What is it about love that makes us behave like fools and lose all reason? I hate and at the same time passionately love my man. He makes me so mad one moment n i swear its over even if i dont mean it. Then i get him 2 call me and apologise which he does. Sometimes i want to break open his skull with a pan but i know i'd tend to his wounds lovingly till he heals. Its like an addiction to a drug i should get a cure from or atleast control but am just happy to be in that high.

I am in a very worried state right now. I had the most annoying conversation with my cousin today. He's 21 n had come to me asking if he could have sex at my house with a girl he'd just met 3 days ago. I know him having sex is his right and choice but since he was asking it be at my house i felt responsible, especially since i know he'd had sex with a girl he barely knew without protection. That time i'd taken him through the dangers of unprotected sex and if he has to have it then how to protect himself. So today i ask whether he has condoms. I was shocked by his answer. That he has a way of testing whether a girl is a virgin, that he just has to finger one to know. I almost boxed his ears but calmed down to give him a lecture. I told him all about kegel exercises which help a woman tighten down there u wouldnt know she's had sex, all about procedures done to tighten and all manner of stuff. I asked what's wrong with having sex with a cd and he said its like eating a sweet with a wrapper. I told him many wrappers are very flavoured and smell nice but he wouldnt listen. And the boy had the gall to ask me then why do i take a pill everyday? My answer of faithfulness, trust and first going for tests in a 2yr relationship didnt satisfy him. At the end of the half hr conversation i tried again telling him a finger wont help u know the virginity of a girl and better safe than sorry but he told me he's an expert at finding out. I think to end the conversation he showed me 2 unused condoms but i think that like the last time they'll end up still that way and he'll again tell me he forgot. Why do people take so casually the importance of protection?

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