Beyond the Clouds

I have learned the most important, essential, crucial, and vital thing in my life. I have finally learned what there is to understand:

To understand that I know not is to be wise.

Wisdom is not something that one learns, it is something that comes when one finally gets 'it'. The drive to learn, to know, to think is undermined by this new wisdom.

This came to me yesterday when I could do nothing but hold my head. The only thing to do when the slightest movement feels like the whole world is moving round me. I tried to get up and when I did I went crashing into the wall:

'There was nothing to standunder,' was my first thought, 'no, I thought, that didn't come out right,' I was in a state of panic - it should be - 'There is something to understand. Understand, standunder, what?'

I understand that all that is important is faith. Why? That was all I had under me standing when the world sent me flying from one corner of the room to another. And what is more, it is a way to proceed. A way of seeing the world, a wisdom that comes not from understanding, or from knowing, but from an experience that leads one to do something from a place of not knowing.

That Amida - the measureless is standing under me, is all there is to understand. To feel this is to wisen up to something out of this world.