, No, No
This is to a girl who got into my head
With all these pretty things she did
Hey Baby, You know that you keep me up in bed
It's to a girl who got into my head
With all the fucked up things I did
Hey maybe baby, you could keep me up in bed
My Konstantine
Spin around me like a dream
We played out on this movie screen
And I said,
Did you know I miss you
Did you know I miss you
Did you know I miss you
Did you know I miss you
Did you know I miss you
Did you know I miss you
Did you know I miss you
God, I miss you
And then you bring me home
And we'll go to sleep but this time not alone, no no,
And you'll kiss me in your living room, oh
And you see, no, that I've been missing in my Living room
Cause this is what I miss, what I miss
We don't have much room
I said, does anybody need that room?
Because we all need a little more room
To live
My Konstantine
I don't know why this song feels so right rght now. Some songs just do that. I suppose life is unexpected sometimes... I mean, one minute, you're the happiest you've ever been. Comfortable in this skin, I suppose. And the next, everything you've ever known is wrong. Everything just turns and you find yourself questioning little things. Things that didn't matter. And you don't fit anymore. And there's no where to turn. All walls. No doors or windows. Just wall. Just white wall. And I'm done. Finished with this. This insecurity again. I won't do it. I won't do it again. Once was enough and I'm stronger than this. But life... is stronger than me sometimes. Now more than ever I have to fight to do what I want to do. And still... I don't feel right. He's taken everything and I don't think he realizes how much that is. And I don't know why. What else don't I know? I don't know where I am anymore. I don't know who I am anymore. I thought I knew. But I don't. And soon, I'm going to wake up from this bad dream. This nightmare. And it will be August 7th at 5:00 and I just finished my senior pictures with my best friend and we had the greatest time. And the only thing I am worried about is how I was going to get my summer reading done before school starts again and how I look in my pictures.
And I'm happy.
These are my thoughts. Direct from my mind to the screen. No filter for this post. They are jumbled and they don't make sense as I write them to a song. But I guess that's how life is. Jumbled. And a lot of times, it doesn't make sense. Especially to me.
Maybe I'll be happy again. Maybe, someday.
I hope...
And the places that you go
When the lights are turned down low
And I don't understand
All the things you've seen
But I'm slipping in between
You and your big... dreams
It's always you and my big dreams
And you tell me
That it's over
Wake up lying in a patch of four leaf clover
And your restless
And I'm naked
You've got to get out
You can't stand to see me shaking
No, could you let me go
I didn't think so
And you don't want to be here in the future
So you say
The present's just a pleasant
Interruption to the past
And you don't want to look much closer
'Cause you're afraid to find out all the hope
That you had sent into the sky by now had... crashed
And it did because of me
And then you bring me home
Afraid to find out that you're alone, no
And I'm sleeping in your living room
But we don't have much room
To live
And I had dreams that I would learn to play guitar
Maybe cross the country
Become a rockstar
And there was hope in me
That I could take you there
But dammit you're so young
But I don't think I care
And if I hurt you then I'm sorry
Please don't think that this was easy
And then you bring me home
'Cause we both know what its like to be alone, no
And I'm dreaming in your living room
But we don't have much room
To live
Konstantine came walking down the stairs
Doesn't she look good
Standing in her underwear?
And I've been thinking, and I've thinking, no
But she's been drinking
And it doesn't get me anywhere
My Konstantine came walking down the stairs
And all that I could do
Was touch her long blond hair
And I was thinking, what I was thinking ya know
We've been drinking and it doesn't get me anywhere
This is because I can spell confusion with a K
and I like it
It's to dying in another's arms
And why I had to try it
It's to jimmy eat world
And those nights in my car
But this time I'm alone, and I don't see those stars
I'm not your star?
Isn't that what you said
What you thought this song meant
You thought this song meant
And if this is what it takes
Just to lie in my mistakes
And live with what I did to you
And all the hell I put you through
I always catch the clock it's 11:11
And now you want to talk
It's not hard to dream
You'll always be my Konstantine
They'll never hurt you like I do
No, They'll never hurt you like I do
No, No, No, No, No, No, No, No, No
This is to a girl who got into my head
With all these pretty things she did
Hey Baby, You know that you keep me up in bed
It's to a girl who got into my head
With all the fucked up things I did
Hey maybe baby, you could keep me up in bed
My Konstantine
Spin around me like a dream
We played out on this movie screen
And I said,
Did you know I miss you
Did you know I miss you
Did you know I miss you
Did you know I miss you
Did you know I miss you
Did you know I miss you
Did you know I miss you
God, I miss you
And then you bring me home
And we'll go to sleep but this time not alone, no no,
And you'll kiss me in your living room, oh
And you see, no, that I've been missing in my Living room
Cause this is what I miss, what I miss
We don't have much room
I said, does anybody need that room?
Because we all need a little more room
To live
My Konstantine
I don't know why this song feels so right rght now. Some songs just do that. I suppose life is unexpected sometimes... I mean, one minute, you're the happiest you've ever been. Comfortable in this skin, I suppose. And the next, everything you've ever known is wrong. Everything just turns and you find yourself questioning little things. Things that didn't matter. And you don't fit anymore. And there's no where to turn. All walls. No doors or windows. Just wall. Just white wall. And I'm done. Finished with this. This insecurity again. I won't do it. I won't do it again. Once was enough and I'm stronger than this. But life... is stronger than me sometimes. Now more than ever I have to fight to do what I want to do. And still... I don't feel right. He's taken everything and I don't think he realizes how much that is. And I don't know why. What else don't I know? I don't know where I am anymore. I don't know who I am anymore. I thought I knew. But I don't. And soon, I'm going to wake up from this bad dream. This nightmare. And it will be August 7th at 5:00 and I just finished my senior pictures with my best friend and we had the greatest time. And the only thing I am worried about is how I was going to get my summer reading done before school starts again and how I look in my pictures.
And I'm happy.
These are my thoughts. Direct from my mind to the screen. No filter for this post. They are jumbled and they don't make sense as I write them to a song. But I guess that's how life is. Jumbled. And a lot of times, it doesn't make sense. Especially to me.
Maybe I'll be happy again. Maybe, someday.
I hope...
WIDGETIZE