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Monday and Penniless

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Spent the ENTIRE day updating my Blogger choirs page. I had received an email from the President of one of the local choral organizations requesting I change their URL in several locations. As it had been awhile since I checked links or updated groups, I spent the day going through the links, deleting inactive choirs, finding and adding some new choirs. I also added links for a significant amount of music festivals. And I added a counter. I'm always curious how many hits the page gets. http://singrochesterny.blogspot.com

DH was suspended from work last month for 3 1/2 days for a non-critical error. As paychecks are biweekly, we haven't caught up yet. Keep in mind his estranged son-in-law is his immediate supervisor, and has been trying to force him to quit because he's 65. And, adding insult to injury, the car died at the same time. He had to push it into a grocery store parking lot and there the car yet sits. We think it needs a starter. It's got to wait for the next paycheck, 3/23 - hoping they don't tow the car first. He's spoken with the store manager and so far, so good.

During this stressful "dry spell" I've gone off my diet and been eating like a stuffed pig. I put on 14 lbs. in 1 week. My blood pressure has been going up. I haven't been exercising and I'm eating late at night. I haven't been meditating. I have been pretty good today about not snacking and not eating non-stop at meals, but I do plan to go run for 30 minutes on the treadmill after dinner, and use the apartment complex sauna. Maybe I'll meditate tonight too.

Blessings to you all. Pray for Japan.


Esther Sugar-Winx ~RIP~

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Esther Sugar-Winx - RIP Sweetie

"Esther Chong Sook Lee (6th Feb 1981 - 23rd Jul 2009)
Our beloved Esther has passed away, leaving behind grandparent, parents, brother, relatives and certainly friends who will continue to remember her passion, laughter, enthusiasm and love shared with us."

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With Apologies, I Do Not Understand The Homosexual Desire To "Marry"

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I'm really rather lacking in understanding on the desire of homosexuals to "marry." Yes, I am a religious person, or perhaps spiritual is a better term, and I am Christian, Roman-Catholic, Zen Buddhist, Pagan, Wiccan..... whatever.

Marriage has a Judeo-Christian definition. It's different for Muslims. For Mormons. For Pagans. Pagans have handfasting. Some individuals merely make pledges. But I'm not interested in having a Bat Mitzvah. Or a rite of passage from some other culture. There are things that I just plain am NOT.

Our culture is one which has secularized marriage, made it the norm amongst all religions and individuals. But it is not the only way to join with another. It is, however, the only recognized way in our society to receive social and health benefits for both individuals of the culture. Perhaps if society objects so much to a formal marital right of two same-gendered individuals, they had best re-define what a couple must do for benefits. Is this trying to force an act, i.e. marriage, on individuals in our society? Why force all those wishing to legally join into a monogomous relationship, and receive society benefits for such, to engage in only one (religious) form of bonding?

Repost: Kid's Use of Inhalant Leads to Death

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This is very sad, an email I received from a friend. It's one of those internet chain letters of information. It's been checked out on Snopes.com, and I did too. The notes on Snopes.com are wroth reading as well, included below if I can get away with it.



Latest Drug in Middle School - Dusting 'Dusting'

First, I'm going to tell you a little about me and my family. My name is Jeff. I am a Police Officer for a city which is known nationwide for its crime rate. We have a lot of gangs and drugs. At one point we were # 2 in the nation in homicides per capita. I also have a police K-9 named Thor He was certified in drugs and general duty. He retired at 3 years old because he was shot in the line of duty. He lives with us now and I still train with him because he likes it. I always liked the fact that there was no way to bring drugs into my house. Thor wouldn't allow it. He would tell on you. The reason I say this is so you understand that I know about drugs.

I have taught in schools about drugs. My wife asks all our kids at least once a week if they used any drugs.

I like building computers occasionally and started building a new one in February 2005. I also was working on some of my older computers. They were full of dust so on one of my trips to the computer store I bought a 3 pack of DUST OFF. Dust Off is a can of compressed air to blow dust off a computer. A few weeks later when I went to use one of them they were all used. I talked to my kids and my two sons both said they had used them on their computer and messing around with them I yelled at them for wasting the 10 dollars I paid for them.

On February 28 I went back to the computer store. They didn't have the 3 pack which I had bought on sale so I bought a single jumbo can of Dust Off. I went home and set it down beside my computer.

