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Monday, December 8, 2008 5:37:46 AM
And so I have decided to keep this blog. It's much easier to use than the other site, and I feel more at home here, I guess.
I have finals this week at school. I'm kind of stressing out about them. But then I'm off for a month, and going on a trip to Chicago. Its a much needed break. Tonight I was told by my mother and brother that I need an attitude check. And to achieve this, they said I might just need to fail at something. If I failed at something it would give me encouragment to get stuff done. I get stuff done now, I always do, its just sometimes at the last minute or not quite as good as it could have been, but still good.
I know I need a better attitude. I'm always pessamestic about things, and I don't need them to tell me that. I've been worried for a while that it is going to... I don't know... affect my quality of life. (If that doesnt sound so stupid to say) I was thinking that I would give up being negative for Lent, but then again, thats not for a while. I guess I don't need the Catholic church to tell me when to change my attitude, and I could start now, but I'm scared that if I try to do that, I'll just get so pissed off about something and have a bad attitude, anyway. I don't have any checks or balances in this idea, and don't know if I want to tell my boyfriend I am doing it for fear of what he will say to me when I get really pissed off one day.
Whats a girl to do?
if I just make it through this year, I think that the future gets better. (I've been telling myself that since my freshman year of high school.)
I guess my problem is that I dont really have anything big to get excited about right now.
How do I keep a positive attitude, if I don't know that I've ever had one before, really.
Some people say you should write down positive things about yourself and the world everyday. But I mean, does that really work? Honestly?
I guess I just have to focus on being positive, not negative, and find what works for me within myself. I just hope I don't give up on myself. I have to have a happier college career than HS or middle school.
We'll See
L.
I have finals this week at school. I'm kind of stressing out about them. But then I'm off for a month, and going on a trip to Chicago. Its a much needed break. Tonight I was told by my mother and brother that I need an attitude check. And to achieve this, they said I might just need to fail at something. If I failed at something it would give me encouragment to get stuff done. I get stuff done now, I always do, its just sometimes at the last minute or not quite as good as it could have been, but still good.
I know I need a better attitude. I'm always pessamestic about things, and I don't need them to tell me that. I've been worried for a while that it is going to... I don't know... affect my quality of life. (If that doesnt sound so stupid to say) I was thinking that I would give up being negative for Lent, but then again, thats not for a while. I guess I don't need the Catholic church to tell me when to change my attitude, and I could start now, but I'm scared that if I try to do that, I'll just get so pissed off about something and have a bad attitude, anyway. I don't have any checks or balances in this idea, and don't know if I want to tell my boyfriend I am doing it for fear of what he will say to me when I get really pissed off one day. Whats a girl to do?
if I just make it through this year, I think that the future gets better. (I've been telling myself that since my freshman year of high school.)
I guess my problem is that I dont really have anything big to get excited about right now.
How do I keep a positive attitude, if I don't know that I've ever had one before, really.
Some people say you should write down positive things about yourself and the world everyday. But I mean, does that really work? Honestly?
I guess I just have to focus on being positive, not negative, and find what works for me within myself. I just hope I don't give up on myself. I have to have a happier college career than HS or middle school.
We'll See
L.
RAJmyRajan1 # Monday, December 8, 2008 8:35:36 AM