Beyond the Clouds

I'm not okay, you're not okay, that's okay.

I'm not okay ...pause ... in so many ways, I wish that I were okay, and even try to do things, simple things and then more daring things just to reassure myself that I'm actually more than fine, I'm great, I'm wonderful, but then in doing these small simple things I see just how not okay I am and in taking risks and really pushing myself to be okay I see how more than not okay I really am, and not just that, but I see that you're not okay too and your not okayness makes my okayness not okay.

Pause...

And that is okay. Actually, that is the reality and to pretend that things had to be okay for it to be okay would not be okay. That would add to my, your, our delusions.

What is okay is human afterall, and what is human is to feel. And to feel is not self and what is not self is other and what is other is okay, actually it's more than okay too, it's infinite and it's boundless - sort of like love.

So when there is love then we can relax into not being okay together.

I'm not okay, you're not okay, that's love.