Saturday, January 1, 2011 4:51:59 AM
Hello to the new year and goodbye to the old. some had a great year in 2010 while others miss the old one. I am one of those people but eventually we let go of the great and the terrible things that happen to start some new memories. Sometimes letting go of feelings for someone, of friends, loved ones, items that your close to, and everything is difficult; Trust me i know. In 2010 it took me a long time to let of the person i expressed feelings to (i was really not that talkative or expressive before). They weren't the feelings of love but just what i felt about things and stuff like that. That changed within weeks but after all of this time i regret how things went down. I try not to live in the past but at times i succeed and at other times i don't. A week before this blog was posted a lot of things changed and so did my feelings. I cant say i no longer like that girl but i can say that i let go. I cant say i dont regret the way things turned out because i do regret..... but i can say i wouldn't of changed things in any way. I finally accepted and let go of many things and i am happy for that
Some memories are worth keeping but the only way to make them memorable is if you make them. Hope everyone has another great year
Saturday, January 1, 2011 3:57:00 AM
~ So i eventually went back to facebook only for the reason of sharing my recent las vegas trip. Then after a while i got hooked again.
~ The girl i liked for a long time (i lost track of how long.... but i know for a fact that its been a little under 2 years.)
completely stop talking to me and now i'm pretty sure she dislikes me a lot.
~ I got a kitten named Arthur

we adopted him, hes so awesome.
~ I want more out of life but things are to set here in the town i live in, i might move and start new.
Wednesday, August 4, 2010 1:37:51 AM
You know when you do something stupid or say the wrong thing people bother you about it even though it was a mistake? Well i hate that, especially when you did something before that you meant to do and you change then people assume your like that forever. (i am not talking about my two previous blogs, they are changing for the worse (well most of them) and are not improving... I was bad back then but im changing for the good, improving anything i can so i can become better then before) like back then i use to be omega super perverted right? well now i barely show it and I'm not as close as before but people keep assuming that and will always think that cause they don't give me time or a way to show it. Most people keep thinking that of me (upon other things, just using it as an example) and when i want to show that i changed (which i did and change means a lot to me, you have no idea) they just keep on thinking that even when i do show it and keep on showing it. I really hate that and it kinda hurts. To me change is something you can see and not something you do. I decided to change a while back but no one can see it, nor do they want to i think. I really try to make them see that i did change since we last met or since we last talked. they just don't really accept it and give a chance. Right now I'm a totally different person from what i was at the beginning of the summer but no one gives me a chance. i wish people could see that i changed, i hate my old self and i want them to see that i did. it hurts me sometimes knowing that they only know the old me and assume everything that i did before. i want them to see that i changed...
Friday, July 23, 2010 1:06:38 AM
For a while now i have been noticing only the bad side of people, its not because I'm imagining it and there good side rarely shows. Last school year i was (i think) in love with someone because of how she was when i met her. Then near the end she completely changed attitude and everything (like more aggressive and mean i guess), i didn't like it... I thought i was just with her but it wasn't, everyone i know is changing completely and showing there bad side more. My best friend (number one) is changing a lot too, its like i don't even know her anymore. I miss how things use to be and how people use to act, now i don't know anyone
People are becoming more mean or aggressive and i don't know why. It might be me but i will never know, today i was talking to someone i really liked. Now i don't like her as much, or at all. We use to be such good friends and we knew eachother so well but now i don't even know her that well and i don't like her as much in a like like way and in a friend way :\ I want things to change but there is no chance of that anymore. I know we all change but this is different, way different. To be honest they are hurting me and they don't know it, they ask me sometimes to be honest but i can't say anything because its kinda rude and not me (to say something bad/dislike about them) I really want a girlfriend but everyone i liked changed too much in the bad way, i like there old selves a lot more. I miss how things use to be so much and i wish they would change back. For now I'm going to Las Vegas in two days.... See you all later :\