He is same everyone else,he had something good,something bad,cause he is a human,he is never perfect,he also have emotion like sad,happy,angry,mad.....but,somehow,he know how to hide it deep inside his mind,never show out to anyone else,but deep inside that still a guy with all emotion,all feeling,all dream and want every good things come to him,but that never come as he wish,never come.....
He is proud that he never ask for money from anyone else,from the moment he got money that had paid for his work, he is proud that he could buy things that he like to have by his own money,not from anyone else, eat what he want to eat by his own money,help someone that they needed help by money,never ask them to pay back,paid for his high school course by his money,some computer program also by his money,no one else do that for him,no one,except his ex..
He know how to do or fix something,by himself,by his hands,by his knowledge,he is proud about that,but he never got any thanks or grateful,people always look at the bad side and told him do like this or like that,with a unacceptable sound,...
Too many words,just simple,but it hurt him,hurt his little guy inside him that was hide away the sad feeling,more hiding from the moment he found out that he is GAY,he scared everything,he never want that too,and more than that when his mom said she never want he became that way,he loved mom very much,so as much as he could,he tried to hide everything,in his mind just one thing : BE STRAIGHT...
He like to go to gay bar too,to see how gay people live,enjoy and do things,but he never dare to go there until he knew his mom won't know about that.
He want to have a boy friend who love him,live with and take care of him, need an arms hold around him when he sad,sick or lonely all the time or when he needed,but no one came that way,no one could do that even his ex boy friend.
He like to have a family,with his partner,with his child if they could have or get a child for that,a place for him to come back after work,to see the one he love,his child grow up with his love,as a normal family,but he dream for that,always in his dream....
He dream he have a big house,with many room that could let his brother and sisters live together,never live in poor life,have everything that someone else must be jealous about that,still in his dream....
He dream that he could have a high position in his job,to get more respect from workmates,from the boss,from everything that someone else dream about too,but never had,still in dream,....
He always live with his feeling and his emotions, if he have to choose work or love,he always will choose love,good job or his life,always will be his life,cause he know,if he could have a good job but without life,he is nothing,but with his life,even not good one,but he had almost everything,always to the side of passion,feeling,.....that why he is nothing now,but he had almost everything he respect and expect to have in his life!...
Too many things to say,too many things to do,too many hope to wait for,but all that things could not be tell...
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His name is LY QUOC HUNG, He is me!
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Why everyone say bad to the one when they did something wrong,but never say thank or grateful to them if they did something nice to life?
Why people want other respect them,but they never respect other people who is under them in life,in society, in work place,on the street,in restaurant,....?
Why people want to hear nice,sweet,warm words but never say that to other people,not just only to their lover or something like that?
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