On March 1st, I left for work at 10 PM. Just before midnight my wife went down and kissed Kyle goodnight. At 5:30 am the next morning Kathy went downstairs to wake Kyle up for school, before she left for work. He was propped up in bed with his legs crossed and his head leaning over. She called to him a few times to get up. He didn't move. He would sometimes tease her like this and pretend he fell back asleep. He was never easy to get up. She went in and shook his arm. He fell over. He was pale white and had the straw from the Dust Off can coming out of his mouth. He had the new can of Dust Off in his hands. Kyle was dead.

I am a police officer and I had never heard of this. My wife is a nurse and she had never heard of this. We later found out from the coroner, after the autopsy, that only the propellant from the can of Dust off was in his system. No other drugs. Kyle had died between midnight and 1 AM.

I found out that using Dust Off is being done mostly by kids' ages 9 through 15. They even have a name for it. It's called dusting. A take off from the Dust Off name. It gives them a slight high for about 10 seconds. It makes them dizzy. A boy who lives down the street from us showed Kyle how to do this about a month before. Kyle showed his best friend. Told him it was cool and it couldn't hurt you. It's just compressed air. It can't hurt you. His best friend said so.

Kyle was wrong. It's not just compressed air. It also contains a propellant called R2. It's a refrigerant like what is used in your refrigerator. It is a heavy gas. Heavier than air. When you inhale it, it fills your lungs and keeps the good air, with oxygen, out. That's why you feel dizzy, buzzed. It decreases the oxygen to your brain, to your heart. IT KILLS YOU

The horrible part about this is there is no warning. There is no level that kills you. It's not cumulative or an overdose; it can just go randomly, terribly wrong. IT'S NOT AN OVERDOSE. You don't die later. Or not feel good and say I've had too much. You usually die as you're breathing it in. If not you die within 2 seconds of finishing 'the hit' That's why the straw was still in Kyle's mouth when he died. Why his eyes were still open. The experts want to call this huffing. The kids don't believe its huffing. And that's why it's more accepted. There is no chemical reaction, no strong odor. It doesn't follow the huffing signals. Kyle complained a few days before he died of his tongue hurting. It probably did The propellant causes frostbite. If I had only known.

It's easy to say hey, it's my life and I'll do what I want But it isn't. Others are always affected. This has forever changed our family's life. I have a hole in my heart and soul that can never be fixed. The pain is so immense I can't describe it. There's nowhere to run from it. I cry all the time and I don't ever cry. I do what I'm supposed to do but I don't really care. My kids are messed up. One won't talk about it. T he other will only sleep in our room at night. And my wife, I can't even describe how bad she is taking this. I thought we were safe because of Thor. I thought we were safe because we knew about drugs and talked to our kids about them.

After Kyle died another story came out. A probation Officer went to the school system next to ours to speak with a student. While there he found a student using Dust Off in the bathroom. This student told him about another student who also had some in his locker. This is a rather affluent school system. They will tell you they don't have a drug problem there. They don't even have a dare or plus program there. So rather than tell everyone about this 'new' way of getting high they found, they hid it. The probation officer told the media after Kyle's death and they, the school, then admitted to it I know that if they would have told the media and I had heard, it wouldn't have been in my house.

We need to get this out of our homes and school computer labs. Using Dust Off isn't new and some 'professionals' do know about. It just isn't talked about much, except by the kids. They all seem to know about it. April 2nd was 1 month since Kyle died. April 5th would have been his 15th birthday. And every weekday I catch myself sitting on the living room couch at 2:30 in the afternoon and waiting to see him get off the bus.


This Officer is asking for everyone who receives this email to forward it to everyone in their address book, even Law Enforcement Officers!
Dr. Michael D. DiNicola
Coordinator for Guidance & Counseling Services
Berkeley County School District
P. O. Box 608
Moncks Corner, SC 29461
Office: 843-899-8614
Cell: 843-312-2637
Fax: 843-899-8790






http://www.snopes.com/medical/toxins/dustoff.asp

Dusted Off

Claim: Adolescents have died huffing from cans of Dust-Off brand compressed air.

Status: True.

