My OperaWhat started off bad ended good.
Monday, September 27, 2010 2:13:45 AM
Ok so i guess the daily posting thing is alot harder than i thought but here i am better late than never. For the past several day i have really been feeling down and defeted. I am staying on a friends sofa have been for over a month cuz i couldnt find a job to get my own place. Well praise god i found a job but it turned out to be only 6 hours a week at a mere 8 bucks an hour.
So again i got down on myself and was feeling thaqt crap about my situation then i get a phone call. It was a really good friend just calling to say hi next thing i know i am just dumping all my crap on her about how frusterated and discusted i am about my situation. My situation is i left a great job and awesome home and amazing friends in califonia to come back to nebraska to make good on a warrent i had for a 2nd offense dui from 2 years ago. I turned myself in did 22 days in jail (my first time in jail other than just a night stay). I came back because i felt and still do that god was leading me back here to take care of my past so i could have a future. So i got out of jail and have met with nothing but problems and today was my breaking point.
After i unloaded on my friend she told me this is gonna be probly the most difficult time in my life because i am paying for my past but im not doing it alone ive got jesus with me. Then she reminded me of the footprints poem and i was brought to tears. It is at this time i need to stand on the faith jesus gives me and let him do the rest. Blessing are coming but in his time and of his choosing. She said when its to difficult to move forward just stand. She also reminded me that im doing all this sober and that in and of its self is a mircle because in the past i would automatically turn to drugs and booze and any type of life struggle.
It just goes to show you than when things seem at their worst god will use some one to encourage you to remember your faith and that no matter what you have or dont have you have the love of a powerful god and the salvation of a loving lord and NOBODY can take that from you.
So again i got down on myself and was feeling thaqt crap about my situation then i get a phone call. It was a really good friend just calling to say hi next thing i know i am just dumping all my crap on her about how frusterated and discusted i am about my situation. My situation is i left a great job and awesome home and amazing friends in califonia to come back to nebraska to make good on a warrent i had for a 2nd offense dui from 2 years ago. I turned myself in did 22 days in jail (my first time in jail other than just a night stay). I came back because i felt and still do that god was leading me back here to take care of my past so i could have a future. So i got out of jail and have met with nothing but problems and today was my breaking point.
After i unloaded on my friend she told me this is gonna be probly the most difficult time in my life because i am paying for my past but im not doing it alone ive got jesus with me. Then she reminded me of the footprints poem and i was brought to tears. It is at this time i need to stand on the faith jesus gives me and let him do the rest. Blessing are coming but in his time and of his choosing. She said when its to difficult to move forward just stand. She also reminded me that im doing all this sober and that in and of its self is a mircle because in the past i would automatically turn to drugs and booze and any type of life struggle.
It just goes to show you than when things seem at their worst god will use some one to encourage you to remember your faith and that no matter what you have or dont have you have the love of a powerful god and the salvation of a loving lord and NOBODY can take that from you.
