Tired
Friday, 15. February 2008, 19:04:56
I think I've managed to accomplish something ... strange.
This 'blog' or whatchamacallit was never intended to gather audience. It was never there for anyone in practicular, nor in general, to read. It just .. existed. Some things spawned from desire to relay and distribute my frustrations about certain topic, some things from the desire to share, or inform in general. Some things spawned from the lightest and the darkerst corners of my mind, just to be there, in essence - for myself, to exist - to manifest my current state of mind. I don't know.. They're just there. They have not been written with a purpose, with a target audience, with desire to share my mind with anyone. Not really. They just exist. They're me.
Despite that, I have indeed noticed that this is a visited place. That some people tend to .. well - visit. Check things out. Even though I appear as annoying, offensive fucker in my blog. Because that's what I am. Heh. It's not like I care about readers or I've a desire to see that people would agree or disagree with my shit. Why would they care? I don't value myself that high. I don't think people should have place on this page. But some do. Maybe it's interesting for them. Maybe they're curious. I mean - "the best web page in the universe" actually has some traffic, pretty amazing at that, as well - right? It happens. Google makes it possible too.
But still. Why doesn't anyone, ever, say anything? It's just that - I'm curious. Am I offensive enough to actually chase people away from that page? No, I don't think I'm that good. I can't possibly manage that - it'd be veeeery sweet, but no. It's not that. Am I so boring that noone reads this? Not really - because some people, as I said, do that on regular basis. Can they agree with me so much, that they've nothing left to say? God no - that should not be possible, in any world, in any case. It's just ridiculous to imagine.
Still... Why doesn't anyone show themselves. I can't possibly be so stunning in my expressions to you people, can I?
This 'blog' or whatchamacallit was never intended to gather audience. It was never there for anyone in practicular, nor in general, to read. It just .. existed. Some things spawned from desire to relay and distribute my frustrations about certain topic, some things from the desire to share, or inform in general. Some things spawned from the lightest and the darkerst corners of my mind, just to be there, in essence - for myself, to exist - to manifest my current state of mind. I don't know.. They're just there. They have not been written with a purpose, with a target audience, with desire to share my mind with anyone. Not really. They just exist. They're me.
Despite that, I have indeed noticed that this is a visited place. That some people tend to .. well - visit. Check things out. Even though I appear as annoying, offensive fucker in my blog. Because that's what I am. Heh. It's not like I care about readers or I've a desire to see that people would agree or disagree with my shit. Why would they care? I don't value myself that high. I don't think people should have place on this page. But some do. Maybe it's interesting for them. Maybe they're curious. I mean - "the best web page in the universe" actually has some traffic, pretty amazing at that, as well - right? It happens. Google makes it possible too.
But still. Why doesn't anyone, ever, say anything? It's just that - I'm curious. Am I offensive enough to actually chase people away from that page? No, I don't think I'm that good. I can't possibly manage that - it'd be veeeery sweet, but no. It's not that. Am I so boring that noone reads this? Not really - because some people, as I said, do that on regular basis. Can they agree with me so much, that they've nothing left to say? God no - that should not be possible, in any world, in any case. It's just ridiculous to imagine.
Still... Why doesn't anyone show themselves. I can't possibly be so stunning in my expressions to you people, can I?