Example: [Collected on the Internet, 2005]

Origins: While many of the Internet-circulated tales of tragedy prove either to be baseless scaremongering or vastly overblown accounts that contain only a small shred of truth, this one, Dust Off unfortunately, checks out in every respect. On 2 March 2005, 14-year-old Kyle Williams was found dead in his bedroom at his family's Cleveland-area home. At 5:45 that morning, his mother, Kathy Williams (a nurse by profession), had attempted to wake him before she left for work. She initially thought Kyle was joking when he failed to get up, but she then pulled back the covers and found her son lying motionless, a can of Dust-Off, a common computer cleaner, next to his face. She immediately called the Lake County Sheriff’s Office.

The boy's father and the author of the e-mail, Jeff Williams, is an East Cleveland police officer. He was on duty when his son's body was discovered and arrived home to find Lake County Sheriff’s Office personnel already on the scene. According to the coroner, the boy died sometime between midnight and 1 a.m. His mother had kissed him goodnight at a quarter to
midnight.

Jeff Williams does indeed have a German Shepherd named Thor who had been a police dog with the East Cleveland Police Department until he was shot in the line of duty in March 2001. Thor's injuries necessitated his retirement from the force, so he became the Williams' family pet.

Mr. Williams' letter began as a post to an online message board he visited for support in the wake of his son's death. It prompted a teacher who found it there to ask if she could read it to her class, which in turn prompted him to write for her a more detailed version that gave a better sense of who his son had been. He also posted this expanded account to a couple of message boards where he was discussing his grief. It is this version that now circulates.

This sad e-mail about a teen's demise reached us in the first week of April 2005. By mid-May 2005, versions in circulation had picked up the following attribution, causing many to conclude the death had taken place in Calgary, Alberta, rather than in Cleveland, Ohio:
Tracey Lowey, B.A., M.S.
Crime Analyst
Targeted Enforcement Unit #583
Calgary Police Service
Office: 206-8360
Dust-Off, the product that proved to be Kyle Williams' undoing, has been implicated in a number of deaths:

* The September 2001 death of 19-year-old Austin Purser in Valdez, Alaska, was attributed to Dust-Off. According to the young man's roommates, the decedent had come home about 4 a.m. and had huffed from an aerosol can of Dust-Off.

* In January 2004 in Brooklyn, New York, 18-year-old Kristian Roggio was killed when her vehicle was struck by one driven by Vincent Litto, 20, who had been huffing from a can of Dust-Off when his car went over the double yellow lines and crashed head-on into hers.

* The coroner's report on one of the fatalities in an August 2004 single-vehicle automobile accident in Sacramento, California, revealed the presence of difluoroethane (the propellant in Dust-Off) in the blood of a passenger in a Jeep which was estimated to have been traveling at 90 mph when it jumped a curb, hit a telephone pole, then crashed into a concrete wall. A can of Dust-Off was found in the wrecked vehicle. Of the three teens who died as a result of that crash (Matthew Walas, 15; Jeremiah Cremins, 16; Nicholas Goudberg, 17), only Walas' blood was tested, leaving open the question of whether the driver, Goudberg, was also under the influence. (Walas was killed instantly, whereas Goudberg lived on for a further eight days, and Cremins lasted three weeks past the accident. The coroner's office did not order toxicology tests on the blood of the two youths who lingered because these would have proved useless as the young men had received transfusions, plus they both lived long enough for any chemicals to have dissipated from their bloodstreams.)

Falcon, the maker of Dust-Off, is aware its product is abused in this fashion. It has posted information about inhalant abuse on its web site, and cans of Dust Off bear a label cautioning users against misuse of the product and carry this warning in large red block letters: "Inhalant abuse is illegal and can cause permanent injury or be fatal. Please use our product responsibly."

Yet while it might be tempting to regard this threat as one limited to Dust-Off (and therefore as a danger that can be averted by banning a specific product from the home), the truth is a great number of teens and pre-teens routinely attempt to get high by abusing inhalants and solvents found in common household products. Dust-Off is just one of a thousand or more products that can abruptly end the life of someone foolishly looking for an inhalant high. The list of items that can be turned to this purpose is almost endless and includes such innocuous-looking goods as hair spray and aerosol whipped cream. Depending on how the intoxicant is taken in, the process is referred to as 'bagging' or 'huffing' — bagging requires the substance be contained in a plastic or paper bag which the thrill-seeker then breathes from, while huffing involves either breathing directly from an aerosol or through a cloth soaked in solvent.

