Sim Sim

My journeys without you….

Thursday, 9. July 2009, 16:11:57

It’s been nearly a year since we had no connections, since our story ended up.
It’s always said time is a great healer and it’s truly applicable in any cases, including mine.
Life still goes on the way it is even though you and me have parted which once had only happened in my worst dreams. Sometimes, I feel like you have never existed at all, like I’m used to this life without you for a long long time and it is totally fine all the way. But at times, when the memory come back like this moment, I realize that somewhere in my heart, in my mind, you’re still there.

Last year, when we were on holiday, you and I made a promise that this year, we would travel to a further place, a nicer place and you would take turn to drive the car with my dad.
This year, I still make it to further place, a nicer place and my family do have a more wonderful time together but…without you. You can never make it, we can never make it…

I can not fool myself that what I’m enjoying here is more than perfect but they do remind me of you, of the old times we had
When I’m at the beach, I remember when you held me on your back, running on the sand along Van Chai beach on a windy evening
When I’m having seafood, I remember it was you who always gave me the biggest and the most savoury crab pincers.
When I’m in the car, I remember when you sat next to me, driving the car and holding my hands tightly…

All of them were real but I wonder whether any of them is true?
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You ask me how can I forget you so quickly within almost 1 year time? No, I’ve never forgotten you but you are no longer a part of my life and you will never be.
Though the memories still come back, I know everything is gonna be alright…’cause from now on I am strong enough to continue my journeys without you.

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Mere truth

Thursday, 28. May 2009, 16:40:13

Then it finally comes,
I can not hold myself from calling you even I was the one to tell you not to contact me in the first place.

I had known it was such a foolish move but i still did it. It was even more terrible when I claimed that I missed you a lot.

I was such a loser!

Had you felt the same way I did, you must have called me or contacted me long before now. But it did not happen and I understand that was a very straight affirmation that we're so over. The affair is so over when you finally come back to your family and your little "sweetie"

That's so life, so you and so a man!!
Easy come, easy go, easy love, easy throw!

You still answered me, still replied my text but it can never be the same. I understand very clearly your cold message!

Thanks a lot for unblinding me!

After all, it is still a game all the way and it seems that I've lost in it

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Daydreamer

Wednesday, 27. May 2009, 17:10:54

Each day passes by, I'm more and more aware of the word "life"

As soon as I begin a so-called independent life of an adult who has to earn living, to be responsible for my life and my actions and to experinence different kinds of relationship, I realize that life is so complicated.

I don't have to suffer from any great misery up till now but various flavour in life always makes me think about it not in a very opstimistic way:) (well, just occasionally)

Got home at 10.30pm today and my mind went blank, even the tiredness couldn't be sensed!

I keep missing one man but another man sent me a sms saying that he loves me!
I yearn for that msg but from another person! Anyway, I know the message I've always been looking for will never reach me again
Yet, I also know I'm going break another heart...
How could it be possible?
Why does it have to go this way?
Why do people keep loving the one who doesn't love them back and then hurt themselves?
..And Why do I?

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I'm sorry, I can't
I can't never make you happy and I can't be happy with you...

'Cause I don't love you...

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I was a fool...

Sunday, 24. May 2009, 16:46:30

...loving you!

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The beginning of the end...

Wednesday, 13. May 2009, 10:49:32

...Or the end of the begining,or watever the title can be as long as it contains the two words "beginning"and "end" to suit my story...

So, that's it! 2 months and 1 day for a virtual relationship to become a real one! In this life, there are things we've never thought that would happen to us but in fact they still do! We just don't know how to explain it!

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Time's up! We no longer have "one more month","10 days", "7 days", "6 days" or even one day left! The day we longed for to meet each other and to actually love each other once is also the day we have to say goodbye! We both know it, we had known it long before we met or to be honest, right from the start!
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Human being is always greedy and so am I:)..I used to think that we could be friends, then I thought it was ok if i liked you and then still ok if i fell in love with you provided that we would never meet in real life! Finally I decided to meet you and i tried to persuade myself that it was still ok because it would be only a one-time date and wouldn't do any harm! And now, when I've finally met you, i stupidily wish you would be mine not only for..one day:)

I was surprised because you didn't say anything to me when we said goodbye but after all, i think you needn't to and i totally understand it. Sad? Yes, I am! Sorrows? of course and regrets? a lot but..for the first time, there are no tears. You are the only man who can do that and believe it or not, I truly feel thankful for it. Thank you for keeping your promise and making me strong:)

Life....as you always say...!

Be good, be happy nhe', and don't go to bed too late like you did....

For the last time, I love you, my dummy...!I really do!

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Little girl, don't cry...

