My another world

I never get to say it! I promise myself a million times that tonight is the night, I'm gonna say it no matter what. And guess what, nothing!? I'm so ashamed of myself and so mad at how i reacted.

Why can't I just be a little bit courageous and say it for once what are stuck in my head, tell him what I really think and ask questions. Man, I just need to be myself, why is it so hard?

Argggg..this will go on forever, I swear to Buddha and it's going to hurt myself so soon. Another whining entry is rolled out very soon which I definitely don't want to happen.

Shame on me though tonight is a great night....