Both bagging and huffing can, and have, proved fatal. Sudden death can result on the first try, making one's first time seeking this particular kick also one's last. That first time's being a killer isn't an exaggeration, either: 22% of all inhalant-abuse deaths occur among users who had not previously bagged or huffed. Suffocation, dangerous behavior, and aspiration account for 45% of inhalant abuse fatalities, with "sudden sniffing death" (fatal cardiac arrhythmia) causing the remaining 55%. Suffocation usually takes its toll through the victim's slipping into unconsciousness then dying of a lack of oxygen, but it can also happen through airway obstruction brought about through swelling caused by spraying certain agents into the mouth. Dangerous behavior-related deaths are those in which inhalant abuse cause the deceased to engage in risk-laden activities that bring about his demise: he drowns, jumps or falls from a high place, dies of exposure or hypothermia, is in (or on) a vehicle that he loses control of at high speed, or accidentally sets himself on fire (most inhalants are flammable). Death through aspiration of vomited materials comes about through an unconscious victim's protective airway reflexes being depressed by the chemicals involved. "Sudden sniffing death" is a simple way of saying the hydrocarbons being inhaled provoke irregular heart rhythms in the victim, leading to sudden fatal cardiac arrest. Even young and very healthy hearts fail this way.

According to the American Academy of Pediatrics, the peak age of inhalant abusers is 14 to 15 years, with onset occurring in those as young as 6 to 8 years. Use declines typically by 17 to 19 years of age.

Inhalant abuse is rife among children and teens for a number of reasons beyond the usual factors that inspire young people to experiment with drugs, such as curiousity, thrill seeking, escapism, defiance, and peer pressure. First, the products required to produce inhalant highs are readily available in every home. Even when users have to resort to buying their own, the goods cost little and are easy to purchase, both in terms of availability (almost every store sells at least a few items that can be huffed) and lack of challenge by sales clerks (kids generally need not fear provoking adult disapproval or undue questioning through the act of buying cans of whipped cream). No drug dealers need be sought out, no furtive connections with the underworld made; purchases are easily effected at the corner store, even by the most unsavvy and knock-kneed with terror at the thought of being caught.

Second, because these products are an ordinary part of the household landscape, they take on for many a presumption of safety. Few adults are accustomed to thinking of air freshener as something that can kill, or of Magic Markers as items that can end lives; these are instead viewed as non-dangerous goods, the sort of ordinary household necessities one doesn't so much as look at twice let alone regard with mistrust. Kids can easily take that bland acceptance a step further, adding a presumption of harmlessness to that which is routinely left about for anyone to use.

Third, little other than the act of bagging or huffing itself needs to be concealed from parental eyes. Very few moms and dads will stop to question why their kid has taken to keeping spray deodorant in his backpack or wonder why the family's can of furniture polish keeps turning up in their boy's bedroom, even if these same parents were the sort to be thrown into a panic by the merest glimpse of something that might be a baggie containing dried, crushed plant material. Whereas other intoxicants can't be explained away when found by dear old Dad (a bottle of hooch won't pass for shampoo, nor a bag of pills for candy), inhalants continue to look like what they primarily are: typical household products. Other possible tip-offs to what the sensation seeker has been up to will be dismissed almost as soon as they're noted — strange chemical odors wafting about the child will be brushed off by even the most drug-alert parents as "Somebody must have Scotchguarded something around here" or "That boy has been playing in somebody's garage." Small sores and marks around the youngster's mouth and nose will be attributed to everything under the sun except inhalant abuse (e.g., allergies, colds, scratching, the family dog, or even "Clumsy must have tripped over his big feet again").

It's this triple whammy of factors (readily-obtainable inexpensive high-producing chemicals, intoxicants and tip-offs that are easily concealed from parents, and utter failure on the part of users to appreciate the very real dangers inherent to the practice) that makes inhalant abuse prevalent among drug-curious pre-teens and teens. On their side of the equation, adults rarely pick up on the abuse or its signs unless they actually catch someone red-handed, nor do they grasp how lethal this form of drug use is, concentrating instead on the threat posed by the illegal substances proffered by drug dealers.

Barbara "greater danger lurks in the home than on the playground" Mikkelson

Additional information:
Inhalants and Solvent Abuse Inhalants and Solvent Abuse
(Martin J. Smilkstein, M.D.)
Inhalants, Bagging, Huffing and Youth Inhalants, Bagging, Huffing and Youth
(Mid-Columbia Center for Living)
National Inhalant Prevention Coalition National Inhalant Prevention Coalition
Last updated: 16 July 2005

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Test: Which Serenity Character Are You?