Wednesday, 6. May 2009, 17:54:43

Sometimes when we touch - Olivia

You ask me if I love you
And I choke on my reply
I'd rather hurt you honestly
Than mislead you with a lie

For who am I to judge you
In what you say or do
I'm only just beginning
To see the real you

Chorus
And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes
And hide
I wanna hold you till I die
Till we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

Romance's an honest strategy
Leaves me grappling with my pride
But through the years of maturity
Some tenderness survives
I'm just another writer
Still trapped within my truth
A hesitant prize-fighter
Still trapped within my youth

Chorus

At times I'd like to break you
And drive you to your knees
At times I'd like to break through
And hold you endlessly
At times I understand you
And I know how hard you try
I've watched whil love commands you
And I've watched love pass you by
At times I think we're drifters
Still searching for a friend
A brother or a sister
But then the passion flares again....

Chorus

Cu sau 1 thoi gian, em lai kiem tra long dung cam cua minh bang cach ron ren nghe lai bai hat nay. Chang fai bai "Nothing's gonna change my love for you" ma em van de rieng lam nhac chuong cho so cua anh, chang fai nhung bai hat ngot ngao khac em van hay nghe khi nghi den anh, ma la bai nay, bai hat em tinh co nghe nhieu nhat khi minh chia tay!

Khi em khoc het nuoc mat, khi em khong tho noi, khi tim em tan nat, khi em co don, khi em ngoi 1 minh trong van phong nuoc mat roi la cha, khi buoi toi em nam khoc uot het goi, khi buoi sang day la moi lan em dau tranh voi thuc tai, luon la bai hat nay...........

Toi nay, gan nua nam sau, em nghe bat lai bai hat nay, va em lai bat khoc...
Vi cai gi anh nhi? Vi tat ca nhung cam xuc cu lai ua ve hay vi dau do, trong tam tri va trai tim em, van con anh?

Em muon khoc qua, em muon om 1 ai do, khoc that nhieu nhu hoi truoc em van lam....
Em muon khoc vi em nho anh nhu bao lan truoc, em muon lai duoc goi cho anh, duoc nghe anh noi "anh xin loi", va ngay mai minh lai yeu nhau nhu the..

Em ...

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"I knew I loved you"

Tuesday, 5. May 2009, 17:00:24

11.48 pm, ngoi nghe bai hat nay...
Tinh co xem lai may cai anh cu, thay nho 1 dieu gi do, ma chang biet la nho gi

Doi khi nam len giuong, nham mat lai, om goi va ngu, nhung giac mo, nhung y nghi mong mi, khong ro rang lai hien len...La anh, nguoi em da yeu, La anh, nguoi da mang lai hanh phuc cho em, La anh, khien em that tre con va ngot ngao, La anh, nguoi lam em dau kho va La anh, nguoi giup em truong thanh hon:)

8 thang, mot minh...
Dan dan lay lai duoc thang bang, thay rang cuoc song con nhieu dieu de lam, de phan dau...
Nhung niem vui chang bao gio tron ven nhu truoc kia, khi em co anh...
Nu cuoi se chang bao gio con nhu truoc nua, khi em yeu anh, rat nhieu...

I knew I used to love you, once, truly!
But it's better like this and I know I'll be fine on my own

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Random...

Saturday, 25. April 2009, 18:04:55

Rarely do i have a gentle Saturday like this...

Late get-up in the morning...
Nice weather...
Driving lesson in the afternoon...
Chocolate Coffee and chocolate cookies in a sweetie love chocolate coffee shop with a cool guy- a best friend:)
Go to a movie, enjoy an evening at highland..

Feeling alive, fresh, young...

After all, I am alive, fresh and young^^

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Like and love

Wednesday, 8. April 2009, 06:34:50

"I hate it when people confuse the words "like" and "love". "Like" is when u know the best sides of someone and u like them..."Love" is when you know the worst sides that someone could ever have and you still love that person with everything you have in your heart!" - My favourite quote.....

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I like you, you like me
I miss you, you miss me..

But you love her and you're already commited...

I like you but I can't..
I miss you but I can't..

After all, we're nothing to each other but I'm ok with it:)

I'm gonna miss you someday coz you are really really something to me...

I will miss you, for sure...

And I'm ready for it - the day we say goodbye!

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1.07 am, April 3

Thursday, 2. April 2009, 18:14:52

1.10 am, working and listening to this song:)..I love it:X

You are all I need - White Lion

I know that she's waitin'
for me to say forever
I know that I sometimes
just don't know how to tell her
I want to hold and kiss her
give her my love, make her believe
she doesn't know
she doesn't know

you're all I need beside me girl
you're all I need to turn my world
you're all I want inside my heart
you're all I need when we're apart
you're all that I need - yeah

I know that she's always
there when I need her loving
I know that I never
told her how much I love her
I see her face before me
I look in her eyes
just wondering why
she doesn't know
she doesn't know
she doesn't know

you're all I need beside me girl
you're all I need to turn my world
you're all I want inside my heart
you're all I need when we're apart

say, say that you'll be there
whenever I reach out to feel your hand in mine
stay, stay within my heart
whenever I'm alone, I know that you are there

oooooh

(2 times)
you're all I need beside me girl
you're all I need to turn my world
you're all I want inside my heart
you're all I need when we're apart

all that I need is for you to believe
all that I need is YOU