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I took this test on an e-friend's Blog. Swell.

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Multiple Chemical Sensitivity Disorder (MCS Disorder)

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May is MCS Information Month. This brochure.....

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Past Life

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Long have I held a curiosity about a possible past life. I've long wondered if I had a past life, what that past life might be, and how it affects me in my present life. In fact, it's almost humorous that since I was a very little girl, I've wondered about my future life, wondering how this life will affect me as a past life, and whether I will be aware of my "self," aka soul. I would read writings on the web by individuals who had done past life regressions and felt they had found the truth of their past lives. I'd been envious, also wanting to find out this information for myself.

But I haven't had the money nor the real active intent to spend the time on Past Life Regression and seeking my past life information. Recently I hit some web sites of simple online quizzes, and realized that the information proferred was as bogus as it comes. There was no personal connection to the information.

Oddly, I did hit an engine which jogged a memory, not that their information was incorrect but it was not far off base. The sites ask whether you have any talents, interests, or otherwise that have no basis or foundation. I didn't initially think so but so now do believe I hit on something.

I have a spiritual bent to my personality, not anything developed over my decades but something which started at a very young age, at a church where my behavior was awful and my family didn't participate nor did they carry any spirituality whatsoever outside the church dooors. In a family critical and discriminatory against Roman Catholics I grew up wanting to be Roman Catholic, and a nun. I long have had, and still have an extremely burning desire to go on a pilgrimage. I want to be part of a secular/lay Catholic order (but found it too time consuming with a young family) and lament that I am not, particularly a lay Franciscan. I truly believe that some day I will be. I have a burning desire to memorize all 151 Psalms.

The web site in question, which I can no longer find and reproduce the information, stated that I lived in Egypt in about the 1100's as a Priest. St. Francis lived in the 1100-1200's and he travelled to Egypt to spread the good news of the Gospel, seeking martyrdom, which he did not find. Hence, for now I will claim my past life as a Priest in the 12th-13th century. Someday I'll spend the time and money to find out more.

H. Clinton- Her Demise

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Early on in the Democratic primary race between Hillary Clinton and Barak Obama, there were statements made with regards to racial accusations on both sides. These were quickly quelled, a very good thing for both sides. Race has NO PLACE in a Presidential election, and to see this would show a grossly unequal racial environment. I am pleased that racial issues were gagged as they would create an unhealthy, and potentially incur a violent environment. It was in the best interest of both candidates that racial issues and discussions be set aside.

But I am greatly displeased with Hillary Clinton's statements prior to the West Virginia Primary. She stated that Barak Obama is "Not Electable" and that any electable Presidential candidate must win with West Virginia Primary. West Virginia, a southern state, and known to be a state which is conservative. I will go so far as to say that this state is highly discriminatory toward minorities. That means that Ms. Clinton's statement regarding electability, stating that any electable candidate must win West Virginia would be the same as stating that an electable candidate must be of an ethnic purity, a mainstream caucasian Christian candidate. I object to such a statement and consider it, in light of Ms. Clinton's opponent Barak Obama, sees the comment in a racial light, especially as the Clintons are natives of Arkansas, a deep southern state.

I do hope that, as we watch and deplore the violence and ethnic cleansing in foreign countries, that we Americans do not place ourselves so low, especially our elected government officials.


Rochester NY Choir and Choral Page- A Listing of Local Choirs

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This page is a list of links to choirs in the Rochester, NY area.

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The Violent Oppression of Islamic Women- YouTube Link

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http://www.terrorismawareness.org/videos/108/the-violent-oppression-of-women-in-islam/

This is a YouTube video made by the Produced by the David Horowitz Freedom Center for Islamo-Fascism Awareness Week.

It is eye opening, very violent and bloody, and heart wrenching. Everyone should see this. This is WHY Christianity came to be-- this stated with no offense intended at my Jewish brothers and sisters, or those of other religions who do not know the origin nor intent of Christianity.

Christ died so that we would not die for our sins-- IOW, Christ dies so that we would no longer be subject to the punishment of the OT for crimes such as sexual crimes, adultery, and the violent punishments of the old ways. He was "the final blood sacrifice," intended to end blood sacrifice and killings.

See the David Horowitz Freedom Center at http://horowitzfreedomcenter.org
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